over

Jordan and I are over. This morning he said that he needed to talk to me, though it was "nothing bad"... following that was a day of conversations i couldnt follow. awkward group enterrings where i knew they were talking about me... and of course the looks... all in all by the end of the day i had pretty much figured it out.
It was then explained to me that he had felt pressured into it. not by like a person just like overall. and he didn't feel that happy relationship sensation. On top of that dissapointment i was too clingy. All i said was okay *hug* and then leave. Sure i felt like crying... i was sad... i still am. but i just couldnt do it there you know? i hate that look. that sympathetic oh poor dear look.
On the way home, I walked, wanted to think things through only Lyndsay (my nextdoor neighbour) decided to walk with me. The girl wouldnt shut up. AND jordan was walking home with Zach and Chris not 10 feet behind me. I tried not to hear him laughing like nothing had changed. I guess for him it hadn't.... I myself have never been dumped before... well i have but never by someone ive really cared about before.
Anyways now thinking back i understand the other remarks but clingy ?? So it's not like something i can help. I've spent my entire life being abandonned, so of course im going to hold on to someone i like. But he could have told me, and we would have talked. I'm not unreasonable. I know its one of my faults. I'd have worked on it. It's not like the equator, theres no map for this invisible line. Every person has a different deffinition as to where clingy is.
oh well, its too late now.
Thing is..... i didn't even know. I didn't know.