summer!? SUMMER!!!!

welcome to my mind,
it seems that i've found myself in a period of silence. by this im refering to lifes noise. the constant moving, doing and thinking that preoccupies most of our lives. As it is today i find myself quiet for the first time in ages. So ill take this time to catch you all up in the month past.
the last time i blogged it was the ninth of june. I was just starting EQAO which signalled the start to the end. Following EQAO (which i got 98.3 % on) i had diner with my father then i did the two sections of my art exam. Following that i handed in my art summative (which was fabulous beyond human capabilities :P and took much too long in my opinion) then did both my english and my math summatives. Other than school exams (which i finished on the 17th) ive done a lot.
Sunday the 13th was the Cappies show. CAppies is an award show, like the tony's but for high school theater in ottawa. We had been nominated for 9 awards (it being our first year of producton is amazing) and we won for best lighting crew. Matty enlightened us all with his touching speech, and i quote "uhhhh thank you mr monchezuki!!".... and then walked off stage. trully wonderful. When asked about it Mr Monchezuki tells that "he mentioned all the important people!" whilst Sasha said things more along the lines of, "no its not the fabulous complection of the actors that helped, or the stage managment..... please dont make me laugh" with heavy sarcasm.
:D i sound so reporter like.
Lets see... after my math exam i went to the Library and met up with Ian. We talked for hours about different books and movies and had an altogehter good time. it was especially funny when my old hommies from SWC, lyndsay, vikki, and chanelle showed up.. really crept up, and for sure thought we were dating. it was awkward beyond belief and got a good laugh. :P
The next day (the 18th) Emmie came over. Together we watched about an entire season of lie to me, read an entire book, and uhhh.... walked around my neighbourhood. during this proccess it however started raining thus giving me 7 blisters which was essentially the highlight of my day. Emma left the 19th and i went for dinner once again at my fathers.
It was about this time actually that i began talking with emma's ex, and justins friend, and athina's friend, ethan/ bunny/gooldfish/ginger . I admit we got along flamazingly from the start.
The monday the 21'st i dropped by the school (exams were still going on... but i was done for the semester),m i got the rest of the Wicked series by gregory maguire from mme cheung, and then hung out with cat till about one. Then i got home and talked more with ethan. in this conversation we made plans to go to the park the next day.
So Tuesday the 22nd (also my sisters birthday) i meet ethan at the park and we hang out practically all day. We started at the park past the fire station. Talking there and chilling, then we went to riocan, got blizzards , following a long bike ride to john mccrae's park. There we voice overed a soccer thing with a mom and two kids, went forest exploring, ethan sucked the life out of jorje the bird and told me about jorje the velociraptor. Also we climbed a tree, ethan scalled a play structure and probably ripped his pants pocket on the slide :P. It was fun.
Next day wednesday the 23'rd i threw a BBQ for FINALLY END OF EXAMS!!!!! Athina, erin, emma, and ethan came. others were invited but couldnt come. by this point i have already explained to emma that i like ethan and probly he I, and i knew she was sad but i couldnt help it. they were over, and it hadnt really been that long of a time they were together.... still i was a horrible friend.... she told me to go ahead so i did... Anyways i told ethan i like him, and yea. Anywyas BBQ... we discovered that ethans headphones are louder than my radio speakers. we also talked about various things and it was great to just hang out. Also the most rediculous name EVER was discovered by emma. unfortunately i cant even tell you what it is because its impossible to remember it was something like 24 letters or something... stupid name honestly. So we had dinner hung out some more, then my mom drove ethan and emma home and i hopped on msn. I had been planing on asking Ethan out, but before i could he beat me to the punchline. Soo Ethan and I are in fact dating now. He's awesome and any readers who will never meeet him take my word for it. He's ginger.hence his nickname, really curly hair, taller than justin, but more solid as well, really nice eyes, kind features..... you know im tempted just to put a photo up, but he doesnt really photograph well. Anyways he's funny and great to be around and good looking.
Then the 24th i had an ortho appointment to get my springs in. one of the worse experiences of my life.... i can't close my jaw anymore and there are metal sticky puts jutting out of my cheek, so not fun. i might get them taken out early, i swear they are that bad. they make having perfect teeth a question of "is it worth it?!" braces hurt like hell but nothing like this. Imagine a 500 pount man hanging on to your bottom jaw at all times. yea yea... thats right horrible horrible amount of pressure. i feel like my teeth are going to pop! even though my dentis assures me they wont.
Finally yesturday. it was a busy day. First thing in the morning i cleaned my entire room did my bed the dishes. Then i went to the park and met ethan (whenever i refer to park and ethan at the same time assume the park past the fire station and not the one near me, near the shcool or near erin.) I got there first and decided to wait on the rock edge. We talked there for a bit and i got assaulted by ants. Apparently im too delicious to pass up :P. Then we biked to his house (and jesus christ, heaven hell underworl goddes god, almighty ITS FAR!!!! and the amount of times im going to bike that i swear by the end of summer my legs will be tank. Now its not so much far and UPHILL. its sooo hard to bike. back isnt so bad, but thats down hill) So we ran into his friend jon. The three of us went to a park neaar ethans house which wasnt that interesting, then we all biked to the quicky and jon bought us each a drink (thank you jon) and then we biked to ethans place. this is where jon leaves and i slowly meet his family. First i met his older sister, then his brother, then his dad, then his mother, then his younger sister. Big family. They all seemed like nice interesting people. Though like ethan said they dont look alike, except maybe for their eyes.
Anyways, we talked on hi deck in the backyard for a bit, then we watched dodgeball the movie. it was hilarious. I then biked home got my purse made an instant breakfast (cause i cant eat solid food i mean i seriously spend 2 hours eating half a bagel and then jsut gave up) and biked back. by this point im seriously thinking of passing out. Then i get to his house and his brother adam drives me ethan and justin to the coliseum. there we met up with rachel and oscar. I had never met rachel before and she seemed nice. We watched the A-team and it was one of the best movies ive seen in a while. following they played a gmae of DDR and i video taped the failure. and uhh.... yea then we went home.
it was a blast.
As for today i realized it was summer like really it hit me like wow... im really in summer now YAY!!!!!! lol then i decided i was going to make a slideshow of summer because i think this summer will be awesome
the only bad part of the summer is going to be being ditched by Ethan. He's going to israel for a month +. But when he gets back we are telling eachother all the stories of our adventures :Plol like old people :D who are awesome.
So plans for the not so distant summer:
Anthony gets here... any minute now.
im at my dads from the 27th to the 30th
29th im going to the walter baker pool with ethan
the 30th ethan leaves for quebec
i go to the parlement with mom and tony on the 1st of july (canada day)
ethan gets back the 4th,
5th were haning out
and the 6th im heading to niagra while ethan hops on a plane to israel.
i get back the 8th.
i set up for the band the 10th.
our first practice is the 12th, as is when aanthony leaves again
theres a beach party @ britania the 17th
then not really anything.
An ortho appointment the 29th
Ethan gets back the 12th of august

some point iim going to Rick's at the cottage for a weekend. and then going camping with gramama.

until later moments of quiet
contently
Jennifer


later that night.....

Ethan just reminded me that the birds name was fernandes and my grade 3 lizard was jorje.... soo oops.
Also refering back to a few posts ago when i explained frienquences we made up a new term Loke. more than like but less than love.
so terms go
stranger
aquantence
frienquence
friend
best friend
Like
Loke
love

PPS ethan just reminded me of the 5.5 earthquake we had.... but ill just have to remember to add that in next post

nearly the end or the beginnign

hello readers,
Theres so much to tell and no idea where to begin.
I went to the farm over the weekend hung out with Annie and Mitch, that was fun. they got sooo many new animals though Roody the horse was by far my favorite.
Summatives are nearly done, exams are on their way, and im actually not stressed anymore. i found balance in my schedual thank the gods. Also probably due with jamming in everything so to not procrastinate and now being able to relaxe, or my talk with Mme Cheung and Mrs Jensen after school for like an hour (IM GETTING A NEW SILVER OWL NECKLACE FROM GRECE!!!! mrs jensen said she'd get me one as a fellow Athena follower!!! im sooooo friken happy, and mme was like i have to eye of athena i could give you which brings good luck!! :D ).
actually my school year's almost over....
tomorrow - EQAO (math summative)
Friday - Art critique exam
monday - Art history and technique exam & gym summative due
tuesday- art summative due
wednesday -english exam
thursday - math exam
then done!!! its nearly the end of the beginning of high school!
Following are my summer plans.
ive decided that i might as well stop buying books because i dont have the money... though i no longer have to pay my dad off, and i will be working this summer i might still buy a few (i have to stay a platinum member after all) so ill be going to the library over the summer.
Also im going camping with my gramama for 2 weeks writing my book obviously. Actually i probably finish.
oh! and piece de resistance: My friend ian and i have always discussed music, and thats always been our thing, so anyways he's starting a band and im in it!!! woot woot so ill be doing that over the summer.

Jen

oops

damn i just realized that my post was accidentally put on the wrong site... and that actually two posts had been put there.

so my newspaper extravaganza, and my time well wasted posts are on www.sybil-gothgirl.blogspot.com sorry

Goddess help

okay a few things to go over.
I'm no longer with anthony, it just didnt work.
i'm really great friends with jordan now, and today i did ask him out again, i mean we both care about each other a lot, and though he hasnt decided we both agreed that the friendship is more important, no matter what.
Yes i'd be sad if he said no, but i'd get through it, I'd have to because i love being friends with him. He's sweet and caring, and to be honest i need someone to talk to and hug when things are tough.I want to be there for him, plus I need someone to hang out with on weekends, so go to the park after school and just hang out. ( i love emmie and athina and all, but living where they are they just arent desponible!{for lack of a better word}) And frankly, i need a best friend.
So this'll work. Because i care, and i trust him, and i like him a lot, and no matter what i want to be with him in someway. Goddess help me i hope he feels the same.

Jen

Ps: on the topic of Goddess bless..... i lost my Athena necklace during gym, the cord broke during outdoor gym, and i can;t find it.... Jeese i hope i do, that necklace means so much to me. I'd love anyone who found it. i honestly would.

no more

I'm tired of being ignored. Of being passed over as useless and I'm tired of being talked over, and of having my conversations timed. I'm tired of being overlooked. So you know what now im just not going to talk. Unless it's important I'm just not going to say anything. Not a word to anyone who never listens. Then when people start missing my insights, and conversation they'll start to listen.
People will have to listen when i tlk because itll be so rarely that they'll know its important.
For those who listened before life will go on as it was, but for those who ignored me, or timed me when i talked, or talked over me.... well no more.
Jen

Ps do you ever notice how loud french people talk. I have like a constant head ache

8 points

I have a few things to talk about today and to make it easier to follow ill number them.

1.Interesting little bit of information... i jsut published in the local newspaper!!! yes. After the musical i was asked to write a review about my time in the musical. I expected just to get quoted or something, but no. I got an entire page to myself !!! It's stupendous!!! :P
2.We striked the stage which was fun. I brought home an Audrey II named persephone (which is my current hank plant*) A bamboo pole. a poster and a tulip. Also i brought an extra advertisement poster.
3. I did spring cleaning at my moms... and now my room is shockingly empty. Its remarkable really.... My dresser is like empty... I have like nothing on anysurfaces in my room that i thought were packed with important stuff (which turned out to be consisting of mostly junk) . I reorganized all my boxes and things... and put up my article poster, and audrey II on my wall.
4. I'm now dating Anthony, from the musical. Though he's a grade 8 i really like him.
5. My grama is coming over
6. I started knitting again
7. the guy that came to fix my house was actually a really nice quebecois guy.
8... i think thats it for now.
Im tired good night
JEn

*Hank plant... go fellow nerdfighters. If you have no idea what I'm talking about search Vlogbrothers on youtube and DFTBA.

carbon monoxide

Interesting food for thought: Pigeons cannot lay eggs unless they are in the pressence of another prigeon. Her overies will not work unless she is looking at a pigeon.... in absense of another pigeon her own reflection will do. How Narcicistic.

as for another tid bit of information. CArbon monoxide sucks... a lot.
This affternoon i got home from a particularly pleasant day to find out im not aloud into my own home because we had a carbon monoxide leak. So now i am doomed to my front lawn for another 4 hours... and im starving.
So readers if you have food handy, eat some for me now please.
On the bright side, it isn't raining or cold. Its a very warm spring day. There are soft fluffy clouds and im sitting in the shade watching as the sun's rays glint off a nearby tree, fresh with new leaves.
So now i await our saviors the gas line people... who will probably be fat middle aged men who they they are better than everyone else which is completely absurd because they probably didn't even go to university. Our world doesn't need any more malvolio's.

People who don't get that reference, i implore you read shakespeare. And never ever ever say that he is boring. Only people with simple minds think that shakespeare in any form is boring. He's probably the best poet laureate our world will ever see. His words are but an extension of himself. I adore his work.

something i don't adore however are french peopl (anne) who write about egyptian art. In art class which i take in french we are currently studying about egyptian graphing and their proportion systems. However the article we are forced to read is impecably filled with the most inane run on sentences. Soemtimes i do catch myself in a rant... but this makes me look like mary friken poppins!!!
So i have discovered a new loathing for this authors writings.

I suppose i should make so head way in my homework... i however feel very opposed to that idea as i sit here talking to you.

So the musical is now over... officially as of today. We striked the set after school today... and now i fear ill greatly miss my grade eight friends that i have made. Liek sarah, and rebekah, and anthony, and liya and kaylene, oh I'm sad now.
I hope that we st---- OH YES!!! the gas guy just showed up. Thank the gods! though he is talking on the phone and has yet to leave his truck i can tell you that he is driving a large red pick up truck, is bald, and has this goatee thing going on.... this should be interesting.

a talleur
Jen

over

Jordan and I are over. This morning he said that he needed to talk to me, though it was "nothing bad"... following that was a day of conversations i couldnt follow. awkward group enterrings where i knew they were talking about me... and of course the looks... all in all by the end of the day i had pretty much figured it out.
It was then explained to me that he had felt pressured into it. not by like a person just like overall. and he didn't feel that happy relationship sensation. On top of that dissapointment i was too clingy. All i said was okay *hug* and then leave. Sure i felt like crying... i was sad... i still am. but i just couldnt do it there you know? i hate that look. that sympathetic oh poor dear look.
On the way home, I walked, wanted to think things through only Lyndsay (my nextdoor neighbour) decided to walk with me. The girl wouldnt shut up. AND jordan was walking home with Zach and Chris not 10 feet behind me. I tried not to hear him laughing like nothing had changed. I guess for him it hadn't.... I myself have never been dumped before... well i have but never by someone ive really cared about before.
Anyways now thinking back i understand the other remarks but clingy ?? So it's not like something i can help. I've spent my entire life being abandonned, so of course im going to hold on to someone i like. But he could have told me, and we would have talked. I'm not unreasonable. I know its one of my faults. I'd have worked on it. It's not like the equator, theres no map for this invisible line. Every person has a different deffinition as to where clingy is.
oh well, its too late now.
Thing is..... i didn't even know. I didn't know.

stereotypical cast.. not

The stereotypical drama club geek: peppy, happy, energized, and flamboyant.
The reality though somewhat more boring and less excentric is I. For I am in the musical, and hardy participant, though a shorter role (pardon the pun) still fully participating. And I vouch for the rest of the cast when i say; We are all tired!! Today at practice everyone was so tired we slothed through most of the pieces, shoved them together, and fell into fits of giggling over rediculous comments. It went like this...

Due to over practicing, and months of review and review... we are now at the stage where everything is prepared and now it is time to show... only we are all dead tired from lack of sleep... and or exhaustion because of stress.... I fall into category number two... it probably doesn't help that there's a virus going around the cast... horrible timing i might add.

So we had our final practice today, so here is my schedual for the next week:
Saturday- filming
Sunday- relaxation, family diner with steve*
Monday-preshow
Tuesday-Preshow
Wednesday- Preformance
Thursday- Performance
Friday-Performance
Saturday-Performance
Sunday- relaxation and cast party.

I had planned to continue more with this, but i'm so tired im falling asleep where i sit. I'll blog tomorrow when i get back from filming.
Jen

PS: I'm starting to get really agrivated with my mother calling me stupid, insignificant, an idiot... and many other forms of degrading terms. (such as lier, bitch, slut etc etc)

*Yes you know that huge falling out with my uncle a few months back when he turned all loonie toons and my grandmother had to get him arrested for his own safety??!! Well we are trying to work past this little insident by doing what my family does best. Make huge diners, argue, scream, cry, and then move on. Sounds like fun.

Hello all people of the blogging world... or i suppose relitively small amount of people from the blogging communty... I don't really have much to say but I'm sitting in the library waiting for jordan as he writes his science essay minutes before it's due... yes very smart :P
I've managed to finish my own essay earlyer yesturday evening, and am correcting it tonight. That's all that i have as per news..... yeah.... We finished the gas mask for the musical in my first period class, as i waited for my potery to dry. Its fantabulous if i do say so myself. I'll post the pictures after the show.
Ummmm thats really all i have to say... my days been relitively unaventful.
byes for now.
Jen