hey!!! SUMMER is finally here! im so happy. Right now im hanging out with leah. this will be the second night we sleepover together. PArty in the tent!! in afrIca. and ya i mean emphasis on the I. Long story that involves elephants and bad internet.... like MR PURPLE AND I AM GREEN!!!! dont ask.... anyways we are making this video called stranded its a spoof on lost. ill give you all the youtube link once its posted. gonna be so funny. we watched several movies... such as: anger management, wedding daze. so funny. been awesome. and there is a chance that tonight we are havinng a quadrouple sleepover. not REALLY but... kay, well justin and jermy are having a sleepover too so we'll all just go on call and video chat and then me and leah will be on my laptop and justin and jermy together on w.e so voila. lol sorry but im really hyper! im gonna have to run to my dads after dinner to get more clothes and my notebook but besides that totally cool.
gonna go,
GothGirl xox
Sunday, June 28, 2009
Friday, June 26, 2009
graduation, party's, dances
So sorry i havent posted in a while i totally didnt even notice that much time had gone by, it seems like i posted yesturday, and Emma of all peoples reminded me :P Now last post I put ** on the poem with Holes, but i never got a chance to explain because i forgot. Also i mention my sisters Bday. and a few other things i should tell you about. This will probably be a long post ive got so much to catch you all up on. So brace yourself. though i doubt it'll beat the record.
So first off i'll explain the poem, the best way to do so would be to simply post the poem but i dont have it here. I will ost it on the poem page as soon as i get it. But basically it's a poem about this man walking down a street and how there was a hole, and he fell down, and it took him forever to find a way out. Then again he see's the hole, yet he falls in again, this time it still takes a long time to get out. Later the man is on the same road, he see's the hole to he tries walking around the edge of it, but he slips and falls in anyway. It barely took him any time to get out. Then the next time he see's that road, he takes a diffrent one. So its all about learning about your mistakes.
Now about my sisters birthday. it was surprisingly a lot calmer than i had anticipated. Olivia was absent HALLElUJA! and her other friends are pretty calm. I like Kira, always have, such a calm book type, like me. and Ashley... im not sure about her. She's a whinner and anoying but shes no olivia, and she is tollerable. The rest of that day wasnt too bad. Though my mom insisted that i "be sociable" and hang out with the partty. Oh joy. besides that i went to sues, tried on my dress. and then the following day, went to work. I got the dress and picked up my moms bathing suit for her. and worked, it was fun. that day i wove thread. Oscar didnt put up a fight this time so thats always good. One day that machines going to bite someone, i just hope its not me. though i did have a run in when i was winding the threat at first.... the lever wouldnt stay down long enough for me to tighten the switch. .... i just realized i probably just lost half or ya.... Oscar is the machine we use to whind thread, onto smaller reals... opposed to the berthas ( big ass rolls of thread) so that with the small rolls we can put them onto the sewing machines.But oscar is very tempermental and old. and doesnt always work nicely. lol
I really should get my calenday so that i dont leave anything out.... okaay now we are working on the 23... tuesday. GRADUATION! oh well do i have a long day to tell you about. I dont remember ALL of the details... again LONG DAY! but ill do my best. K, well i woke up and got ready, then Katie picked me up and we went to the ceremony, this was held at the centerpoint theater. We showed up at the amazing glass window filled with students. all 300 of us. After meeting with everyone, hugs, the "you're so pretty's" , the ceremony began. We all got in line acording to class and name. once alphabetically placed ( me in between Adam and blake , joy) we all filled in according to class. ( all very organized) we then got into our seats (in perfect rows of twenty of course) and sat down. Tatyanna came out and sang o'canada, and then it really began. Rheuben being our MC, it was even more proffesional. Seriously that kid reminds me of a teacher himself. HE EVEN SIGNED MY YEAR BOOK ALL TEACHER LIKE!!!! its like you're my friend, not a teacher who wishes me well with my future studies ! ugh. anyways. awards were handed out, then one class at a time, the graduation papers. when they called Racheal Fausette i so expected (cutting up caribou) Hacking Moose to be called up. and the funny part is, i know racheal. i just didnt realize she was THE racheal. lol. too bad erin wasnt next to me it was just soo PERFECT !!! lol its like our official last day of being in middle school and we finally figure out who the famous Racheal Fausette is.. too bad about Hacking Moose. then we filled out and did the hugs. Jim and sue even came, though both my parents were no shows. ( not that i expected) but still i was happy theey came. then after the anoyingly long task of getting to Katie's car and back, i headed off with Kelsey.
WE then went grocery shopping and this was me, kim, and kelsey all in grad dresses, so we got a few really funny looks lol. Then once that was done, we went to kelsey;s house and had a hilarious BBQ. Then we went to the park and hung out on the swings. Oh emma was there too..... was she at the grocery's too.... no... i think she came right before the BBQ.... ya that sounds right. so Em was there too.it was really fun. Then we headed off to tthe dance. which Ive got to tell you was kind of a dissapointment. it wasnt all that great and the dance floor was really small. so we got our own table and had to add like 5 extra chairs ( too many friends lol ) though almost none of us spent anytime at the table ( the pizza was nasty and we were all full ) We met up with Schwa and then picked a corner and started dancing (though most of the music was pretty bad) so when and schwa went to get something to drink we noticed that the other corner was much less crowded so we could have more dancing room so we moved over there telling kelsey and katie and asking them to tell the rest. but apparently that didnt get over to emma so she got mad at us. now we should have told her oursleves but we figured shed be told.
After in the parking lot she kind of spazzed and now i feel bad. But what could we have done? and then my mom never wshowed to pick me up and thank god erins parents were late too they gave me a ride.
Now the 24th. Emma had stopped being mad at us. thank the goddess. But sadly she only stayed till fifth period and then that was her last day and we didnt even see that much of her because at reccess was a casting party for the play. WE had a class party, helped Mr leohr with putting away stands and stuff. and then got all our art back. We also packed up all our stuff in our lockers. I brought half of it home that night. But the whole day i had nothing gold can stay ** stuck in my head.
Finally the last day of school... again the dance was a major dissapointment. worse than the last actually. i was wearing the dress i made and mrs van dusen and mr leohr loved it. mr guidon not so much. In the morning we had the talent show. fun fun. then after a caotic recess of getting all my last minute signatures. finally the dance. but sadly i really wasnt in the mood for dancing. i was way too hot in the gym and the lights were too bright. also mr guidon made me put a tshirt underneath my dress that is made of lycra so doesnt breathe. so i was like dying. also the music absolutly sucked. like no good songs played at all. It was horrible. then we had the slide show which surprisingly we were in TWICE! and it was so beautiful i started crying, not not as much as some poeples. then the good byes. Turkey boy wasnt there so i didnt get a chance to give him a hug goodbye. but everyone else i did.... i also have a feeling that adam might slightly like me, creepy thought. because when i hugged him he HUGED ME AND WOULDNT LET GO!!! and then he said hed really miss me, and i was so shocked i didnt say anything back. there were a lot of tears and hugs and more tears... but i knew id be seeing my freinds over the summer at least once and we'd be staying in touch. I love 'em but im not going to cry for a good bye, ill see them againn no doubt about it. when i find really good freidns distance doesnt change that MUCH.
Finally we come to today. i cleaned my room, went over to Jsutins and we "watched" about 5 minutes of a movie, played rockband. some random killing game, played piano, took walkes back and forth between jermy's, justin's and some other persons house so that jermy could feed their guinea pig. lol. it was fun. oh bubles was there too. yupp................... ...........................
so i think you are now officially caught up.
GothGirl xox
OH and im having a sleepover with leah tomorrow :D YAY!
** Nothing gold can stay poem by robert frost ( on poem page )
So first off i'll explain the poem, the best way to do so would be to simply post the poem but i dont have it here. I will ost it on the poem page as soon as i get it. But basically it's a poem about this man walking down a street and how there was a hole, and he fell down, and it took him forever to find a way out. Then again he see's the hole, yet he falls in again, this time it still takes a long time to get out. Later the man is on the same road, he see's the hole to he tries walking around the edge of it, but he slips and falls in anyway. It barely took him any time to get out. Then the next time he see's that road, he takes a diffrent one. So its all about learning about your mistakes.
Now about my sisters birthday. it was surprisingly a lot calmer than i had anticipated. Olivia was absent HALLElUJA! and her other friends are pretty calm. I like Kira, always have, such a calm book type, like me. and Ashley... im not sure about her. She's a whinner and anoying but shes no olivia, and she is tollerable. The rest of that day wasnt too bad. Though my mom insisted that i "be sociable" and hang out with the partty. Oh joy. besides that i went to sues, tried on my dress. and then the following day, went to work. I got the dress and picked up my moms bathing suit for her. and worked, it was fun. that day i wove thread. Oscar didnt put up a fight this time so thats always good. One day that machines going to bite someone, i just hope its not me. though i did have a run in when i was winding the threat at first.... the lever wouldnt stay down long enough for me to tighten the switch. .... i just realized i probably just lost half or ya.... Oscar is the machine we use to whind thread, onto smaller reals... opposed to the berthas ( big ass rolls of thread) so that with the small rolls we can put them onto the sewing machines.But oscar is very tempermental and old. and doesnt always work nicely. lol
I really should get my calenday so that i dont leave anything out.... okaay now we are working on the 23... tuesday. GRADUATION! oh well do i have a long day to tell you about. I dont remember ALL of the details... again LONG DAY! but ill do my best. K, well i woke up and got ready, then Katie picked me up and we went to the ceremony, this was held at the centerpoint theater. We showed up at the amazing glass window filled with students. all 300 of us. After meeting with everyone, hugs, the "you're so pretty's" , the ceremony began. We all got in line acording to class and name. once alphabetically placed ( me in between Adam and blake , joy) we all filled in according to class. ( all very organized) we then got into our seats (in perfect rows of twenty of course) and sat down. Tatyanna came out and sang o'canada, and then it really began. Rheuben being our MC, it was even more proffesional. Seriously that kid reminds me of a teacher himself. HE EVEN SIGNED MY YEAR BOOK ALL TEACHER LIKE!!!! its like you're my friend, not a teacher who wishes me well with my future studies ! ugh. anyways. awards were handed out, then one class at a time, the graduation papers. when they called Racheal Fausette i so expected (cutting up caribou) Hacking Moose to be called up. and the funny part is, i know racheal. i just didnt realize she was THE racheal. lol. too bad erin wasnt next to me it was just soo PERFECT !!! lol its like our official last day of being in middle school and we finally figure out who the famous Racheal Fausette is.. too bad about Hacking Moose. then we filled out and did the hugs. Jim and sue even came, though both my parents were no shows. ( not that i expected) but still i was happy theey came. then after the anoyingly long task of getting to Katie's car and back, i headed off with Kelsey.
WE then went grocery shopping and this was me, kim, and kelsey all in grad dresses, so we got a few really funny looks lol. Then once that was done, we went to kelsey;s house and had a hilarious BBQ. Then we went to the park and hung out on the swings. Oh emma was there too..... was she at the grocery's too.... no... i think she came right before the BBQ.... ya that sounds right. so Em was there too.it was really fun. Then we headed off to tthe dance. which Ive got to tell you was kind of a dissapointment. it wasnt all that great and the dance floor was really small. so we got our own table and had to add like 5 extra chairs ( too many friends lol ) though almost none of us spent anytime at the table ( the pizza was nasty and we were all full ) We met up with Schwa and then picked a corner and started dancing (though most of the music was pretty bad) so when and schwa went to get something to drink we noticed that the other corner was much less crowded so we could have more dancing room so we moved over there telling kelsey and katie and asking them to tell the rest. but apparently that didnt get over to emma so she got mad at us. now we should have told her oursleves but we figured shed be told.
After in the parking lot she kind of spazzed and now i feel bad. But what could we have done? and then my mom never wshowed to pick me up and thank god erins parents were late too they gave me a ride.
Now the 24th. Emma had stopped being mad at us. thank the goddess. But sadly she only stayed till fifth period and then that was her last day and we didnt even see that much of her because at reccess was a casting party for the play. WE had a class party, helped Mr leohr with putting away stands and stuff. and then got all our art back. We also packed up all our stuff in our lockers. I brought half of it home that night. But the whole day i had nothing gold can stay ** stuck in my head.
Finally the last day of school... again the dance was a major dissapointment. worse than the last actually. i was wearing the dress i made and mrs van dusen and mr leohr loved it. mr guidon not so much. In the morning we had the talent show. fun fun. then after a caotic recess of getting all my last minute signatures. finally the dance. but sadly i really wasnt in the mood for dancing. i was way too hot in the gym and the lights were too bright. also mr guidon made me put a tshirt underneath my dress that is made of lycra so doesnt breathe. so i was like dying. also the music absolutly sucked. like no good songs played at all. It was horrible. then we had the slide show which surprisingly we were in TWICE! and it was so beautiful i started crying, not not as much as some poeples. then the good byes. Turkey boy wasnt there so i didnt get a chance to give him a hug goodbye. but everyone else i did.... i also have a feeling that adam might slightly like me, creepy thought. because when i hugged him he HUGED ME AND WOULDNT LET GO!!! and then he said hed really miss me, and i was so shocked i didnt say anything back. there were a lot of tears and hugs and more tears... but i knew id be seeing my freinds over the summer at least once and we'd be staying in touch. I love 'em but im not going to cry for a good bye, ill see them againn no doubt about it. when i find really good freidns distance doesnt change that MUCH.
Finally we come to today. i cleaned my room, went over to Jsutins and we "watched" about 5 minutes of a movie, played rockband. some random killing game, played piano, took walkes back and forth between jermy's, justin's and some other persons house so that jermy could feed their guinea pig. lol. it was fun. oh bubles was there too. yupp................... ...........................
so i think you are now officially caught up.
GothGirl xox
OH and im having a sleepover with leah tomorrow :D YAY!
** Nothing gold can stay poem by robert frost ( on poem page )
Saturday, June 20, 2009
family crap and religous bullshit
hey every one, did i ever mention to you the fact that i hate my family, to the point where its hard for me to even stand them? these pst few days have beeen a perfect example of that. 'Kay well i was sick, so i stayed home and then every time i was lying down to take a nap the phone would ring. usually it was my mom with the sudden urge to yell at me for no reason, WHILE IM SICK! ugh. so i unplugged the phone, then andrea comes home in the middle of the first long nap i had all day yelling at the top of her lungs with olivia, did i mention i hate that chick. im sorry but shes 9 years old 600 pounds, acts like a guy, is viscious, and mean, and has this weird obsession with violence and skipping school. and she's pulled my sister into all of it, GOD! so now im not only pissed for being woken up but then having her there didnt help. i admit i spazzed, but wouldnt you have?? then the next day i went to school, and then got home and andrea is sitting on the couch with this guy! i was like WTF??? your nine!! what the hell are you doing sitting with a guy alone in the living room.
And then now today! OMG I CANT STAND HER! its not even 2 and shes so pissing me off its not even funny!!! i mean i wake up and i watch this movie called kiss the bride, and its about gay guys and stuff, so then my mom starts freaking andmy grama's in town and shes like a nun, so she starts spazzing about it being sin, and that it was wrong and reciting all this biblical shit i couldnt careless about, and my mom is like spazzing cause it was "nasty" cause they were two gay guys dating, and i was like whats wrong with being gay? i mean all it means is that you like your same effing sex ! like im not into that, but i have gay friends, and i find it cute, and they're there screaming at me LIKE I CAN DECIDE WHO THEY LIKE!!! seriously my grama even doused me with holly water, which totally pissed me off, i mean SERIOUSLY??? not only that though, i mean im not even christian or catholic or whatever! im wiccan i beleive than anyones could be right, but that you should just beleive in the goodness of others, and do your best in this world and try to overcome all the hard times because its all like a giant test and each little task was supposed to happen, and that you were suposed to get through it because then you're stronger. like that poem with the holes** so why the hell are you in my room shoving religous crap down my throat? dad totally agrees with me on this one. ya, so basically, pissed, but not only that, i cant go see justin this weekend, or see leah! im getting really tired of these family weekends. i mean its been three in a row!
Not only that but to days my sisters bday party so the house will be infested with young screamng anoying kids. i really dont see how anyone would want them. also because my grama was in town i get kicked out of my room to sleep in my sisters nasty hole of a room. and because its so dust covered i had to breathe through my mouth, so in result when i woke up my throat was dry, so my mom like spazzed and was like no you have to use throat spray, so she shoves my mouth open and sprays this crap down my throat that made it hurt EVEN MORE! i mean gross! and then she expected me to be all smiles so when i went to rinse my throat out with water she smacked me! LIKE WTF!!! ugh!!and at the moment its only 1:20 i woke up at 12. I HAVENT EVEN BEEN UP FOR TWO HOURS!!!!!!!! grrrrrrrrrrr
gothgirl xox
And then now today! OMG I CANT STAND HER! its not even 2 and shes so pissing me off its not even funny!!! i mean i wake up and i watch this movie called kiss the bride, and its about gay guys and stuff, so then my mom starts freaking andmy grama's in town and shes like a nun, so she starts spazzing about it being sin, and that it was wrong and reciting all this biblical shit i couldnt careless about, and my mom is like spazzing cause it was "nasty" cause they were two gay guys dating, and i was like whats wrong with being gay? i mean all it means is that you like your same effing sex ! like im not into that, but i have gay friends, and i find it cute, and they're there screaming at me LIKE I CAN DECIDE WHO THEY LIKE!!! seriously my grama even doused me with holly water, which totally pissed me off, i mean SERIOUSLY??? not only that though, i mean im not even christian or catholic or whatever! im wiccan i beleive than anyones could be right, but that you should just beleive in the goodness of others, and do your best in this world and try to overcome all the hard times because its all like a giant test and each little task was supposed to happen, and that you were suposed to get through it because then you're stronger. like that poem with the holes** so why the hell are you in my room shoving religous crap down my throat? dad totally agrees with me on this one. ya, so basically, pissed, but not only that, i cant go see justin this weekend, or see leah! im getting really tired of these family weekends. i mean its been three in a row!
Not only that but to days my sisters bday party so the house will be infested with young screamng anoying kids. i really dont see how anyone would want them. also because my grama was in town i get kicked out of my room to sleep in my sisters nasty hole of a room. and because its so dust covered i had to breathe through my mouth, so in result when i woke up my throat was dry, so my mom like spazzed and was like no you have to use throat spray, so she shoves my mouth open and sprays this crap down my throat that made it hurt EVEN MORE! i mean gross! and then she expected me to be all smiles so when i went to rinse my throat out with water she smacked me! LIKE WTF!!! ugh!!and at the moment its only 1:20 i woke up at 12. I HAVENT EVEN BEEN UP FOR TWO HOURS!!!!!!!! grrrrrrrrrrr
gothgirl xox
Wednesday, June 17, 2009
5 day catch up
ive got to admit it summer is in the air. the warm soft breeze, the chirping birds, and even the smell. Not just that. we as humans react to the changing of seasons. Less stress, more automatic relaxation. Even the summer rain has started, those thunder storms that are said to be extgremly horrible but last for ike 10 seconds just very hard very wet 10 seconds. Also my artistic talent seems to be blooming with the season. wow ive just watched too many episodes of gossip girl. today i was sick, a 24 hour thing anyway i sat in bed all day watching gossip girl. sad i know.
so the last time i posted, it was friday... saturday i went to my aunts, oh what a joy. though i did manage to convince my dad to stop by smart set and get that very hot toronto dress along the way. that alone was worth it. though that also meant cancelling with leah :( sunday i did absolutly nothing. monday i went to schwa's house after school to do our dance. we managed to finish our edited song. ( 3 minutes) Then tuesday we presented our dance, watched twilight in math class. and played jeopardy in music. end of the year is weird. not to mention our desk search for me and schwa so that we werent sitting on the floor. always a plus.
then today i stayed home and hopefully ill be able to go tomorrow. dont want to waste anymore time i have to hang with my friends before we go our seperate ways. No doubt about the fact that we'll obviousl stay friends, we just wont be able to hang as much, me and leah are proof of that. anyways
Gothgirl xox
so the last time i posted, it was friday... saturday i went to my aunts, oh what a joy. though i did manage to convince my dad to stop by smart set and get that very hot toronto dress along the way. that alone was worth it. though that also meant cancelling with leah :( sunday i did absolutly nothing. monday i went to schwa's house after school to do our dance. we managed to finish our edited song. ( 3 minutes) Then tuesday we presented our dance, watched twilight in math class. and played jeopardy in music. end of the year is weird. not to mention our desk search for me and schwa so that we werent sitting on the floor. always a plus.
then today i stayed home and hopefully ill be able to go tomorrow. dont want to waste anymore time i have to hang with my friends before we go our seperate ways. No doubt about the fact that we'll obviousl stay friends, we just wont be able to hang as much, me and leah are proof of that. anyways
Gothgirl xox
Friday, June 12, 2009
Plays drama and AHH!
this week has been pretty slow. Tuesday i got braces and let me tell you, not fun... It takes e like hours to eat simple things . though by this point the pain has subsided thank god! so i missed Tuesday and wednesday. Now back to school thursday. Its been pretty slow school wise. But i still had a few interesting things. Like music testing, I had to get tested on flute and trust me when i say IT WAS FUNNY!!! i had to completly re learn my ombersher (i dunno how to spell that) and learn long tones i felt like such an idiot especially when my lip got caught in the braket! Totally funny. Anyways, then i had to do my science test and it was actually really easy i have no clue why she thouhgt we needed two periods. then pretty much for the rest of the day we watched practices for drama, or were in the computer lab for english. ( i just relaized i have to do my english book report due monday!!! GRR) so anyways, play practice was funny jordon dropped betsy on their lift at the end. so me and schwa so shouldve gone up and taught them! but we didnt. and then the angel Micheal was supposed to jump out of the curtain and cut off maudie, but jordon was expecting him on the other side so when he jumped out ( this is confusing the guy carachter is played by a girl... ) anyways when he jumped out, Jordon jumped and yelled holly shit! it was sooo funny!!
Then today same for school wise, pretty slow and once again i sat on the florr with schwa because our desks were in the library, also we had a meeting for all grade eights to practice for the "graduation" ceremony... I dont really get the point, i mean we arent really graduating, we are just changing school for me i dont see the point of celebrating i have to leave all my friends !! grr. so anyways we walked into the gym in alphabetical order, sat down, moved, sat down, went outside lined up, sat down, got up went back into the gym, sat down and listened to a speech done by mrs cranddal ( basically meaning you cant understand a thing) Yup thats about it. Then after school i went to emmas house and we hung out, i read, finished another book, and then after being given 2 hot dogs by her mom left for school ( again) i managed to actually eat one of the hot dogs, now it took give or take half an hour to do it, i threw out the other one.
Once at school we werent aloud in cause there was no responsible supervisiion.... IM RESPONSIBLE :P anyways, we ended up going in anyways, though i dont think mr wellum really should count as responsible, im way more so than he. I mean seriously, the whole time we set up the spot lights, jordon and him were talkin g about quotes they could put on things ( ex: 100% all beef) YA THIS IS A TEACHER!!! anyway... we set up, i did makeup ( ya im that skilled ) i serveed pie, I set up the food counter, and i didnt other little odd jobs for mrs van dusen such as look for a radio and scoth tape a wire to the ground. though this meant i didnt need to pay.... so YAY! it was fun actually alot like the stuff i do at work though more showing-ee.... then after all the drama, I had to do five o'clock shadow with a broken eyeliner pencil on jessica who also plays alex. It was interesting.... anyways at the end it actually looked really cool. and i helped tatoo nancy, who also plays Big Earl Ella, ya interesting, it was fun though, then the show started and it was really cool. and no one messed up , well enough that it was apparent. i would say a perfect show!
Then i got home, thanks from a ride from schwa and her mom. and theres people here, a lot of people..... Eric, David, Max, Andree, Andrea, Olivia, My dad, Karen.... and ya... the only other people i can think that are missing are Thomas his wife, and their 2 kids... actually it would probably be much better had they shown up, thomas is really funny, and his 2 boys are my age so id actually have peoples to hang out with, instead im stuck babysitting a three year old while my sister plays with her friend olivia.
Love ya,
GothGirl xox
OH i forgot to talk to you about my queenly duties.... lol Anyways lately there has been a lot of group drama and its actually kind of getting on my nerves... now im not going to mention names and instead place holders, cause i dont want to hold it against my friends but i do want everyone who reads this to understand whats going on in my head of the late. so usually group drama is kept on the low, escalades during dances because of *@* but then the drama drops pretty quick, and its all passed, but latelly its been isuues all the time with *@* and its starting to get on my nerves, now i get that she can have issues and stuff, but must she demand MY opinion i mean i dont really care!! and then %$% is bugging me too because unlike her usually little qwps and bursts of anger latelly she been whinny, and anoying, and again insists on telling me about it! its like i know im like "queen" of the group or what ever, but that doesnt mean i can solve all your problems!!! urgh.... i know i know, its cause i listen and give good advice when i can, and im a leader,m and have those qualities and stuff, but that doesnt mean i want to hear your constant complaints!! Its just cause latelly ive been hanging out with ^&^ and !#! and others, and they havve been less dramatic by like a lot, so ive just gotten used to no drama, and then the group splitting up, and fighting all the time and me being caught in the middle having to choose.. Now this girl ill mention her name just cause i know she diesnt read this, and well shes not really my friend anyway, more like a really anoying person who refuses to go away. Its kit kat, not katya, kanjana?? i dont know the spelling, and i know its not her fault but the girl is on my last nerve and a lot of my friends agree so its not just me, She is like following me around, and always trying to be part of our group but we dont really know her and god is she eever anoying, i mean even her voice is anoying, its high pitched and squeeky and happy and hyper all at the same time. Im really not trying to be mean but ive got to get this out, i dont like her, not that shes done anything wrong i just... dont. sorry.
Then today same for school wise, pretty slow and once again i sat on the florr with schwa because our desks were in the library, also we had a meeting for all grade eights to practice for the "graduation" ceremony... I dont really get the point, i mean we arent really graduating, we are just changing school for me i dont see the point of celebrating i have to leave all my friends !! grr. so anyways we walked into the gym in alphabetical order, sat down, moved, sat down, went outside lined up, sat down, got up went back into the gym, sat down and listened to a speech done by mrs cranddal ( basically meaning you cant understand a thing) Yup thats about it. Then after school i went to emmas house and we hung out, i read, finished another book, and then after being given 2 hot dogs by her mom left for school ( again) i managed to actually eat one of the hot dogs, now it took give or take half an hour to do it, i threw out the other one.
Once at school we werent aloud in cause there was no responsible supervisiion.... IM RESPONSIBLE :P anyways, we ended up going in anyways, though i dont think mr wellum really should count as responsible, im way more so than he. I mean seriously, the whole time we set up the spot lights, jordon and him were talkin g about quotes they could put on things ( ex: 100% all beef) YA THIS IS A TEACHER!!! anyway... we set up, i did makeup ( ya im that skilled ) i serveed pie, I set up the food counter, and i didnt other little odd jobs for mrs van dusen such as look for a radio and scoth tape a wire to the ground. though this meant i didnt need to pay.... so YAY! it was fun actually alot like the stuff i do at work though more showing-ee.... then after all the drama, I had to do five o'clock shadow with a broken eyeliner pencil on jessica who also plays alex. It was interesting.... anyways at the end it actually looked really cool. and i helped tatoo nancy, who also plays Big Earl Ella, ya interesting, it was fun though, then the show started and it was really cool. and no one messed up , well enough that it was apparent. i would say a perfect show!
Then i got home, thanks from a ride from schwa and her mom. and theres people here, a lot of people..... Eric, David, Max, Andree, Andrea, Olivia, My dad, Karen.... and ya... the only other people i can think that are missing are Thomas his wife, and their 2 kids... actually it would probably be much better had they shown up, thomas is really funny, and his 2 boys are my age so id actually have peoples to hang out with, instead im stuck babysitting a three year old while my sister plays with her friend olivia.
Love ya,
GothGirl xox
OH i forgot to talk to you about my queenly duties.... lol Anyways lately there has been a lot of group drama and its actually kind of getting on my nerves... now im not going to mention names and instead place holders, cause i dont want to hold it against my friends but i do want everyone who reads this to understand whats going on in my head of the late. so usually group drama is kept on the low, escalades during dances because of *@* but then the drama drops pretty quick, and its all passed, but latelly its been isuues all the time with *@* and its starting to get on my nerves, now i get that she can have issues and stuff, but must she demand MY opinion i mean i dont really care!! and then %$% is bugging me too because unlike her usually little qwps and bursts of anger latelly she been whinny, and anoying, and again insists on telling me about it! its like i know im like "queen" of the group or what ever, but that doesnt mean i can solve all your problems!!! urgh.... i know i know, its cause i listen and give good advice when i can, and im a leader,m and have those qualities and stuff, but that doesnt mean i want to hear your constant complaints!! Its just cause latelly ive been hanging out with ^&^ and !#! and others, and they havve been less dramatic by like a lot, so ive just gotten used to no drama, and then the group splitting up, and fighting all the time and me being caught in the middle having to choose.. Now this girl ill mention her name just cause i know she diesnt read this, and well shes not really my friend anyway, more like a really anoying person who refuses to go away. Its kit kat, not katya, kanjana?? i dont know the spelling, and i know its not her fault but the girl is on my last nerve and a lot of my friends agree so its not just me, She is like following me around, and always trying to be part of our group but we dont really know her and god is she eever anoying, i mean even her voice is anoying, its high pitched and squeeky and happy and hyper all at the same time. Im really not trying to be mean but ive got to get this out, i dont like her, not that shes done anything wrong i just... dont. sorry.
Monday, June 8, 2009
UGH SHUT UP!!! do you ever get that feeling like you want to just shove a pencil through someones head? YEAH well guess what ive been having that feeling for the past 2 periods! we are in the computer lab for english and Alex keeps playing hannah montanna over and over and over and over again and its really anoying.
Saturday, June 6, 2009
Crazy person?
You know in the sith sense how Malcolm is talking to Cole... and he asks him if he's ever just taken a peice a paper and Just started writting withought knowing what he was going to write, until you're finished and read it... and how you find that you've written feelings and thoughts that you didnt know you had?? Well i did that, i didnt even realizing i'd been wrtting something until i notice my hand was moving and words were beeing written, i totally freaked myself out.... i was writting on a klenex too.... not that that matters, just that how could someone write and not know they're doing it?? i mean sometimes when im typing i wont really be paying attention to the fact that im pressing all the buttons but i am thinking and the thoughts are coming out in words and i know that, but this... i was completly unawaire... and well the page was filled with doubts... i didnt even realize i had so many doubts... but they're all there. written upside down, sideways, diagonally, even which way, and single things dont make sense, but read the thoughts and connect eh missing spaces, and omg, i sound like a depressed child, i mean theres stuff in her about feeling invisible and refusing to go away, and the moon and shadows and how i dont want to go away, and Lots about being lost, and confused and scared and how im not really lost but, im catagorized or something, and lots of questions, and ...... 
Has this ever happened to you? what should I do? I feel like a crazy person HELP
GothGirl xox
Has this ever happened to you? what should I do? I feel like a crazy person HELP
GothGirl xox
Friday, June 5, 2009
My weirdness :P
Hello! I'm home and using my wireless keyboard so there may be more mistakes than usual :P well compared to most peoples i actually have amazing writing skills. WEll today was fun though i just wanted to sleep through the whole day. and lunch was excrutiatingly slow!! i mean my dessk was gone so we sat with Erin and Colin and matt and peoples and well it was dull because both me and Schwa weren;t spouting theories because of the fear of being mocked. And then in french we did those stupid french sheets again, also i had to sit with andrew because my desk was still vanished.
My mom got me shelves to solve the whole clutter thing but that basically means another task for this weekend, not to merntion a HUGE Science exam on tuesday. The LAST one. the sucky thing is though, its in french and about water, i mean how thrilling can you get!! ? ugh. Anyways, im gonna be doing it wednesday instead because im getting braces tues. basically that means im going to have a tough time consentrating in class, though im gonna try to convince my dad to let me stay at home the next day.
Now most of you know that im well a bit odd.... well to tell you the truth i ALWAYS get odd looks, if not for what I'm wearing for the peoples i hang out with or the things that we talk about,..... or me anyhow. Well this one i plan on enlighting those of you who DONT know me on exactly how odd i am. well either im goth or im willow..... ( the willow refrence is from the series buffy the vampire slayer, basically it means i wear weird clothes) I mean for instance today the 6th of june i wore tight blue skinny jeans, an old looking velure low cut brown top, and knee high black tie up boots. Skilled i know. Now an explination for who i hang out with... well just try to imagine this. Im a partial goth... not full out emo and not punk just nutral. But then oi have my goth friends... and im sorry but those peoples can scare the shit out of anybody especially if they're trying. Then theres my .......... well the school gang i hang out with.. the only way i can think of describing us is: WE are all kind of nerdy and we dance and burst out singing randomly and then when we are just sitting down talking (especially me and schwa) we talk about math theories and equations and theories on all sorts of diffrent topics, and whenever someone non gifted randomly pops into our conversations well they kid of get this look on their face like huh? and then theres my other friends..... hate to break it to you but they're kind of preppy. Not that thats bad just that... picture it, a bunch or preppy hyper teenagers, and a short goth hanging out together. its an odd picture. And that answers that question... well actually it answers the other one too.... of what we talk about. I mean the part about our theories and stuff.
So those are my friends, my weirdness and well theres much more but im pretty sure that it is physically impossible to describe them properly.
Love ya
GothGirl xox
My mom got me shelves to solve the whole clutter thing but that basically means another task for this weekend, not to merntion a HUGE Science exam on tuesday. The LAST one. the sucky thing is though, its in french and about water, i mean how thrilling can you get!! ? ugh. Anyways, im gonna be doing it wednesday instead because im getting braces tues. basically that means im going to have a tough time consentrating in class, though im gonna try to convince my dad to let me stay at home the next day.
Now most of you know that im well a bit odd.... well to tell you the truth i ALWAYS get odd looks, if not for what I'm wearing for the peoples i hang out with or the things that we talk about,..... or me anyhow. Well this one i plan on enlighting those of you who DONT know me on exactly how odd i am. well either im goth or im willow..... ( the willow refrence is from the series buffy the vampire slayer, basically it means i wear weird clothes) I mean for instance today the 6th of june i wore tight blue skinny jeans, an old looking velure low cut brown top, and knee high black tie up boots. Skilled i know. Now an explination for who i hang out with... well just try to imagine this. Im a partial goth... not full out emo and not punk just nutral. But then oi have my goth friends... and im sorry but those peoples can scare the shit out of anybody especially if they're trying. Then theres my .......... well the school gang i hang out with.. the only way i can think of describing us is: WE are all kind of nerdy and we dance and burst out singing randomly and then when we are just sitting down talking (especially me and schwa) we talk about math theories and equations and theories on all sorts of diffrent topics, and whenever someone non gifted randomly pops into our conversations well they kid of get this look on their face like huh? and then theres my other friends..... hate to break it to you but they're kind of preppy. Not that thats bad just that... picture it, a bunch or preppy hyper teenagers, and a short goth hanging out together. its an odd picture. And that answers that question... well actually it answers the other one too.... of what we talk about. I mean the part about our theories and stuff.
So those are my friends, my weirdness and well theres much more but im pretty sure that it is physically impossible to describe them properly.
Love ya
GothGirl xox
Thursday, June 4, 2009
slapped swatted and OW!
When i first made this blog, i was thinking wow it's going to be so dramatic. but i was starting to think that before i had just been a tad melow dramatic. Well last night that was once again proven wrong.
it was an average day, average evening. But then, after the sun set the monster came out. I think of my mother kind of like a werewolf. The similarities are incredible, the only diffrence is my mom doesnt grow hair, fangs and claws. Even at that..... And then there s the moon cycle, my mom pretty much ditched that, so i don't even know WHEN to expect it! She just randomly lashes out at me for no reason. and last night was a perfect example.
As i said before average day, average evening. I had just put my computer away, it was 10 and i knew anyminute mom would be coming in to tell me to put it away. Apparently beating her to the punch wasnt such a great idea because APPARENTLY theres some unseen force that doesnt permit my mom to leave my room without complaining. Seeing how i was already ready for bed there was nothing there so tshe looks around. And well the big bad wolf found something to nawe on, Me! She randomly starts yelling at me because my room is messy... but i had just cleaned it that morning and the only thing that could pass as unorganized were two glasses on my dresser and elastic maybe the position of some of my toilettries and a few pillows. But that didnt stop her, she yells and yells and when i try to recouperate she yells MORE! Serioulsy by the end of it i had been slapped 3 times, thrown across my room, and kicked out. or well, not kicked out as in the literal sense but more of, plans.... My mother actually made plans to evict me! WE HAVE A CONTRACT!!! i mean what kind of a mother kicks their daughter out in such a proffesional manner?? I felt like one of her employes not her family. I mean in it, it states what i get to keep and when i have to leave by, IF i dont pass her one month test. Which isnt really fair because out of the " month " i have to prove to her that i'm part of the family, im really only there 2 weeks, and even at that i have stuff planed! Absurd it really is!
Earlyer that evening i had told justin why i was so happy when he told me he loved me, and well it was just reproven to me. though i could have lived without the play back. Not only do i have bruises, have to pass my test, and spend WAY less time on the comp. but i have to spend the next 2 weekends painting the downstairs bathroom... Oh joy.
You know, im tempted to fail the test on perpos, but i have to go through the contract once more and decide if loosing is less that keeping, if i do get "sent" to my dads. You know it wouldnt be so bad there. Not any more atleast. I mean now he's happy or as happy as Mr" i hate my life can be." And besides he usually just ignores me, i mean that's not so bad, i like soliditary anyway, thats actually kind of the reasong mom spazzed. Cause i spent all my time on the comp and in my room.... actually the argument was too much on the comp but when my rebutal was that im writing a book she continued that i could write downstairs.... yeah cause i have such great consentration downstairs with a screaming sister and anoying nagging mother. Also that apparently my room is getting too cluttered when i reality its the same as its been for the past 2 years. Excpet maybe a tad mo9re cause ads moving so almost all of my stuff is at my moms, but as soon as he moves will go right back to balance. I really dont get her, ya know? i mean jshe was fine like three seconds earlyer and then shes like spazzing at me, and When i started crying she got madder. and thats when she threw me accross the room because i " needed a reason to cry about" liek her yelling in my face wasnt enough. Im really not good qith confrontation.
The weirdest thing though, was that twhile all this was going on my mind was in total gifty mode. I mean a million thoughts a second but i was aware of EACH one. I mean as they passed now i only remember a few, but i mean even those are extreme.
Like the part where i was brushing my teeth and she was saying how the reason why she was so angry was because i was like my father and that she left him for the exact reasons that i was doing now. i was thinking that it would be great to be at dads house right now, but at the same time i was contradictinmg myself and thinking about all i'd miss at my moms. surprisingly none of them included my mom or my sis. Mostly it was about my room. So thats when my mind kind of laughed and was like yea, see now you're jsut proving her right, you do love your room more than you love her. So THEN i started arguing with myself stating that technically theres was nothing wrong with it because my mom had way more negative qualities than my room, and that the ONLY negative quality of my room was that it was small and even at that its way bigger than my old one.
And then at some point i started thinking about my scent theorie and finding a few problems with it, and like issues with the psychological references that i had used, because you know at the moment ( seeing how its my latest theory) there are a few bugs to work out. and its only in the first stage.
There was more, like plans were rushing through my head on how i could smart talk my way out of this situation, most of the ones i pu into action just got me slapped so i stopped. and then kept thinking of ways i COULD answer if she would stop for a second and let me talk for once.
Great night eh?
Goth Girl xox
it was an average day, average evening. But then, after the sun set the monster came out. I think of my mother kind of like a werewolf. The similarities are incredible, the only diffrence is my mom doesnt grow hair, fangs and claws. Even at that..... And then there s the moon cycle, my mom pretty much ditched that, so i don't even know WHEN to expect it! She just randomly lashes out at me for no reason. and last night was a perfect example.
As i said before average day, average evening. I had just put my computer away, it was 10 and i knew anyminute mom would be coming in to tell me to put it away. Apparently beating her to the punch wasnt such a great idea because APPARENTLY theres some unseen force that doesnt permit my mom to leave my room without complaining. Seeing how i was already ready for bed there was nothing there so tshe looks around. And well the big bad wolf found something to nawe on, Me! She randomly starts yelling at me because my room is messy... but i had just cleaned it that morning and the only thing that could pass as unorganized were two glasses on my dresser and elastic maybe the position of some of my toilettries and a few pillows. But that didnt stop her, she yells and yells and when i try to recouperate she yells MORE! Serioulsy by the end of it i had been slapped 3 times, thrown across my room, and kicked out. or well, not kicked out as in the literal sense but more of, plans.... My mother actually made plans to evict me! WE HAVE A CONTRACT!!! i mean what kind of a mother kicks their daughter out in such a proffesional manner?? I felt like one of her employes not her family. I mean in it, it states what i get to keep and when i have to leave by, IF i dont pass her one month test. Which isnt really fair because out of the " month " i have to prove to her that i'm part of the family, im really only there 2 weeks, and even at that i have stuff planed! Absurd it really is!
Earlyer that evening i had told justin why i was so happy when he told me he loved me, and well it was just reproven to me. though i could have lived without the play back. Not only do i have bruises, have to pass my test, and spend WAY less time on the comp. but i have to spend the next 2 weekends painting the downstairs bathroom... Oh joy.
You know, im tempted to fail the test on perpos, but i have to go through the contract once more and decide if loosing is less that keeping, if i do get "sent" to my dads. You know it wouldnt be so bad there. Not any more atleast. I mean now he's happy or as happy as Mr" i hate my life can be." And besides he usually just ignores me, i mean that's not so bad, i like soliditary anyway, thats actually kind of the reasong mom spazzed. Cause i spent all my time on the comp and in my room.... actually the argument was too much on the comp but when my rebutal was that im writing a book she continued that i could write downstairs.... yeah cause i have such great consentration downstairs with a screaming sister and anoying nagging mother. Also that apparently my room is getting too cluttered when i reality its the same as its been for the past 2 years. Excpet maybe a tad mo9re cause ads moving so almost all of my stuff is at my moms, but as soon as he moves will go right back to balance. I really dont get her, ya know? i mean jshe was fine like three seconds earlyer and then shes like spazzing at me, and When i started crying she got madder. and thats when she threw me accross the room because i " needed a reason to cry about" liek her yelling in my face wasnt enough. Im really not good qith confrontation.
The weirdest thing though, was that twhile all this was going on my mind was in total gifty mode. I mean a million thoughts a second but i was aware of EACH one. I mean as they passed now i only remember a few, but i mean even those are extreme.
Like the part where i was brushing my teeth and she was saying how the reason why she was so angry was because i was like my father and that she left him for the exact reasons that i was doing now. i was thinking that it would be great to be at dads house right now, but at the same time i was contradictinmg myself and thinking about all i'd miss at my moms. surprisingly none of them included my mom or my sis. Mostly it was about my room. So thats when my mind kind of laughed and was like yea, see now you're jsut proving her right, you do love your room more than you love her. So THEN i started arguing with myself stating that technically theres was nothing wrong with it because my mom had way more negative qualities than my room, and that the ONLY negative quality of my room was that it was small and even at that its way bigger than my old one.
And then at some point i started thinking about my scent theorie and finding a few problems with it, and like issues with the psychological references that i had used, because you know at the moment ( seeing how its my latest theory) there are a few bugs to work out. and its only in the first stage.
There was more, like plans were rushing through my head on how i could smart talk my way out of this situation, most of the ones i pu into action just got me slapped so i stopped. and then kept thinking of ways i COULD answer if she would stop for a second and let me talk for once.
Great night eh?
Goth Girl xox
Wednesday, June 3, 2009
Scheduals
Guess what?? it's 11 am and I'm actually awake!! actually, i've been up since 9:30.... i just can't sleep past 9 anymore :( its sad... cept at my dads cause theres no windows so its dark. Besides the point. So I'm up and like i said lst night I have a lot to do today.... some of those trhings involve getting dressed but ya know what I'll put that off as long as possible. I've already cleaned my room so this is what I've got left on my agenda.
1.Science notes
2. Breakfast..... / lunch
3.finish Kiss of Life
4. Go to my ortho apppointment
5. finish my jeopardy questions.
6. work on my english report ( but thats due in 12 days so no rush )
7. Blog about my theories ( if possible )
8. Tan cause its just soo nice outside. roofing in other words... maybe ill invite leah over after if its still sunny so we can roof :P but i doubt ill be aloud if shes at her moms.
So thats todays schedual but i also promised i'd post what going on in the long run.
Today ortho for getting elastics.
Monday 8 Jeopardy project is due.
Tuesday 9 Science test / Ortho appontment im getting braces.
Friday 12 Emma's play the maudie special
Sat and Sun 13, 14 camping with lee
Monday 15 Book/ english report Due
Friday 19 Montreal trip (stay home)
Tuesday 23 Granduation celebration + Dance
Wednesday 24 Class party
Thursday 25 Last day of school , also an X-day so DANCE!
Yup so that`s pretty much it... though at one point we are going out as a class for swiss chalet. but i don`t know when that is exactly.
Love ya,
GothGirl xox
1.Science notes
2. Breakfast..... / lunch
3.finish Kiss of Life
4. Go to my ortho apppointment
5. finish my jeopardy questions.
6. work on my english report ( but thats due in 12 days so no rush )
7. Blog about my theories ( if possible )
8. Tan cause its just soo nice outside. roofing in other words... maybe ill invite leah over after if its still sunny so we can roof :P but i doubt ill be aloud if shes at her moms.
So thats todays schedual but i also promised i'd post what going on in the long run.
Today ortho for getting elastics.
Monday 8 Jeopardy project is due.
Tuesday 9 Science test / Ortho appontment im getting braces.
Friday 12 Emma's play the maudie special
Sat and Sun 13, 14 camping with lee
Monday 15 Book/ english report Due
Friday 19 Montreal trip (stay home)
Tuesday 23 Granduation celebration + Dance
Wednesday 24 Class party
Thursday 25 Last day of school , also an X-day so DANCE!
Yup so that`s pretty much it... though at one point we are going out as a class for swiss chalet. but i don`t know when that is exactly.
Love ya,
GothGirl xox
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