Okay week 3 gone and done and you wont believe it. Until this morning, i was still at three outlines. yes three. Then after once again reading through my posts i forced my self to read the last 50 pages and update till 5 outlins. yes 5. so week 3 and i was only at 5 paragraphs. how pathetic. Thing is after i finished that. i caught up. the only reason it was taking long was because of the reading part. once i was done with that continuing the story wasnt hard. So i wrote 10 more outlines back to back boom-boom booom! it was perfect. so yes for those who cant do math i am at 15 outlines in total. which means if i write 6 more tomorrow i will be completly back on track. easy peasy. though now i do have to make a bday card for leah, write a page for french. and go to leahs birthday dinner tomorrow because i accidentally blew the entire day writing!! I'm actually really proud of myself usualy days when im writing i get sidetracked. either by tv or another book that im reading so ill take like hour breaks in between but today once i got past the reading part it was great i literally sat writing all day and i didnt even notice the time passing except for when i got hungry at waround 3 :P but besides that. yays.
anyways back to my own personal world. see you all next week.
GothGirl xox
Saturday, November 21, 2009
Sunday, November 15, 2009
week 2
Today is the first day of week 2i am still where i wrote yesturday. So now the idea is writing 5 today. though with the amount of homework i have im not sure ill be able to. i have a mining project about copper cliffs. and french test to study for and a geo test to study for and i have to fill out my products sheet. altogether not a lot but ill tell you. it sure does take a long time.
hopefully i can atleast get it to 16. i need to re evaluate my chart. i wasnt thinking realisticly.
until saturday,
gothgirlxox
hopefully i can atleast get it to 16. i need to re evaluate my chart. i wasnt thinking realisticly.
until saturday,
gothgirlxox
Saturday, November 14, 2009
update week 1
Okay on paper it looked a lot easyer then actually doing it. Week one is almost up already being saturday afternoon and all and imonly done till chapter 3. not thirteen. so either i wrrite the other 2 i have done and create 8 more. im not going to be finished. now i do know that im probably not going to hae 31 chapters. so im going to just try to keep up best i can. writing as much as possible doing as many of these outlines i have time for. I didnt realize how tired i was after my homework till i started writing after i finished my homework. omg i just keep thinking i wanna go to sleep i wanna go to sleep. now of course once im done catching up i can start writing outlines whenever. So like in the morning on the bus, or at lunch or even during class if i have time. it'll work out its just this first week of getting used to it tat im having a hard time with. once im in the mood and the rythm im sure this'll go alot faster. Lets cross our fingers!! X.
Even though i have a lot of homework this weekend im sure ill still have time to atleast finish and write... one or two. which means i will still be behind but i'll probably be able to catch up if i continue like this.
gothgirlxox
Even though i have a lot of homework this weekend im sure ill still have time to atleast finish and write... one or two. which means i will still be behind but i'll probably be able to catch up if i continue like this.
gothgirlxox
Tuesday, November 10, 2009
Rainbow youth forum '09
I'm bad, i know i really am. I'm supposed to be studying for my science test insanely so i can catch up on my writing putlines that i missed yesturday. But i just have to say this forst before i forget all the amazing details.
Today was the ottawa rainbow youth forum. For those that don't know what that is heres a simple way to look at it. Its a gay straight alliance. a bunch of kids no matter what gender orientation or w,e get together and go to a bunch a queer oriented workshop. Now before you get all offended, queer isnt actually a bad word if used in the right way. Queer is the given title for anyone who is anything besides heterosexual, that consists of around 20 sub-groups( bi, gay, lesbian, trans, etc) So today i went, and even if i couldnt stay for the entire time, what i did participate in was amazing and i so will attend next year. Here is my experience of the event:
We get to school, take the 71 bus all the way to the sportsplexe, ( or well the school next to the sportsplexe) then we enter the building and find out that there are SO many people there... little did we know that that was less than half of the total attending population. We were only 11 because we only had one grade. WE were given name tags and we got to choose several things out of a wide variety on pencils, pens, stickers, pins, etc etc. I got a rainbow bracelet and sticker, and a windmill pin. Then we enter the caf area. there i realized that nearly everyone there was goth. i mean EVERYONE except for our school for some reason. i mean it was like o wave of weird coloured hair and awesome clothes and shoes, but the best part is everyone was so nice and open. altogether a bunch of great people. There were people walking around with "free hugs" posters and talking and dancing. it was amazing. After a few speakers and speaches we watched a movie clip about the pride perade. the movement of gay rights in form of awesome... i say that's pretty cool. though several people were harmed, or even killed, and others arested its still amazing. and all over the world people are still fighting this. we say we're accepting but yet so much of this sis still going on and it has got to stop! but for now people are doing all they can.
As for the workshops.... hmm well the first one i attended was "peeling off labels and breaking down stereotypes" rm 119. after i found the room i took a seat one of the first there i sat near the front. As people started coming in i felt like the plague. no one sat near me... i mean NO ONE. until all the other seats were full of course. so i was kinda feeling down that no one sat near me. i mean i was alone somewhere i hadnt been before i didnt know what to expect and im generally nice so i was kinda shocked. But once the class started well i kind of forgot. we talked about so many things and how they affect people and of course stereotypes. not just about queers either but people in general. some exmples are:
Today was the ottawa rainbow youth forum. For those that don't know what that is heres a simple way to look at it. Its a gay straight alliance. a bunch of kids no matter what gender orientation or w,e get together and go to a bunch a queer oriented workshop. Now before you get all offended, queer isnt actually a bad word if used in the right way. Queer is the given title for anyone who is anything besides heterosexual, that consists of around 20 sub-groups( bi, gay, lesbian, trans, etc) So today i went, and even if i couldnt stay for the entire time, what i did participate in was amazing and i so will attend next year. Here is my experience of the event:
We get to school, take the 71 bus all the way to the sportsplexe, ( or well the school next to the sportsplexe) then we enter the building and find out that there are SO many people there... little did we know that that was less than half of the total attending population. We were only 11 because we only had one grade. WE were given name tags and we got to choose several things out of a wide variety on pencils, pens, stickers, pins, etc etc. I got a rainbow bracelet and sticker, and a windmill pin. Then we enter the caf area. there i realized that nearly everyone there was goth. i mean EVERYONE except for our school for some reason. i mean it was like o wave of weird coloured hair and awesome clothes and shoes, but the best part is everyone was so nice and open. altogether a bunch of great people. There were people walking around with "free hugs" posters and talking and dancing. it was amazing. After a few speakers and speaches we watched a movie clip about the pride perade. the movement of gay rights in form of awesome... i say that's pretty cool. though several people were harmed, or even killed, and others arested its still amazing. and all over the world people are still fighting this. we say we're accepting but yet so much of this sis still going on and it has got to stop! but for now people are doing all they can.
As for the workshops.... hmm well the first one i attended was "peeling off labels and breaking down stereotypes" rm 119. after i found the room i took a seat one of the first there i sat near the front. As people started coming in i felt like the plague. no one sat near me... i mean NO ONE. until all the other seats were full of course. so i was kinda feeling down that no one sat near me. i mean i was alone somewhere i hadnt been before i didnt know what to expect and im generally nice so i was kinda shocked. But once the class started well i kind of forgot. we talked about so many things and how they affect people and of course stereotypes. not just about queers either but people in general. some exmples are:
- orientals are smart
- trans are drag queens ( no thanks to rocky roadshow i might add)
- les' are butch
- gays are flamboyant,
- middle easterners are terrorists
- irish are drankards
- etc etc
Following that we we given a label on our foreheads and we had to have a conversation with the person and it was really awkward because we kept staring at it and asking weird questions and then you had to guess the label you have. It was disturbing and i get how queers might find that odd because they are just people too, i donbt get others act weird around them, i dont see a diffrence myself. my mom on the other hand has some serious homophobic problems. After that workshop 2. i was there first so i got a bouncy ball woot woot! the title of this class was "queer 101" in room 123. no problem finding it, it was practically 3 steps away. So then expecting the same result as last time i sit down and people avoid me until the last possible seats are there. the exact opposite happened. Second person there sit RIGHT next to me. i mean one seat over. i was so happy and then it followed like that. the rest that came all sat first near me then around but i mean helped me feel more open and comfortable than before. This class i actually participated more. i spoke up and talked. Anyways we discussed a bit about queer history and the terms and what they mean and what the symbols were, then we discussed hilarious myths that people actually believe. Now i;ve got to tell you most instrucors would have made this class sooo lame i mean it wasnt very thrilling info. but omg!!! the person who taught it was amazing!! i mean Spazs was this 30 year old man with long spiked hair and black skull clothing and arm tatoos and percings all over his facce and this sick jeans with rainbow overalls. Basically totally awesome and he was hilarious! i mean he made everything funny. he was gay. though not flamboyantly so. Then there was........ dude. he had these big 80's glasses and thats all i can really say, but he too was funny. and bi. So there you have it two of the best funniest nisest people i ever met and they are queer. So anyways i laughed a lot as did the rest of the class and mackenzie ( the girl who sat with me) ended up sharing a chair with me during the symbols challenge. So it all worked out. plus i got a bouncy ball !! :P btw the amount of bad puns told in this class!!! i swear best hour of my week by a long shot. you know what best hour in a long time. However this is where the fun ends. After that i had my last workshop "spirituality" in room 107. where is one-o-seven? ahh thats the question. it takes me friken 20 minutes tto find it, then once i do i find out its not only a really lame ass class, but my group is lame as is the two christians teaching it. now i point out christians because of the fact that the entire class was about gays in religion. it had nothing to do with spirit... NOTHING! so i sat and listened to his 50 minute speach about his gay marrage in the christian church.... really lame. i dont care. Gasp you were denied, no shit you got married the month after it was legalized. just because its legal doesnt mean that people will accept it right away. So then it was time to catch our bus and head home. and even though we left early the day continued. Following that was a speach from the dude from degrassi. i would have LOVED to see that, but sadly i couldnt and then a movir about the pride parades
So tomorrow and the rest of your lives i want you to accept people for who they are. no matter.
GothGirl xox
Saturday, November 7, 2009
reading
For a few days ive caught myself several times waiting for justin to sign on. This was weird in my mind becausde i couldnt find anything to do unless he was online to talk to... So i started thinking what exactly did i do before justin and i started going out. because i didnt have my laptop i hadnt spent much time on the computer. so i finally figured it out. I used to read. THATS why i read 600 pages a day. thats why i started writing. because i spent so much free time doing it. and i used to fall in love with the stories. that again is a reason i started writing. i always used to love how the stories would unfold with the pages. I could spend hours reading these amazing stories like they were my own life. I loved that feeling like i could do anything. And i appreciated every word the authors wrote, every word tied together in sentences that create this story. It was amazing and i always wanted to do that. I wanted to be the one to make that. i wanted to create those stories with my OWN words. to have my name on my own story. i loved the story. I found that again. and im reading again! and writing and im finidn myself again and even though that means i talk to justin less and i miss him more when we DO get to see each other its just us two the rest of the world just drops away and its an amazing feeling. lol that sounds like something in a book :) my writing self just coming alive. i love that feeling too. my thoughts writen coming together and then poof actual flow and story :)
GothGirl xox
GothGirl xox
New goals
Dear readers,
I'm proud to say that i now am back on track. For a few months now, i haven't been able to write, i've been stuck and uninsperated, and most of all un willing. But no more. With the few simple words of one of our olympic athletes i have reset my goals to finish my book on time WITH a few extra weeks to review. For a while i was contemplating moving my due date forwards. Now i realize how much a mistake that would've been. had i changed the date i would never finish my book, it would just continue to be put off, until one day i would realize that high school was almost over and i was still not done. Then with Nanowrimo* startingi remembered why i loved to write so much, why i wanted this goal so bad. I got my motive back! During the month of november while others are writing books i will be writing a chapter by chapter outline of my book. Yes that is right! the only reason i havent really been able to write much is because once i get into the mood, into the part, i can never figure out whats going to happen next. once i know that writing is easy you just describe and write. but once the figuring out part is done... well easy peasy. So while others are writing 100 000 words i will be writing a simple outline... i think that fair don't you? so there it is. After that all i'll need to do is write a chapter a week after that which again should not be that hard, once i have the outline that is. Following that set i should be dont somewhere in the month of february or march. not exact yet because i dont have the outline so no set amount of chapters. There you all go.... hmm i wonder if anyone actually reads this anymore. No matter it is out there for the futur when im all famous and i will still know who my first followers were. :P By the way my book wednesdays ** well now it will be moved to saturday because that is the end on my weeks thus the end of my weekly goal. i can then update you on how that is going and making sure that you all stay updated on whats going on. That was the point of this blog.... well a few months after i made it. At first i just made it for fun now though i seriously think that im going to try to focus it on my book and like my life around that. so when its done and people ask me how i made it i can just point them here. :) like the movie julie and julia. julie's blog would be abput her daily food recipes... mine will be about my weekly writing. So in cheers to the movie,
30 sum outlines
30 days.
and 30 sum chapters
and a 6 months.
:D please watch that movie i recomend it. it is sybil approved.
GothGirl xox
*Nanowrimo is the writers month. Basically writers all over the world use this month to try to write 100,000 word books. ALL OVER THE WORLD! some people prepare all year for this.
** ya remember like oh..... 7 months ago i decided to make book writting wednesdays and blog about my book every wednesday... and then i totally didnt follow it. yea that one
I'm proud to say that i now am back on track. For a few months now, i haven't been able to write, i've been stuck and uninsperated, and most of all un willing. But no more. With the few simple words of one of our olympic athletes i have reset my goals to finish my book on time WITH a few extra weeks to review. For a while i was contemplating moving my due date forwards. Now i realize how much a mistake that would've been. had i changed the date i would never finish my book, it would just continue to be put off, until one day i would realize that high school was almost over and i was still not done. Then with Nanowrimo* startingi remembered why i loved to write so much, why i wanted this goal so bad. I got my motive back! During the month of november while others are writing books i will be writing a chapter by chapter outline of my book. Yes that is right! the only reason i havent really been able to write much is because once i get into the mood, into the part, i can never figure out whats going to happen next. once i know that writing is easy you just describe and write. but once the figuring out part is done... well easy peasy. So while others are writing 100 000 words i will be writing a simple outline... i think that fair don't you? so there it is. After that all i'll need to do is write a chapter a week after that which again should not be that hard, once i have the outline that is. Following that set i should be dont somewhere in the month of february or march. not exact yet because i dont have the outline so no set amount of chapters. There you all go.... hmm i wonder if anyone actually reads this anymore. No matter it is out there for the futur when im all famous and i will still know who my first followers were. :P By the way my book wednesdays ** well now it will be moved to saturday because that is the end on my weeks thus the end of my weekly goal. i can then update you on how that is going and making sure that you all stay updated on whats going on. That was the point of this blog.... well a few months after i made it. At first i just made it for fun now though i seriously think that im going to try to focus it on my book and like my life around that. so when its done and people ask me how i made it i can just point them here. :) like the movie julie and julia. julie's blog would be abput her daily food recipes... mine will be about my weekly writing. So in cheers to the movie,
30 sum outlines
30 days.
and 30 sum chapters
and a 6 months.
:D please watch that movie i recomend it. it is sybil approved.
GothGirl xox
*Nanowrimo is the writers month. Basically writers all over the world use this month to try to write 100,000 word books. ALL OVER THE WORLD! some people prepare all year for this.
** ya remember like oh..... 7 months ago i decided to make book writting wednesdays and blog about my book every wednesday... and then i totally didnt follow it. yea that one
Friday, October 23, 2009
worst hour of my life!!
okay well to tell you this story i have to start ALL the way at the begining. So i was supposeed to have a sleepover with schwa and emma @ schwa's house on friday night at 5 pm but then emma told me saturday, so schwa corrected me that it was friday, then the plan changed and it was supposed to be at emma's house Same time. so very confusing all together i thoughht friday after school 5 pm @ emma's house right? WRONG!! but i didnt figure that out till later. So anyways i figure out the bus plan with emma last night, then today i head to the bus stop end up going on the wring street so then i have to go back and now i think im going to miss the bus so i rush. finally at the stop i figure out i have to wait for 20 minutes. greaaatt..... so the bus comes and i get on and some douche spills coke on me. now everything i do gets me even more wet. so im looking for the stop. she told to get off at the church. thing is i have no friken clue where the effing church is!!! so i just get off at the stop after slack. and walk and walk and walk and walk alone wet and cold. no im kinda gettting peaved cause i cant find her and its like UGH!! so the entire im thinking next time we meet somewhere i know. So at the merivale mall i circle for hours okay well minutes but it seemed like hours from my perspective. now its getting dark so i enter the merivale mall again. looking around for ever i find i pay phone i use my last .50 calling schwa's cell phone, she didnt pick up. i then circle for a bit more. then i go BACK to the mall and try to find a store that i can use a phone book and a phone. so finally i find a chiropractic office that looks like it has a nice lady. so she was, she gave me the phone and looked up emma's number. so i called and turns out schwa was babysitting her cousins that night and emma was at her grandmothers house. geet guys thanks for telling me! : so anyways andrew ( emmas step dad) said that he would come and drive me home, thank god. so the INSTANT i walk through the door the phone is ringing i answer and its erin. So guess what? good thing of the night erin's here. we're going to have a sleepover.... wonder what my mom will say when she gets home and im supposed to be gone but instead im here WITH someone :P
anyways byes
Gothgirlxox
anyways byes
Gothgirlxox
Thursday, October 22, 2009
having a mental breakdown
im sorry, i refuse to go into details but basically im freaking out, i have been freaking out and crying and spazzing for hours, because no matter what i do this week, nothing goes right. im a faillure and pathetic. and well truth speaks that im and idiot. so. here i sit completly stressed out and i STILL have a cold. :(
im tired, im really tired of crying.
Make it stop
Gothgirlxox
im tired, im really tired of crying.
Make it stop
Gothgirlxox
Sunday, October 18, 2009
a moment in time
you know what i'm going to stop apoligizing for not posting in a while. i have a life, im trying to get a scholarship, im writing a book (which by the way in coming along VERY slowly), and i have so much friend drama its not even funny.
So ill start with friends. I miss my court, i miss schwa, and emma, and banana, but mostly i miss them all together. We used to laugh every day and i could always count on them, i always knew that if i was having a hrad time they would be there waiting for me. i always knew they could make it seem alright. I learned a lot from them, but a year just isnt enough time for great friends like that, and even though it seems like way longer than a year, in reality it isnt. So i miss them, oh you have no idea. Now if im having a hard time and i come to school in need of a hug or reasurance, i rarely get either. The people i hang out with now have no much more drama and issues in their lives that my problems seem petty in comparison. Still doesnt mean i dont want a hug, just lately i've yet to get a hug and have been only giving them. Thank god this weekend im having a sleepover with the court. We need to catch up so bad! I have a feeling it'll be slightly awkward though because they are all in the same classes and they still all hang out and talk and laugh and now im not in any of the jokes. i have a feeling this friendship is going to fizzle out fast no matter how much we dont want it too. its just too hard having long distance friends. I already have experience with brook in the area. So i guess eventually ill give up trying to keep this friendship alive, ill come to realize its too much work dealing with troubled teens all the time and ill just be known as the geeky girl that doesnt socialize and has no friends. lol. though in the past week at some point i hung out with the not as popular popular kids.... which reminds me i still need to create a new persons chart*. Anyways so i hung out with them and they were actually nice to me, like some of the gave me looks but once we were talking it didnt really matter. and Sierra and Emily are nice to me, though probably only because im dating justin and they're friends but come on they could hate me like everyone else. oh and i think that most of the popular pain in my asses are at mericale this year, albeit not all but most.
Then there comes the subject of people in general. Lately they've just really bugged me, the more i hang around people the less and less i want to. i just keep on finding things wrong with peoples, finding things wrong with their personnalities and then that's all i notice about them, nd i know that's bad but how can i help that i mean really? So even the nicest of people the kindest of hearts, are all getting on my nerves. Sadly the more i get to know people the more and more likely i am of getting anoyed by them, except for that select few that for some reason outside of my understanding, they don't. Like justin, athina, emma, kelsey, leah... like yes they do get on my nerves,yes i do notice their flaws, but they are just so much more muted that most. Less in your face want to slap you typed thing.
As for the rest of my life, not much is going on. Anthony has gotten anoying because of his ever constantly talking shadow Daniel. Wherever athony goes as does daniel and i have to say most anoying person in my life right now has to be the people that never shut up *coughdanielcough* So my teachers are good, projects good, homework good. I do have to work evermuch harder to get straight A's but at the moment i think im succeeding honor role. yays me. Now again i have been working my ass off but as soon as this semester is over the next is an easy pass. I mean English ffshh, Art umm hello can anyone say easy?, gym everyone knows is an easy pass as long as you try hard, and math. now most people are like AHH math im going to flunk but coem on im not everyone am i, besides im gifted in math. So if i get through this, the rest of the year i can breezy by.
Now my book.... uh, well least i can say is its a slow time. but face it its been two months and im just not motified, i used to go through books daily and its taken me more than a week to read the first book of vampire diaries, and face it no way should it take Me that long. So trying harder now to get back into my scholarly ways i do admit that im having difficulties. Though i do beleive that once im into the rythm of it once more it'll go more more smoothly now that i know everything thats going to happen and the way that i want everything to play out. no excuxses anymore.
GothGirlxox
* What i mean about the personality chart is that before i had a theory that everyone could be classed and i know that i hate titles and all but if the titles are true then how is that biassed. So because origanily in my skepticism i thought there was only the popular bitches, the druggies, the freaks, the nice geeks, and the douche geeks and that was it. those were the only options. So now i realize that people , even within those sketchy guidelines were more complicated. so i have to re-do the chart implicating the much more elaborate part of the populars.
So ill start with friends. I miss my court, i miss schwa, and emma, and banana, but mostly i miss them all together. We used to laugh every day and i could always count on them, i always knew that if i was having a hrad time they would be there waiting for me. i always knew they could make it seem alright. I learned a lot from them, but a year just isnt enough time for great friends like that, and even though it seems like way longer than a year, in reality it isnt. So i miss them, oh you have no idea. Now if im having a hard time and i come to school in need of a hug or reasurance, i rarely get either. The people i hang out with now have no much more drama and issues in their lives that my problems seem petty in comparison. Still doesnt mean i dont want a hug, just lately i've yet to get a hug and have been only giving them. Thank god this weekend im having a sleepover with the court. We need to catch up so bad! I have a feeling it'll be slightly awkward though because they are all in the same classes and they still all hang out and talk and laugh and now im not in any of the jokes. i have a feeling this friendship is going to fizzle out fast no matter how much we dont want it too. its just too hard having long distance friends. I already have experience with brook in the area. So i guess eventually ill give up trying to keep this friendship alive, ill come to realize its too much work dealing with troubled teens all the time and ill just be known as the geeky girl that doesnt socialize and has no friends. lol. though in the past week at some point i hung out with the not as popular popular kids.... which reminds me i still need to create a new persons chart*. Anyways so i hung out with them and they were actually nice to me, like some of the gave me looks but once we were talking it didnt really matter. and Sierra and Emily are nice to me, though probably only because im dating justin and they're friends but come on they could hate me like everyone else. oh and i think that most of the popular pain in my asses are at mericale this year, albeit not all but most.
Then there comes the subject of people in general. Lately they've just really bugged me, the more i hang around people the less and less i want to. i just keep on finding things wrong with peoples, finding things wrong with their personnalities and then that's all i notice about them, nd i know that's bad but how can i help that i mean really? So even the nicest of people the kindest of hearts, are all getting on my nerves. Sadly the more i get to know people the more and more likely i am of getting anoyed by them, except for that select few that for some reason outside of my understanding, they don't. Like justin, athina, emma, kelsey, leah... like yes they do get on my nerves,yes i do notice their flaws, but they are just so much more muted that most. Less in your face want to slap you typed thing.
As for the rest of my life, not much is going on. Anthony has gotten anoying because of his ever constantly talking shadow Daniel. Wherever athony goes as does daniel and i have to say most anoying person in my life right now has to be the people that never shut up *coughdanielcough* So my teachers are good, projects good, homework good. I do have to work evermuch harder to get straight A's but at the moment i think im succeeding honor role. yays me. Now again i have been working my ass off but as soon as this semester is over the next is an easy pass. I mean English ffshh, Art umm hello can anyone say easy?, gym everyone knows is an easy pass as long as you try hard, and math. now most people are like AHH math im going to flunk but coem on im not everyone am i, besides im gifted in math. So if i get through this, the rest of the year i can breezy by.
Now my book.... uh, well least i can say is its a slow time. but face it its been two months and im just not motified, i used to go through books daily and its taken me more than a week to read the first book of vampire diaries, and face it no way should it take Me that long. So trying harder now to get back into my scholarly ways i do admit that im having difficulties. Though i do beleive that once im into the rythm of it once more it'll go more more smoothly now that i know everything thats going to happen and the way that i want everything to play out. no excuxses anymore.
GothGirlxox
* What i mean about the personality chart is that before i had a theory that everyone could be classed and i know that i hate titles and all but if the titles are true then how is that biassed. So because origanily in my skepticism i thought there was only the popular bitches, the druggies, the freaks, the nice geeks, and the douche geeks and that was it. those were the only options. So now i realize that people , even within those sketchy guidelines were more complicated. so i have to re-do the chart implicating the much more elaborate part of the populars.
Saturday, October 3, 2009
... untitled
Hello everybody. again sorry i havent posted in a while, i went to the first art club meeting and it was really fun, though i now have homework. i have to make signs for china month at our school for the diversity club. and IN diversity club im trying to get into the gay, straight union, meeting in downtown ottawa, it sounds like fun. I havent watched tv in nearly a week. ive made 85 $ at work and im still really busy. I just got my braces tightened so my teeth are kind of in pain though not as bad as i expected. lol. After the appointment, i hung out with justin at riocan in our usually rainy enclave ( the sement patch) and it was fun, then we saw Tina Megan Jessica, thomas, chris, amy etc ( my old friends from grade 7) and it was kinda awkward. Because justin is friends with them NOW it made it even more awkward because they thought i was dating a justin but not THAT justin. besides megan was like glarring at me the entire time. but her and chris are still together so to that i say congratz, it has to have been after a year now. anyways tine was like IM SO stalking you!! and it was funny because this is the second time. so we said hi and stuff then went back to hanging out JJ time, and it was still fun. at that point in time my teeth didnt hurt.
Yesturday was our thanksgiving dinner even if thanksgiving is next week. and we went to lindas anf i got a headache from the screaming kids. and actually wished i were doing my homework. now this is the point that justin if you read this you have to stop and skip this paragraoh and PROMIS not to read it until after march 29 2010! ~okay so i was so bored i wrote him a letter, and when i got back i decided to start a JJ scrapbook. ive had a scrapbook and set for a while now and i just never found a use for it, until now. i know we'll make it to a year, so i thought 6 months to a year recorded in scrapbook form its perfecct. i can keep all the movie tickets and jokes and other stuff recorded there and at one year ill give it to justin so he can remember all our good times. besides whever we're close to a break up, or if im sad or mad and i cant remember the good times ill just look there. so that the scene when he was camping will never be repeated. though i think a similar argument will happen near the end of this year.... im planning on cutting my hair really short, like mme herfst, and dying some of the ends lime green. not much but just enough to be like BOOM! lol. so i dont think he'll like the fact that ill have shorter hair than him. thus making a problem. but im sure we;ll get over it.
OKAY JUSTIN YOU CAN READ NOW!!!........ actually i dont really have all that much to say.to tell you the truth there isnt that much drama with me anymore, i dont hang out with them at lunch even if we are friends. sometimes ill sit with Anthony and stuff but again jsut friends. and then the fact that im happy and good... well that isnt drama.. like i do know about the drama plaguing my friends but you know what i dont really care its just the exact same thing over and over again. in diffrent forms. Right now i have a cold so that TOTALLY sucks. i feel lik shit! and i think i might have to miss the movie on sunday and the sleepover with erin even though i really want to go. im like dying. i have a headache a runny nose, eyes are wattering, my hair is gross and i should probably wash it but im too tired, and my throat feels like its been coated with moose excrements! :S:( i hate colds. anyways. im going to take a nap g'night
Sybil xox
Yesturday was our thanksgiving dinner even if thanksgiving is next week. and we went to lindas anf i got a headache from the screaming kids. and actually wished i were doing my homework. now this is the point that justin if you read this you have to stop and skip this paragraoh and PROMIS not to read it until after march 29 2010! ~okay so i was so bored i wrote him a letter, and when i got back i decided to start a JJ scrapbook. ive had a scrapbook and set for a while now and i just never found a use for it, until now. i know we'll make it to a year, so i thought 6 months to a year recorded in scrapbook form its perfecct. i can keep all the movie tickets and jokes and other stuff recorded there and at one year ill give it to justin so he can remember all our good times. besides whever we're close to a break up, or if im sad or mad and i cant remember the good times ill just look there. so that the scene when he was camping will never be repeated. though i think a similar argument will happen near the end of this year.... im planning on cutting my hair really short, like mme herfst, and dying some of the ends lime green. not much but just enough to be like BOOM! lol. so i dont think he'll like the fact that ill have shorter hair than him. thus making a problem. but im sure we;ll get over it.
OKAY JUSTIN YOU CAN READ NOW!!!........ actually i dont really have all that much to say.to tell you the truth there isnt that much drama with me anymore, i dont hang out with them at lunch even if we are friends. sometimes ill sit with Anthony and stuff but again jsut friends. and then the fact that im happy and good... well that isnt drama.. like i do know about the drama plaguing my friends but you know what i dont really care its just the exact same thing over and over again. in diffrent forms. Right now i have a cold so that TOTALLY sucks. i feel lik shit! and i think i might have to miss the movie on sunday and the sleepover with erin even though i really want to go. im like dying. i have a headache a runny nose, eyes are wattering, my hair is gross and i should probably wash it but im too tired, and my throat feels like its been coated with moose excrements! :S:( i hate colds. anyways. im going to take a nap g'night
Sybil xox
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