reading

For a few days ive caught myself several times waiting for justin to sign on. This was weird in my mind becausde i couldnt find anything to do unless he was online to talk to... So i started thinking what exactly did i do before justin and i started going out. because i didnt have my laptop i hadnt spent much time on the computer. so i finally figured it out. I used to read. THATS why i read 600 pages a day. thats why i started writing. because i spent so much free time doing it. and i used to fall in love with the stories. that again is a reason i started writing. i always used to love how the stories would unfold with the pages. I could spend hours reading these amazing stories like they were my own life. I loved that feeling like i could do anything. And i appreciated every word the authors wrote, every word tied together in sentences that create this story. It was amazing and i always wanted to do that. I wanted to be the one to make that. i wanted to create those stories with my OWN words. to have my name on my own story. i loved the story. I found that again. and im reading again! and writing and im finidn myself again and even though that means i talk to justin less and i miss him more when we DO get to see each other its just us two the rest of the world just drops away and its an amazing feeling. lol that sounds like something in a book :) my writing self just coming alive. i love that feeling too. my thoughts writen coming together and then poof actual flow and story :)
GothGirl xox