week 7 update.

Finished until chapter 10... fell behind 2 chapters. will be catching up. go to JMKempster.blogspot.com for more details.**

GothGirlxox

** i will probably just stop posting about my book on this site soon. so save the link. this blog will mostly be about my personal life
PS with that note i realized something tragic. Justin and I probably won't last. And as much as i love him and it pains me to say... it might be soon... I do love him, and i know he loves me, and im not going to say that its just me... no its totally his fault. I need someone that is sweet and caring and considerate... and anyone who knows justin can tell you immediatly that just isn't him. I need someone who acts like im a goddess (or relitivly). Im gonna try to give jusitn more of a chance because i know that he can be sweet and adoring... sometimes he can be the nicest guy in the world. the only problem is that lately i havent seen that guy. and i know that the moment im back in his arms im going to forget because thats the effect we have when we're together. The only question now is does justin care more about "The Man" and being an uber tough non caring guy, or me. At some point he's going to need to pick because i refuse to date a jerk. It'll kill me, but there are just some lines that i will not cross.
God I hope... i just want to know. i need a sign....

JMKempster website

www.JMKempster.blogspot.com
is now up and running!! also i have organized my calendar and am halfway done chapter 9.
GothGirl xox
PS dont mention this blog in any comments and there my name is J. not Sybil. so dont use that.

JMKempster website

www.JMKempster.blogspot.com

is now up and running!! also i have organized my calendar and am halfway done chapter 9.

GothGirl xox

PS dont mention this blog in any comments and there my name is J. not Sybil. so dont use that.

bestest paragraph ever

okay now i know by the grammar of the title everyones a bit skeptical. but my intro to page 9 is very close to the best paragraph ive ever written. In my exctment i thought lets sharee it with the gang! Now i dont think i have to repeat this but just in case. it is copywrited to me so don't even TRY to steal it.

so here it is :

Peace. It's an awkward concept at best. The idea of utopia seems nice, but it's impossible. Where there is good, there is evil. It's the balance of life. Just like light versus dark, life versus death. I'm not sure i believe anyone, anything can really be at peace. Something in perfect harmony is just too much to ask for. Whenever you get close somthing always happens to throw it back in balance. Like whenever you get answers, new questions rise up. When you find a solution a new problem is never far behind. But if you asked me right now, i would probably tell you i was the closest you could get to being at peace.

YES ISNT THAT JUST THE BEST THING YOU HAVE EVER LAID YOUR EYES UPON!!! :D :D of course it is.

GothGirl xox

week 6 update

3 things worth mentioning today. But its not going to be long because this is the 3rd time ive had to redo this post. oh and i just realized that you arent aloud to paste anymore so i couldnt even copy and paste the info! grr. anyways. here is my short copy of what i had just written

Week 6 over, ive finished chapter 7 and most of chapter 8. Because the break is finally here and justin is gone i have no distractions. I'll probably finish chapter 8 tom and some of chapter 9. This are going quickly. I'll probably be ahead of schedual in a few days time. I don't have many plans for vacation so that's good. hanging wth the Court and shopping with lee is pretty much it.

I have to re organize my caledar for 2010 so ill probably get to that sometime in the next two days. And while doign that ill probably make my official website for Styks High. i promis to import all the posts here that involve the book. I'd just make this the official site if it werent for the fact that my blogger name here is sybil and my main characters name is sybil.... it would jsut seem way too confusing.

Then my final thought for the day: Schwa and I are probably writting a b=guidebook/hanbook thing in the new year. it will include, maps, behind the scene stories, pictures, tommy's thoughts. Itll either be names something like Tommy's stories or In the view of the humans (which is mentioned in the book itself. Ill post more about that soon
Until next time
GothGirl xox
Ps avatar is awesome!!

chapter 7 + 8

Going to write 2 chapters hopefully this week. Chapter 7 and 8. which should be together anyway considering the topic of both. One is about the lead up to the aniversary of her mothers death. the other about the actually summoning of her mothers spirit on that set day.
A lot to do now,
Bye

sick week 5

EW i am totally sick again which means of course i have to stay home. the reason this suckes more than usually because of the fact that i havent already seen justin for 4 weeks because i cant see him today im not going to see him for another 5. so super great nine week missing justin. And on top of that im kinda stressed because of summatives. i havent even writen chapter seven. ill probably write it later. i just cant bring my brain to do it now. Lol you know im sick when i added 3 hours plus 12 hours to 21 hours.... yea im gifted in math. my thoughts are really the straightest. even though i probably could be writing now im not going to bother because it will probably come out a jumbled up mess. i mean this one pargraph alone is giving me a head ache.
GothGirl. xox

opinions

Here at window academy, we learn several things. Not anyone alone is right, and listen to other peoples opinions. Well i guess my dad missed that day : To tell this story properly i ahve to start ALLL the way at the beginning. This year at window academy we are doing the little shop of horrors for our school musical. though we made an alternate ending. Basically in our ending the plant takes over the world and eats everybody..... so i was telling my dad about this and then he started yelling at me "cause the school board doesnt have class. and we should be doing something civilized like shakespear or the grimm's brothers."
okay 1. why would the SCHOOL BOARDS choice give you the need to yell at ME?
and 2. civilized??!!!! shakespears work was exactly like ours just WAYY more complicated and ummm LAME. So then he persisted on yelling to me about how this generation had to class. like EXCUSE me who's fault is that? Thing was the fairy tales, and songs and SHAKESPEAR isnt any classyer. i mean little red riding hood, 3 little pigs... all metaphors for canabalistic sereal killers. Oh nursery rhimes about killing babies, and the black plague. and because we have a FICTIONAL play about alien plants killing and taking over the world WE are the uncivilized ones. I mean shakespear in a way was worse. What he wrote was so realistic that it could happen. I mean men backstabing and killing each other, lies, hate, fear confusion. in the end DEATH! so what does it matter if we chose laughter or complication? in the end we are all just dead arent we?

Tad-for-thought.
GothGirl

Week 4+ kelseys bday

GothGirl here. Update of the week:
1. Justin is gone to Arizona
2. Im not yeat done chapter 6 and am therfore just in line with my oroginal plan
3. I went to kelseys bday sleepover yesturday
4. Summatives and unit projects suck!


so first off mr justin is in Arizona for his cousins barmitzva and therefore not here. Then he will be coming back for seriously a week and then leaving. sad i know.

Then as for my book.... well due to the pile of work my teachers decided to do this week i didnt have ANY time to work on it and i mean i was still falling behind. the weekend just couldnt come fast enough. So now i only have one short scene to write and then chapter seven for this week to keep up.

Kelseys sleepover. Well the day started out hectic. mom couldnt drive me etc etc so finally i get a drive from kim and then everything is right again in the world. Kim, kelsey, gio, schwa, emma and i were inseperable for the rest of the night. and Robin came and we hit off emediatly. jokes, laughs and fun times all night. We watched battle of the smithsonian, baked giant ass cookies and told stories till 2 am. Basically it was insane! i totally missed all of them and it was so great to be with the gang again. we agreed that we would try to get together atleaast once every month. even if it was just for an afternoon. 2 deffinatlies are in 3 wekks during break at dads house and after exams. probably also during march break. Good times as always, oh and they told me their story about the freedom fighters ( yes we are avatar geeks deal!) and im this girl named ashes who is like sickly awesome. and emma is shackles and kelsey gigles and schwa was shadow ( how perfect) etc etc. even guozhen is called encyclopedia! There are always more but i cant think of them

As for my projects... end of semester is a bitch. All my teachers are cramming in all this stuff we havent covered yet. i mean we finished out astrology UNIT in 2 weeks. Our unit test in thursday. So this week ive had project after project, essay after essay, tests, quizes and even a documentary. Everything is so chaotic with me and i cant even control it all. im insanely stressed out and OH justin isnt here to make it easyer.... not that he would. pompus ass. :P . Though seeing the gang again really did help calm me down. i was just really in need of intellectual conversation with fellow friends. I really do miss them alot.

Now off to correct ANOTHER french essay and write the script for my documentary ( both of which were due yesturday :P
GothGirl xox

AHH

Okay so this week is going to be scary, i'm going to have sooo much homework i have no idea how i will pssibly ever have time to write. So basically i have a science Quiz tomorrow AND friday. a slideshow due thursday, music things due all week. weither an essay on the renaissance or practice or a playing test. its insane. Then of course i have french homework and thanks to Aneil Geography that i didnt think id have to do. I'm deff going to tell Mme. that he barely did anything. Im sorry but i will not cover for my partner, even if i DID like them.
So basically my dad told me this weekend that im not "aloud" to have guy friends. so instead of taking my usual calm tactic i went with sly and cunning ) so i said " you want me to be original right? and do well in school? and be myself? and not have sex? and not do drugs? and not smoke? is that right? so how exactly am i supposed to be myself if i cant hang out with the friends i have?? or the fact that if im not aloud to be myself and have to pretend to be and airheaded sheep to fit in with the girls i cant do well in school. or if i was trying to be someone else i might aswell just go hang out with the druggies, while im 'pretending'. Oh and even if i do find girls that like me for me, which the chances are slim, they'll be so much drama that i STILL wont be able to do well in school. If thats what you want that by all means ban me from hanging with guys. Go ahead i dare you."
ya so he ah didnt ban me :) brains 1, haut couture 0 :D :D
Not back to my hectic week.
GothGirl xox

haha in class

Okay one of the bad things about being a good student is that often enough you aren caught in the current position im in now. That position being that you have finished your work and for the past four days you have had nothing to do so you find yourself on pointless sites constantly checking your mail etc etc. So i thought, even though ive blogged a few times this week I'd do another update. This time not only about my book but also about my personal and somewhat constant life.
So first book. I am now completly done writing that section of her textbook and almost finished chapter 6. yea thats about it. i suppose soon enough ill post the chapter outlines but seeing how barely anyone reads this there is no emmdiate rush. though Erin im sure cant wait to find out :P
What else? umm not much ive been writing more poems so those too will be updated.
As for my life... hmmm well basically my ever constant life id:
get up
fight with parents
go to school
french
science
then hang out at lunch with William ( this years schwa.. though he's so clumsy its impossible for him to be invisibble due to the fact he leaves a trail of distruction behind him!)
music
Geography
then i wither do something after school or i go home
i do my homework
talk to william
watch tv / write (lately mostly write)
talk with justin and or fight at him
dinner
fight with justin
cry a bit
practice my singing ( for my audition peice for the musical)
bed.

thrilling isnt it?
Now if you actually seem to care about this blog and actually read it then you must be wondering why are justin and i fighting so much. Well there are several factors and they always arent straight out fights and are usually about the same things. The facts are that we are just over the new relashionship faze and i cant keep overlooking justins ass-ness and he jsut doesnt get that i dont need more problems after everything else in my life. So we fight. and he wants me to be a "norm" but fact is i just cant be that and he knew that when we started dating god. So basically im getting a haircut soon and it will be short, i like my hair short, and i will have a little tuff of lime green. Justin of course is 100% opposed to this. he likes girls with ling hair and he likes normal, but he likes his hair long when i like guys with shorter hair. so all in all we end up dissagreeing. now of course i still love him and there is no chance that we are going to break up soon, i cant even picture myself with anyone else anymore. but we do need to talk. and not just agree one day and fight the next. no we really just have to understand each other and not be all immature when we talk so i think itll have to be one conversation we have together in person. something like that is just so not call material.

ugh i still have 15 minutes before class is over......

Oh i went to the school talent show yesturday and it was actually totally worth 5 $. the teachers did a choreagraphed dance that was well put together and it ended up being really fun. Plus i didnt HAVE to pay :D Kiranen was there, i thought it would have been really awkward but it so wasnt. HE has changed so much though!! i mean he grew up he's a lot less immature thank god ! and his voice dropped insanly and he grew ou his hair. deffinatly diffrent.... still would never date the guy again :P if i EVER break up with justin im only dating guys from my own school i mean jeeze i am so not good with long distance ( well teenage long distance.)
lol im typing really slowly so i dont finish fast :P you know its bad when.

5 more minutes!!!! urgh
oh amanda and i jsut discovered the best thing EVER!!!! emo, goth,. punk, scene and about every awesome colour OF GOOGLE!!! yes i am just that serious. it is epic :P

anyways im jsut gonna go now. bye
GothGirl xox

done!!!

HAHA not even mid week and i am done writing my outlines! done i mean from chapter one to the end of the book... which just so happens to be exactly 30 chapters. I finished the last 7 in class today. like for a while i was stuck and i literally stared at the book for hours trying to figure it out and the moment i stopped. BOOM i realized it instatly one chapter after another until i finished. So now that i have completed that I;m going to start on chapter six. though im taking a break today. after i finish m science/ french homework im going to relaxe and watch tv. simple easy and no brain use nessesary. Then tommorrow i will probably bring my laptop to school. after school i can spend some time and jsut sit down and write and of course i have my lunch period. So i will do that.... what else. oh read my friend jaymes' blog she writes great stuff. umm i do believe that is it.... oh pickles and i got ina huge fight so i am not one friend less than i had this morning. And astrology class isnt as bad as i thought it'd be. :D then again mrs wilkinson can make anything seem interesting. now off to do a grammar page.
Toodles
A bon soir!

ok guys even better news ! Usually i come with complaints worries and freak outs, well no more! i am not only ahead but i am majorly ahead! and im just so into the story now that i find reality off! ive been writing in between classes once im done work, any possible moment and i am already at outline of chapter 27!! yes 27. so not only am i ahead but i will probably be able to start actually writing very soon in which case i might be able to finish even sooner than planned. I am almost at the climax of the book, good news there. now back to my very sad and lame reality.
GothGirlxox

Ps if i ever become a total bitch because i get famous or something do slap me! i mean i doubt i will but people always say fame wont change me and in a few months..... So i dont want to be a wanna-be brand whore. or sheep :P be original and toodles.

YES-NESS

For all of my followers i bring great news!! not only have i caught up 100% I've writen till outline chapter 17 which is TUESDAYS work!! hahahaha maybe ill be able to start week writing sooner than expected :P erin would love that.* So anyways even more great news for nanowrimo me: i have also finished all my homework, and went to leahs birthday dinner ( which was awesoemly hilarious even if i did hang out with her brother more than i did her :P) while bringing the most awesomesauce card ever! it was a plain-ish cover and then it opened up and there was like BOOM colour, and poems that i wrote for her. and then you flip it open and there is a portrait of her that i drew that took like 5 hours this morning :P its based off an old picture but its still like exactly like her. So all in all i won the card contest BY FAR! woot.
GothGirl xox


*erin's like my publisher reviewer person :P

Week 3

Okay week 3 gone and done and you wont believe it. Until this morning, i was still at three outlines. yes three. Then after once again reading through my posts i forced my self to read the last 50 pages and update till 5 outlins. yes 5. so week 3 and i was only at 5 paragraphs. how pathetic. Thing is after i finished that. i caught up. the only reason it was taking long was because of the reading part. once i was done with that continuing the story wasnt hard. So i wrote 10 more outlines back to back boom-boom booom! it was perfect. so yes for those who cant do math i am at 15 outlines in total. which means if i write 6 more tomorrow i will be completly back on track. easy peasy. though now i do have to make a bday card for leah, write a page for french. and go to leahs birthday dinner tomorrow because i accidentally blew the entire day writing!! I'm actually really proud of myself usualy days when im writing i get sidetracked. either by tv or another book that im reading so ill take like hour breaks in between but today once i got past the reading part it was great i literally sat writing all day and i didnt even notice the time passing except for when i got hungry at waround 3 :P but besides that. yays.
anyways back to my own personal world. see you all next week.
GothGirl xox

week 2

Today is the first day of week 2i am still where i wrote yesturday. So now the idea is writing 5 today. though with the amount of homework i have im not sure ill be able to. i have a mining project about copper cliffs. and french test to study for and a geo test to study for and i have to fill out my products sheet. altogether not a lot but ill tell you. it sure does take a long time.
hopefully i can atleast get it to 16. i need to re evaluate my chart. i wasnt thinking realisticly.
until saturday,
gothgirlxox

update week 1

Okay on paper it looked a lot easyer then actually doing it. Week one is almost up already being saturday afternoon and all and imonly done till chapter 3. not thirteen. so either i wrrite the other 2 i have done and create 8 more. im not going to be finished. now i do know that im probably not going to hae 31 chapters. so im going to just try to keep up best i can. writing as much as possible doing as many of these outlines i have time for. I didnt realize how tired i was after my homework till i started writing after i finished my homework. omg i just keep thinking i wanna go to sleep i wanna go to sleep. now of course once im done catching up i can start writing outlines whenever. So like in the morning on the bus, or at lunch or even during class if i have time. it'll work out its just this first week of getting used to it tat im having a hard time with. once im in the mood and the rythm im sure this'll go alot faster. Lets cross our fingers!! X.
Even though i have a lot of homework this weekend im sure ill still have time to atleast finish and write... one or two. which means i will still be behind but i'll probably be able to catch up if i continue like this.
gothgirlxox

Rainbow youth forum '09

I'm bad, i know i really am. I'm supposed to be studying for my science test insanely so i can catch up on my writing putlines that i missed yesturday. But i just have to say this forst before i forget all the amazing details.
Today was the ottawa rainbow youth forum. For those that don't know what that is heres a simple way to look at it. Its a gay straight alliance. a bunch of kids no matter what gender orientation or w,e get together and go to a bunch a queer oriented workshop. Now before you get all offended, queer isnt actually a bad word if used in the right way. Queer is the given title for anyone who is anything besides heterosexual, that consists of around 20 sub-groups( bi, gay, lesbian, trans, etc) So today i went, and even if i couldnt stay for the entire time, what i did participate in was amazing and i so will attend next year. Here is my experience of the event:

We get to school, take the 71 bus all the way to the sportsplexe, ( or well the school next to the sportsplexe) then we enter the building and find out that there are SO many people there... little did we know that that was less than half of the total attending population. We were only 11 because we only had one grade. WE were given name tags and we got to choose several things out of a wide variety on pencils, pens, stickers, pins, etc etc. I got a rainbow bracelet and sticker, and a windmill pin. Then we enter the caf area. there i realized that nearly everyone there was goth. i mean EVERYONE except for our school for some reason. i mean it was like o wave of weird coloured hair and awesome clothes and shoes, but the best part is everyone was so nice and open. altogether a bunch of great people. There were people walking around with "free hugs" posters and talking and dancing. it was amazing. After a few speakers and speaches we watched a movie clip about the pride perade. the movement of gay rights in form of awesome... i say that's pretty cool. though several people were harmed, or even killed, and others arested its still amazing. and all over the world people are still fighting this. we say we're accepting but yet so much of this sis still going on and it has got to stop! but for now people are doing all they can.
As for the workshops.... hmm well the first one i attended was "peeling off labels and breaking down stereotypes" rm 119. after i found the room i took a seat one of the first there i sat near the front. As people started coming in i felt like the plague. no one sat near me... i mean NO ONE. until all the other seats were full of course. so i was kinda feeling down that no one sat near me. i mean i was alone somewhere i hadnt been before i didnt know what to expect and im generally nice so i was kinda shocked. But once the class started well i kind of forgot. we talked about so many things and how they affect people and of course stereotypes. not just about queers either but people in general. some exmples are:

• orientals are smart
• trans are drag queens ( no thanks to rocky roadshow i might add)
• les' are butch
• gays are flamboyant,
• middle easterners are terrorists
• irish are drankards
• etc etc

Following that we we given a label on our foreheads and we had to have a conversation with the person and it was really awkward because we kept staring at it and asking weird questions and then you had to guess the label you have. It was disturbing and i get how queers might find that odd because they are just people too, i donbt get others act weird around them, i dont see a diffrence myself. my mom on the other hand has some serious homophobic problems. After that workshop 2. i was there first so i got a bouncy ball woot woot! the title of this class was "queer 101" in room 123. no problem finding it, it was practically 3 steps away. So then expecting the same result as last time i sit down and people avoid me until the last possible seats are there. the exact opposite happened. Second person there sit RIGHT next to me. i mean one seat over. i was so happy and then it followed like that. the rest that came all sat first near me then around but i mean helped me feel more open and comfortable than before. This class i actually participated more. i spoke up and talked. Anyways we discussed a bit about queer history and the terms and what they mean and what the symbols were, then we discussed hilarious myths that people actually believe. Now i;ve got to tell you most instrucors would have made this class sooo lame i mean it wasnt very thrilling info. but omg!!! the person who taught it was amazing!! i mean Spazs was this 30 year old man with long spiked hair and black skull clothing and arm tatoos and percings all over his facce and this sick jeans with rainbow overalls. Basically totally awesome and he was hilarious! i mean he made everything funny. he was gay. though not flamboyantly so. Then there was........ dude. he had these big 80's glasses and thats all i can really say, but he too was funny. and bi. So there you have it two of the best funniest nisest people i ever met and they are queer. So anyways i laughed a lot as did the rest of the class and mackenzie ( the girl who sat with me) ended up sharing a chair with me during the symbols challenge. So it all worked out. plus i got a bouncy ball !! :P btw the amount of bad puns told in this class!!! i swear best hour of my week by a long shot. you know what best hour in a long time. However this is where the fun ends. After that i had my last workshop "spirituality" in room 107. where is one-o-seven? ahh thats the question. it takes me friken 20 minutes tto find it, then once i do i find out its not only a really lame ass class, but my group is lame as is the two christians teaching it. now i point out christians because of the fact that the entire class was about gays in religion. it had nothing to do with spirit... NOTHING! so i sat and listened to his 50 minute speach about his gay marrage in the christian church.... really lame. i dont care. Gasp you were denied, no shit you got married the month after it was legalized. just because its legal doesnt mean that people will accept it right away. So then it was time to catch our bus and head home. and even though we left early the day continued. Following that was a speach from the dude from degrassi. i would have LOVED to see that, but sadly i couldnt and then a movir about the pride parades

So tomorrow and the rest of your lives i want you to accept people for who they are. no matter.

GothGirl xox

reading

For a few days ive caught myself several times waiting for justin to sign on. This was weird in my mind becausde i couldnt find anything to do unless he was online to talk to... So i started thinking what exactly did i do before justin and i started going out. because i didnt have my laptop i hadnt spent much time on the computer. so i finally figured it out. I used to read. THATS why i read 600 pages a day. thats why i started writing. because i spent so much free time doing it. and i used to fall in love with the stories. that again is a reason i started writing. i always used to love how the stories would unfold with the pages. I could spend hours reading these amazing stories like they were my own life. I loved that feeling like i could do anything. And i appreciated every word the authors wrote, every word tied together in sentences that create this story. It was amazing and i always wanted to do that. I wanted to be the one to make that. i wanted to create those stories with my OWN words. to have my name on my own story. i loved the story. I found that again. and im reading again! and writing and im finidn myself again and even though that means i talk to justin less and i miss him more when we DO get to see each other its just us two the rest of the world just drops away and its an amazing feeling. lol that sounds like something in a book :) my writing self just coming alive. i love that feeling too. my thoughts writen coming together and then poof actual flow and story :)
GothGirl xox

New goals

Dear readers,
I'm proud to say that i now am back on track. For a few months now, i haven't been able to write, i've been stuck and uninsperated, and most of all un willing. But no more. With the few simple words of one of our olympic athletes i have reset my goals to finish my book on time WITH a few extra weeks to review. For a while i was contemplating moving my due date forwards. Now i realize how much a mistake that would've been. had i changed the date i would never finish my book, it would just continue to be put off, until one day i would realize that high school was almost over and i was still not done. Then with Nanowrimo* startingi remembered why i loved to write so much, why i wanted this goal so bad. I got my motive back! During the month of november while others are writing books i will be writing a chapter by chapter outline of my book. Yes that is right! the only reason i havent really been able to write much is because once i get into the mood, into the part, i can never figure out whats going to happen next. once i know that writing is easy you just describe and write. but once the figuring out part is done... well easy peasy. So while others are writing 100 000 words i will be writing a simple outline... i think that fair don't you? so there it is. After that all i'll need to do is write a chapter a week after that which again should not be that hard, once i have the outline that is. Following that set i should be dont somewhere in the month of february or march. not exact yet because i dont have the outline so no set amount of chapters. There you all go.... hmm i wonder if anyone actually reads this anymore. No matter it is out there for the futur when im all famous and i will still know who my first followers were. :P By the way my book wednesdays ** well now it will be moved to saturday because that is the end on my weeks thus the end of my weekly goal. i can then update you on how that is going and making sure that you all stay updated on whats going on. That was the point of this blog.... well a few months after i made it. At first i just made it for fun now though i seriously think that im going to try to focus it on my book and like my life around that. so when its done and people ask me how i made it i can just point them here. :) like the movie julie and julia. julie's blog would be abput her daily food recipes... mine will be about my weekly writing. So in cheers to the movie,
30 sum outlines
30 days.
and 30 sum chapters
and a 6 months.
:D please watch that movie i recomend it. it is sybil approved.
GothGirl xox

*Nanowrimo is the writers month. Basically writers all over the world use this month to try to write 100,000 word books. ALL OVER THE WORLD! some people prepare all year for this.
** ya remember like oh..... 7 months ago i decided to make book writting wednesdays and blog about my book every wednesday... and then i totally didnt follow it. yea that one

worst hour of my life!!

okay well to tell you this story i have to start ALL the way at the begining. So i was supposeed to have a sleepover with schwa and emma @ schwa's house on friday night at 5 pm but then emma told me saturday, so schwa corrected me that it was friday, then the plan changed and it was supposed to be at emma's house Same time. so very confusing all together i thoughht friday after school 5 pm @ emma's house right? WRONG!! but i didnt figure that out till later. So anyways i figure out the bus plan with emma last night, then today i head to the bus stop end up going on the wring street so then i have to go back and now i think im going to miss the bus so i rush. finally at the stop i figure out i have to wait for 20 minutes. greaaatt..... so the bus comes and i get on and some douche spills coke on me. now everything i do gets me even more wet. so im looking for the stop. she told to get off at the church. thing is i have no friken clue where the effing church is!!! so i just get off at the stop after slack. and walk and walk and walk and walk alone wet and cold. no im kinda gettting peaved cause i cant find her and its like UGH!! so the entire im thinking next time we meet somewhere i know. So at the merivale mall i circle for hours okay well minutes but it seemed like hours from my perspective. now its getting dark so i enter the merivale mall again. looking around for ever i find i pay phone i use my last .50 calling schwa's cell phone, she didnt pick up. i then circle for a bit more. then i go BACK to the mall and try to find a store that i can use a phone book and a phone. so finally i find a chiropractic office that looks like it has a nice lady. so she was, she gave me the phone and looked up emma's number. so i called and turns out schwa was babysitting her cousins that night and emma was at her grandmothers house. geet guys thanks for telling me! : so anyways andrew ( emmas step dad) said that he would come and drive me home, thank god. so the INSTANT i walk through the door the phone is ringing i answer and its erin. So guess what? good thing of the night erin's here. we're going to have a sleepover.... wonder what my mom will say when she gets home and im supposed to be gone but instead im here WITH someone :P
anyways byes
Gothgirlxox

having a mental breakdown

im sorry, i refuse to go into details but basically im freaking out, i have been freaking out and crying and spazzing for hours, because no matter what i do this week, nothing goes right. im a faillure and pathetic. and well truth speaks that im and idiot. so. here i sit completly stressed out and i STILL have a cold. :(
im tired, im really tired of crying.
Make it stop
Gothgirlxox

a moment in time

you know what i'm going to stop apoligizing for not posting in a while. i have a life, im trying to get a scholarship, im writing a book (which by the way in coming along VERY slowly), and i have so much friend drama its not even funny.
So ill start with friends. I miss my court, i miss schwa, and emma, and banana, but mostly i miss them all together. We used to laugh every day and i could always count on them, i always knew that if i was having a hrad time they would be there waiting for me. i always knew they could make it seem alright. I learned a lot from them, but a year just isnt enough time for great friends like that, and even though it seems like way longer than a year, in reality it isnt. So i miss them, oh you have no idea. Now if im having a hard time and i come to school in need of a hug or reasurance, i rarely get either. The people i hang out with now have no much more drama and issues in their lives that my problems seem petty in comparison. Still doesnt mean i dont want a hug, just lately i've yet to get a hug and have been only giving them. Thank god this weekend im having a sleepover with the court. We need to catch up so bad! I have a feeling it'll be slightly awkward though because they are all in the same classes and they still all hang out and talk and laugh and now im not in any of the jokes. i have a feeling this friendship is going to fizzle out fast no matter how much we dont want it too. its just too hard having long distance friends. I already have experience with brook in the area. So i guess eventually ill give up trying to keep this friendship alive, ill come to realize its too much work dealing with troubled teens all the time and ill just be known as the geeky girl that doesnt socialize and has no friends. lol. though in the past week at some point i hung out with the not as popular popular kids.... which reminds me i still need to create a new persons chart*. Anyways so i hung out with them and they were actually nice to me, like some of the gave me looks but once we were talking it didnt really matter. and Sierra and Emily are nice to me, though probably only because im dating justin and they're friends but come on they could hate me like everyone else. oh and i think that most of the popular pain in my asses are at mericale this year, albeit not all but most.
Then there comes the subject of people in general. Lately they've just really bugged me, the more i hang around people the less and less i want to. i just keep on finding things wrong with peoples, finding things wrong with their personnalities and then that's all i notice about them, nd i know that's bad but how can i help that i mean really? So even the nicest of people the kindest of hearts, are all getting on my nerves. Sadly the more i get to know people the more and more likely i am of getting anoyed by them, except for that select few that for some reason outside of my understanding, they don't. Like justin, athina, emma, kelsey, leah... like yes they do get on my nerves,yes i do notice their flaws, but they are just so much more muted that most. Less in your face want to slap you typed thing.
As for the rest of my life, not much is going on. Anthony has gotten anoying because of his ever constantly talking shadow Daniel. Wherever athony goes as does daniel and i have to say most anoying person in my life right now has to be the people that never shut up *coughdanielcough* So my teachers are good, projects good, homework good. I do have to work evermuch harder to get straight A's but at the moment i think im succeeding honor role. yays me. Now again i have been working my ass off but as soon as this semester is over the next is an easy pass. I mean English ffshh, Art umm hello can anyone say easy?, gym everyone knows is an easy pass as long as you try hard, and math. now most people are like AHH math im going to flunk but coem on im not everyone am i, besides im gifted in math. So if i get through this, the rest of the year i can breezy by.
Now my book.... uh, well least i can say is its a slow time. but face it its been two months and im just not motified, i used to go through books daily and its taken me more than a week to read the first book of vampire diaries, and face it no way should it take Me that long. So trying harder now to get back into my scholarly ways i do admit that im having difficulties. Though i do beleive that once im into the rythm of it once more it'll go more more smoothly now that i know everything thats going to happen and the way that i want everything to play out. no excuxses anymore.
GothGirlxox

* What i mean about the personality chart is that before i had a theory that everyone could be classed and i know that i hate titles and all but if the titles are true then how is that biassed. So because origanily in my skepticism i thought there was only the popular bitches, the druggies, the freaks, the nice geeks, and the douche geeks and that was it. those were the only options. So now i realize that people , even within those sketchy guidelines were more complicated. so i have to re-do the chart implicating the much more elaborate part of the populars.

... untitled

Hello everybody. again sorry i havent posted in a while, i went to the first art club meeting and it was really fun, though i now have homework. i have to make signs for china month at our school for the diversity club. and IN diversity club im trying to get into the gay, straight union, meeting in downtown ottawa, it sounds like fun. I havent watched tv in nearly a week. ive made 85 $ at work and im still really busy. I just got my braces tightened so my teeth are kind of in pain though not as bad as i expected. lol. After the appointment, i hung out with justin at riocan in our usually rainy enclave ( the sement patch) and it was fun, then we saw Tina Megan Jessica, thomas, chris, amy etc ( my old friends from grade 7) and it was kinda awkward. Because justin is friends with them NOW it made it even more awkward because they thought i was dating a justin but not THAT justin. besides megan was like glarring at me the entire time. but her and chris are still together so to that i say congratz, it has to have been after a year now. anyways tine was like IM SO stalking you!! and it was funny because this is the second time. so we said hi and stuff then went back to hanging out JJ time, and it was still fun. at that point in time my teeth didnt hurt.
Yesturday was our thanksgiving dinner even if thanksgiving is next week. and we went to lindas anf i got a headache from the screaming kids. and actually wished i were doing my homework. now this is the point that justin if you read this you have to stop and skip this paragraoh and PROMIS not to read it until after march 29 2010! ~okay so i was so bored i wrote him a letter, and when i got back i decided to start a JJ scrapbook. ive had a scrapbook and set for a while now and i just never found a use for it, until now. i know we'll make it to a year, so i thought 6 months to a year recorded in scrapbook form its perfecct. i can keep all the movie tickets and jokes and other stuff recorded there and at one year ill give it to justin so he can remember all our good times. besides whever we're close to a break up, or if im sad or mad and i cant remember the good times ill just look there. so that the scene when he was camping will never be repeated. though i think a similar argument will happen near the end of this year.... im planning on cutting my hair really short, like mme herfst, and dying some of the ends lime green. not much but just enough to be like BOOM! lol. so i dont think he'll like the fact that ill have shorter hair than him. thus making a problem. but im sure we;ll get over it.

OKAY JUSTIN YOU CAN READ NOW!!!........ actually i dont really have all that much to say.to tell you the truth there isnt that much drama with me anymore, i dont hang out with them at lunch even if we are friends. sometimes ill sit with Anthony and stuff but again jsut friends. and then the fact that im happy and good... well that isnt drama.. like i do know about the drama plaguing my friends but you know what i dont really care its just the exact same thing over and over again. in diffrent forms. Right now i have a cold so that TOTALLY sucks. i feel lik shit! and i think i might have to miss the movie on sunday and the sleepover with erin even though i really want to go. im like dying. i have a headache a runny nose, eyes are wattering, my hair is gross and i should probably wash it but im too tired, and my throat feels like its been coated with moose excrements! :S:( i hate colds. anyways. im going to take a nap g'night
Sybil xox

scheduals!!

okay okay i know i havent posted in a while but the simple truth is i just dont have time anymore. i really just dont. my usual day consists of getting up at 7, going to school, doing the many activities im signed up for, going home, doing my homework, going to work, and then talking to justin for an hour. and then repeat. So i guess youve pretty much figured out that i dont really hang out with my "friends" anymore. Yes we still talk, yes i do sometimes sit with them at lunch. but no i dont care or go out of my way for them. i usually spend my lunch periods sitting alone on the school steps ( outside our auditorium) and eating/ doing homework. Once in a while someone will come and sit with my but mostly i am completely solo. Anthony and i have become better friends, and even though i still completly 100% am in love with justin i do sortof have a crush on him, horrible i know but im not going to act on the feeling. i like where i am now. justin and i are past the anoying awkwardness of the relationship and are now so relaxed around each other. why would i give that up? besides id miss him way too much. lol i did a shoulder test too. and hate to say it but Anthony is just too short. my head doesnt fit with his shoulder, its not perfect and easy, not anything like justin. we really are perfect for each other.
i havent done much writing as you can probably tell from my schedual. actually i will REALLY tell you my schedual but like jsut after school/ before school activites.

monday- after school jazz
tuesday- after school band
wednesday- diversity club before school
- Art club after school
Thursday-before school jazz
- after school tutoring flute
Friday- before school band
- tutoring at lunch
- tutoring flute after school.

ETC!!! im also signed up for swimming but the practices havent started yet. i am SOO busy. so im going to have to drop some stuff. or move it around because i really need more balance and time. probably going to drop tutoring because that really wasnt that big of a comitment. like ill still help them and stuff but ugh i just dont have that time!!! so if i stop tutoring subjects and if i tutored anthony and moe together... or just plain stop tutoring Moe because seriously hes a lost cause. whats the point in tutoring someone if theyre a lost cause? he doesnt try he doesnt practice he doesnt work or pay attention hes a waste of my time and his. i mean anthony asks for help like twice a week and i hear him practicing all the time and he shows potential and he really works hard for it. so ya he still deserves to havee me tutor him. plus i liek hanging out and doing stuff after school so yea.
OH and did i mention my parents now NEVER trust me!!! i mean i cant even say i got an A on a test without them saying PROVE IT i dont believe you! god they are SUCH asses. oh my god!
anyways i got to go! ugh
gothgirl xox

stupid ass drama!

So much is going on with me lately but right now there is only one problem on my mind. I'll start at the beggining and recap you on everything else later.
So at school in the recent days ive been hanging around with Soul, Danielle, Cynthia, Genn, Rachelle, Chris etc etc. So there seems to be a lot of drama in this group... like not backstabing bitch skap cat fights, or plotting against each other.... just serious amount of issues. now i do realize that i vowed to stay out of drama this year ( not the subject) but i just cant help it, i guess that you never really can avoid it. besides when theres no drama theres no fun. So like i was previously saying Drama. It all started the begging of the third week of school. This week to be exact. DAnielle had been dating this guy from another school ( lets call him Phi for all extense and purpose*) So then Monday- Rachelle dumps her current boyfriend Chris and starts going out with Phi because they've liked each other since like grade 4 or some crap like that. So then Genn and Cynthia are totally pissed at her because she's been lying so much lately and shes a backstabber and like drama. Then Tusday Hailey starts going out with Carter... not really relevant to the rest but at the time was a scandal. Finally today, shit i wish this day never happened. Normal morning. No big. Except for one thing Soul made plans to go out to lunch with Mike** even though she already had plans with Genn and cynthia to film some stuff for school at the park. Of course because Rachelle by this point is like depressed and insecure she takes soul's side and goes with her. Okay so basically I sided with Genn and them because first of all Mike was a creep. Next thing i know Souls gone with Rachelle to the skate park. I'm not going to write all the following details but basically we knew that they had gone to the skate park to do drugs, it hasnt been the first time either. So we called Rachelle's parents and the police and the principal and vice principal. There was this big freak out. And then the horrible happens. Soul and Rachelle come back. I feel so bad about what happened because turns out last minute they disided not to go and went to the water park instead. So after all that nothing really happened exept that now Soul is pissed at us, Rachelle is forgiven and in result forgives us. Oh not to mention Soul is now spreading sumors that Danielle had benn lying about everything. It's not true though.
I'm not even sure if i want to write the rest now. So basically ill sum it all up.
1. Im in jazz band
2. im in concert band
3. im tutoring Anthony and Moe in flute
4 Anthony is WAY better than Moe.
5. Im pissed, tired, and really want this day to end.
6. not to mention I really want a hug from justin.

Will this week never end?
GothGirlxox

* After the arguement was over Danielle and Rachelle made a pact to play him and bitch slap him once he comes to LDHSS but at the moment they are both still going out with Phi.
** im calling him mike because i dont really know his real name

school is back.

So school has begun. Time to start classes, head off and work.For most kids this is the day of empending doom, i on the other hand am too exicted. Well past tense i guess because now its just ending the week. It is friday, hence the reason im uploading, not that ive actually been that busy, just lazy because of lack of time that seems to happen in result of loosing 6 hours of your day. So first day of school was lame, as was the second because the only thing we did was... wait wait i wanna see if you can guess.
Please choose the most likely option out of the following:
a) did workshops with 7, 8 and 9's
b) filled out a bunch of useless forms about us.
c) all of the above
d) none of the above

If you pick a) you are right! the useless forms came on thursday our first day of ACTUAL class. So we did lame workshops the entire two first day of school, thing is i have a pretty good sense of direction and i figured out how to navigate this school in about 5 minutes. So no big, then learning the rules, pretty basic, a few changes but not enough to strike me as amased, let alone need a 40 minute "talk" about them. Then of course there was organization, uh helloooo!! it's me we're talking about. when am i not organized?? my room does not count, atleast i can find everything! thing is i got nearly everything each workshop was talking about within 4 minutes then the other 36 were wasted on me being completly struck sleeping. Even if the school is amazing and the teachers hilarious, in the workshops they treated us as children of a very young age and it was ridiculous. i hate being talked to like an infant let alone treated like one.
So lets go on to a better, more possitive subject. Even though the workshops were a bore some of them, VERY few but some of them were actually useful to me. Like in just the first three days of school i am signed up for the school musical, assigned to making, and organizing a book club, in band, oh and loved by every teacher. So i say a plus.
Now the day were i actually went visiting my classes. Thursday! So i get to school early because weirdly enough i really like being at school as it opens so then i have absolutly no rush and i dont have to walk around peoples, its just me, the construction workers, and the teachers. The school is amazing but once the students start filling in, it can get hectic. So with that i must navigate around the school to attempt to get to class on time, umm no thank you. So my first class is FRench with Mme. Cheung.... the E is silent. She isnt amazingly interesting or anything but atleast she isnt dead boring. So i sit next to Aavan in that class. even though we are supposed to be switching partners daily she always seems to be seating with me, tough its kool.
So then its science. My science teacher in one word is.... unique. Okay you know the teacher in harry potter that teaches the art of divination, ya thats her like exactly. Her profile its nearly exact to those of that teacher. But she is way way way! more excited about her class than her. I mean the first thing she said to us when we walked into her class was "I LIKE BLOWING THINGS UP!!! AND BURNING THINGS!!!!" then she practically jumped around the class explaining things, altogether she is totally awesome Go Mrs Wilkinson, also today with her we flung eggs around the classroom.
Then comes Music, so far my music class has been really lame, we havent started playing yet. But atleast Andrew is in my class. It would be way too weird tohave music without him. hes my band buddy. And the teacher is really cool. Mrs Godffry i believe. She has this thing with us listening to clsasical music in the background while she talks unlike mr leohr. today she introduced us to a bunch of really awesome classical music artists. like holst but not the famous of holst because thats like the planets and who in the music world doesnt know the planets?? So thats kool, even though im in a class with mostly musically challenged. Omg but its nuts because i signed up for intermediate but seriously more than half of my class is not only beginner but EXTREMLY beginner i mean like just starting ont their intruments. its going to be so friken lame!!
Then finally Geo. The teacher... i dunno her name, but she is umm,.... a mix between extatic and totally lame. I mean like she is really nice and happy and stuff but she likes teaching in the traditional way and when the rest of your classes are mostly hands on it makes it just that much lame. though today we did get to walk arount the entire yard dating the longitude and latitude of every major spot. it was fun. andrew once again is my partner.
speaking of Andrews did i mention that little andrew from grade 7 is back?? it was totally dramatic and i feel so bad for him because all of his old friends and stuff like abandon him and it was so sad because he doesnt deserve that, so like i hung out with him for a while... though now hes taller and much cuter than i remember. But looks like today he finally found a friend.... sadly for me i cannot say that i have done so. I have mae aquaintences yes, i would hang out with them at lunch yes... but would i like to reeally consider them friends and tell them secrets and talk about stuff and well hang outside of school... no. I walk to class alone, i mostly eat my lunch in silence perhaps not alone but quiet. i dont really care for company enough yet that i make petty useless conversations with them, and i know im being unfair to them because yes they are beings as well but when you go from many intelectually interesting minds such as Schwa and Emm, to well them,..... its a big step. So i rather just sit with my thoughts. I walk with Adrienne after school and stuff but again not really a friend. Usually in a time like this i would feel alone but for some reason im not any more.... like i do feel the lack of friends walking to and from class, cause i usially have schwa with me ALL the time so its like i lost my shadow :( a part of me is missing and i know its impossible to get it back. Though besides that im fine. Lunch is just long enough to eat lunch maybe read a bit then head off early to my locker to miss the rush. Then in class its so interesting and important, that i pay attention and dont really talk, and we dont have recess so no sitting alone, then in the morning i get a drive and i walk home... thats it, no real need for anything more than aquantances. i have my friends and those are the peoples that are important to me, not the peoples i make conversation to in class or at lunch. besides there arent that many peoples i know in my classes.
Bye for now,
GothGirl xox

PS i got a haircut!!! its now like really short again and it looks so much better on me, and i love it so much, its way lighter and awesome, and its like wow. and i look older so thats always a plus.though i totally cant look goth with it... like i can but barely, and i dont really want to any more... i mean i did it to stand out and get noticed because when youre this short you ghave to do something, or peoples would just step on you. or like i needed something to make me diffrent so guys would atleast look at me, and that way i would scare away the peoples i dont want to talk to because those who did talk to you didnt care about apperences. But now.... i have no reason, i dont care about being noticed by any one other than teachers. School is for grades, scholarships, and futures, i dont need guys to look at me because i am perfectly happy with the one man i love now. and well i dont want friends, and being on the outside made me a very good judge of character... i could pretty much easyly tell you who are the peoples i want to talk to.
i know this is a long ps but it must be said and for some reason tonight im typing so fast that it isnt making any dffrence in time. go writing it seems that because i have written more and i continuelly do so my typing has sped up atleast 2 fold.

200!!!

This is my 200tth post!!! okay I'm not dancing around my room.... yet! but i did want to thank all of you for reading and following and though it's not yet been a year this has been amazing. Than you for all my friends for ggetting me through the rough patches and To Justin who always stands by my side. And to those readers interested in my book i sencerly hope that i can say it is close to being finished some tme soon! Though I'm not yet looking for a publisher if any of you have any ideas please do tell me.
From the bottom of my soul,
GothGirl xox

final week.

To all of my readers i write to you today. About my book yes. but also about my final week of summer and how i have tried to do everything to it's fullest. And I have nearly accompllished everything on my list.

Startin with Sunday I hung out with a bunch of my gifties at Riocan our number one spot! Jeremy, cori, Leah, Justin and I had a blast. ew i sound so icky! lol. Okay so we had fun, ate pomegranates on the hill, went to Wal-e-mart, and Le-blaws. also we got booster juice and Icecream and ate them in the same sitting. I do believe that it was the making of.... well nothing, but it was hilarious!

I wrote Tuesday whilst monday we moved. Then on Wednesday Schwa and I met once again. wow it is really hard to make things sound more interesting than they are. We went to schwa's place and laughed our heads off, and went on a bie ride, and i saw the famous park, and almost met Liza the famous neighbour. Did i mention that they have a room of ballooons!!!
its was soo fun, and every time you move it sounds like it's raining. So we danced around in there to pathetic kindergarden songs. Elena stalked us for a big part of the day. Most importantly we talked about funny dreams and theory's and it was just the perfect day. And on pure coincidence we went to the national art gallery which was another one of my plans to do this summer with none other than SCHWA!!!!! It was fun. Though we only had time to go through 3 exibets. The first one was about the roman renesance. and Everytime there was a picture/sketcho/painting of any of the roman gods [ roman gods are the exact same as the greek but with diffrent names] we'd state all their greek names. It was so funny though because the curator was staring at us at one point because we were surrounded with like art apresiators and colledge students and old people and we were two teenagers and we new more about the art than all of them combined, cept the ones about popes. ( like did you know the acient roman pope hats were red silk and in the winter they had white fur underneath, so you could literally tell what sason the painting was made by their hats.) So go smartness. I think one of my favourite paintings was the one with the achidna, and Zeus and Hades and Persephone/ demmeter, and Athena, and Hera on the sides, and It was about the two artists who thought the other was plotting against the king. Very interesting. Then as for the other two, both were contemporary. The few pieces that really stuck with me that i hadn't seen before were 1. the piece with the movies playing and the jeans on the wall, and planners, and spotlights everwhere, 2. The pices with the collaged maazine faces on felt bodies being made by grim reapers, 3. the two fans blowing the circular black tapin the air, 4. the room of pills, 5. the black canvas with just one yellow stripe at the side, and of course the more traditional ones that are there all the time.

Then thursday Andrea and I went to swim and Justin's and it was really fun and andrea and jonah got together surprisingly well. She had fun, we had fun, and though i now have a blue nose from where andrea kicked me in the face while swiming, it was still a superb day.

Now it is today and im going to see my new high school on its opening, choosing my locker and such and having a blast. then im heading off to the charity weekend with jim Sue and Leah, hotels, working, this sounds like a whole lot of dejavu!! from florida :D not that thats a bad thing i mean it was the best trip of my life!

Now as for big news concerning my book. I can now proudly say that the prophecy is completed... i mean not fufilled as of yet, but writen. would anypne like to hear???? well you're going to read it ANYWAYS! :P

Once the halves of the two halves come together to complete a whole,
The partial horned wholeshalld be released,
Then the world shall be doomed in eternal fire,
Lest the Blind Half see what has never been accepted.

DUN DUND DUHNDD!!! lol A talleur.
GothGirl xox

the following chapter

Summer is almost over. There are only a few days left of vacation and then it's back to school. I can't say I'm that sad. I mean sure then we have to wake up early, and there are the set backs to any school. But my love for school and the excitement i have does outway the cons. Though i will be sad about not being able to see justin that often anymore, we will still talk and stuff during the week. I do love him and It'll be sad but the amount of days i've just sat at home and done nothing becayse i didn't have the inspiration to write and there was nothing else to do. so now school opening is weighing on every teenagers shoulders like a black doom that we all have to face sooner or later. Good thing for me I'm not that afraid to face the devil on my back.... wow that billy talent song just flew into my head :P anyways. School is in return and i just can't wait. I mean i'm sad that i didnt get to do everything that i had planned because of all the rain we've had. but it was still fun. Though next year I'm gonna try to skip all the drama and gossip that goes with high school and go solo. atleast until i for myself can differenciate between the pops, the rocks and the dweebs.
My plan is to sit out the drama of the return to school. Then once it's all calmed down I can see what peoples are really like. So instead of making friends right away I'm gonna wait till i get to REALLY meet them, so i don't waste any of my time on superficial drama that under normal surcomstances i would have nevre been tangled up in. Kind of lik grade 7 actually. Then I found my schwa and life waas so much simpler. Besides i beleive that school should be a place of work and well drama and friends aren't worht loosing my scholarship over. I like being alone anyways it gives me time to think.... though if i ever find a unique intellectual mind liek myself (and schwa) i will not pass up the opportunity to hang out. Besides there isnt verbal diarhea that most people have. you have to be yourself and not care what others think because then you end up being just as superficial as barbie. come on who wants to be a plastic doll that spends all day on littles girls' shelves.
Also now that i have worked out all the kinks in my book i can start just writing. I won't have to spend time trying to figure to figure out whats going to happen next. I can get on with the story and not spend days sitting there with nothing. Though details are skim as the story progresses im sure everything wil fall into place.
Another plus of the day I'm officially moved after nearly 2 years of "in the moving proccess" we are finally done. so onto the next chapter of my life. Unpacking! this should only take another year min. lol. My room is really sick. though the house itself is gross and smells prefusly like currie. its now called home.
FRom the bottom of my soul,
GothGirl xox

Just got home

Okay so I'm now home. After passing the crash we followed a giant lemon car to this dead end street and circled for like ever trying to find an exit. Then once telling my mom again the opposite directions we got back onto the highway 417 and followed that to woodroffe, there we ate McPukes ( Mc Donalds) and went home. Yea interesting day. Now I', unpacking something that I'm good at and have a routine.
Night,
GothGirl xox

Oh My flipping god!!!

Okay so we were just past exit 66 and there was a car crash, and there was a boat and it was all because some asshole in a red truck cut them off. It was like insane and we saw it! There was smoke and dust everywhere, and the boat was like flipped upside down. Oh wow... this sure has been one interesting trip home!
GothGirl xox

Coming back

Hey. Okay well I haven't written for like a while but now im sitting in the car on the highway and have nothing else to do. Apparently I am now moms GPS because I'm the one giving instructions on how she should get places.... sad.
I played a lot of volley ball with my grama's friends. Like Reine, Paul, Linda, Jill, Michel, Michelle, Micheal ( yeah seriously), Sandra, and like others that I can't really remember their names. I dogsitted Sammy and Charlotte again, umm also one day Michel (a fourth one, my great uncle and grama's brother ), Louis and Elene came over to visit. It was so funny because at the pool whenever someone yelled Michelle, or Michel all three would answer. And then there was André OMG!!! Elene, mom and I were sitting by the edge of the pool and there was this guy who was totally stalking Elene. Like she went in he went in, she got out he got out, etc etc. Then she left for like 5 minutes and almost right away he was asking us questions about her like 20Q. it was insane. Like dude ask her! So she came back and they were all flirty and stuff it was totally hilarious cause I found out what Jeremy must feel like. Total 3rd wheel. So I left and my mom was all alone with them, poor her. It was totally suffocating I mean jeeze kiss already and stop with the goo-goo eyes crap. Srry.
Okay now here is our very friken annoyingly long day. Okay so we got up early, eat breakfast and then went swimming typical normal camping day. Then we packed up, eat and left early.... so sadly I got justin to sign on for nothing because we were driving at four... srry hon. Anyways then I gave my mom all the instructions how to get there by using a piece of paper that I lost. So we took a right after the exit, then the 338 to the 20 ouest for like 5 nminutes then nto the 540 and then the 417 then we take that all the way to Ottawa.... guess what around the Ontario border halfway there mom realizes she forgot her purse at the campsite like how the frig do you do that?? So I gave the directions back opposite by memory so we get there. 417, 540, 20 Est for 5 min, then 338, then turn left at entrence. So we get the purse relaxe for ten minutes and then at 6 start again. So again turn right at exit, 338, 20 Ouest for 5 min, 540 and then 417. Frig I will never forget how to get to vaudreuille Dorion. :S so now we are back driving and we are back on the 417...... passing pointe-Fortune. Listening to really bad pop music!!! Ah! Like shut up and let me go, like animals on the discovery channel, whine-up, and like crap. Ugh now its shakira!! My hips don’t lie.... or something. I'm gonna go back to ignoring it. OH WOOT!!!!! We just past the Ontario border again!!! And it only took 45 minutes instead of an hour.
I'll update once I get home.
happy journeying,
GothGirl xox

Wednesday, August 12. 09

Hey! I'm feeling completely better today! I woke up at like 5 in the morning and it was beautiful outside. There was a bunch of fog that seemed to roll around the ground. Sadly I went to sleep like 3 secs after. I woke up again at around 9 to Andrea climbing over my legs. Ugh. So besides the rude awakening :P ( pardon the pun ) Good, good. I had a hot chocolate then had breakfast then went straight to the pool. It was extremely cold but again I played volley ball with the old ladies and there was this one who was like DAMN she can play!! Wow.... though in French. Lol I'm not that good they just all can't jump. Also I did a lot of sun tanning.
Then I went back to the trailer and went on msn for a bit ( I found one bar of wifi on my neighbours picnic table ). But my skin started to itch because of the cloreen and stuff. Plus the fact I hadn’t shaved for like what 4 days?? I went to dinner then a 10.5 mile bike ride with Andrea. What's-his-name still isn’t here. So now I'm headed off to take my shower. FINALLY my hair was starting to do some MAJOR frizz! :P
BYES~GothGirl xox

After the shower

Oh my god I never knew it could feel so good to be clean!! Lol. The cloreen and Off! is off of my skin. I'm no longer insanely itchy, well except for where there are bug bites. Though now it so hard to keep my eyes open! I'm going to write a bit and then head to bed.
Tomorrow we're going to head into town and go shopping, then when we get back we'll see if the pools open. Can't wait to tell you about it. Toodles my friends,GothGirl xox

Later that night

Okay well I ate dinner bu then I wasn’t feeling so good. At first I just thought if I relaxe for a bit it'll go away. Guess what it didn’t. I started the bike ride and got about a mile out and freaked. No way could I do this. So I rushed back and was in the bathroom all night. Now I'm writing and soon going to bed :S ugh.
GothGirl xox

Tuesday, August 11. 09

Hello! Second day of camping! It's around 5 pm right now. This morning we hung out round the trailer, then I made lunch, and we went swimming. It was really fun, I played volley ball with a bunch of my Grama's friends. For old people they are really active :P. What's-his-name is still a no show, but hopefully he'll turn up. It's kind of cloudy and rainy now but still a nice enough day. Later Andrea and I are going to walk the neighbours' dogs. Charlotte and Sammy. Sadly there are too many puddles to bike very far today... So I think I'm going to head out right after dinner to a 6 mile bike ride even though I planned for longer.
Anyways talk to you all later,
GothGirl xox
PS Jauques just got back. Oops I had forgotten to mention he was gone the entire day, well now you know.

Monday, August 10. 09

Hello everyone,
This is GothGirl sans internet. I'm going to add all this once I get back. I'm camping with my grandparents in Quebec. And even though there's public wifi I can only stay connected for like 5 seconds at a time. No matter how pathetic that is I'm having a lot of fun.
We arrived at about 3 o'clock. The moment we got inside we changed into our bathing suits and headed to the pool. After about an hour of swimming we came back. I lounged atop the hill reading and drinking orange juice. I'm such a diva :P Finally we ate dinner and then I helped do the dishes and then took a 4 mile bike ride. When I got back I hung out next door with Charlotte and Sammy ( the dogs ) and got an idea for another book (WAYYY later on). Then I wrote more and now I'm blogging.
Sadly I doubt we'll be spending much time in the city so that means no internet for the entire trip. Like at all. I will seriously be stuck with only myself, my books, my writing, my bike and swimming. Hopefully what-ever-his-name-is from last year is still here so I can hang out with him for some days. I really don't want to spend that much quality time with my sister.
Oh another thing, I painted today. I made two pieces. One is nameless and just kind of like a horror picture. It's mostly black but then there's a few highlights in red. But the piece that really was the most thought-involved is the second. Earth. It is a green and blue Ying-Yang sign with the two pieces slightly separated. In the void there is black and red coming out of it. Also the outer edges are all smudged. I really think it well represents our world today. The peace and balance is all falling apart and the world is breaking at its seams.
That's all for today my fellow bloggers. À talleur.
GothGirl xox

summer....

The summer is almost over! this is so beyond depressing! soon it'll be winter again and I'll have had like no recollection of heat! AND LOSE MY TAN! :( remember depressing???

well i guess it won't be all that bad. I mean i saw the school and if they dont paint it pastell colours like on the poster then it'll be really cool. Also i cant rememeber my third ellecctive so if anyone remembers can you tell me? i mean i remeber the 5 mandatory classes, Art and music... but i cant recall the third!

well to catch you all up on whats been happening, i went to the cottage probably for the last time, and Justin came to my dads and we hung out, and my dad really likes him! so thats always a plus. Then yesturday me leah jeremy and justin went to see funny people and it was awesome! Today im packing up all my stuff, and tomorrow im going to grama's for camping.
Love you all,
GothGirl.

PS happy geek week to everybody! though i don't really beleive in geek week because you should think of ways to emprove the world on the daily basis not just this one week.
PPS Im probably the worst goth ever :( i mean i barely actully wear black anymore and even when i do i look more punk and rock then goth. Oh well im still the GothGirl you know :)

Epic-ness

4 months, one third of a year.... wow that seems like so long and at the same time so short.

now most of you are probly thinking WTF? so ill explain. thats how long ive been with justin as of today. I know it doesnt seem that long but tis true. today at riocan we hung out just us two and it was great until it started raining and wouldnt stop! seriously at first we hid in starbucks then behind.... this furniture store where i saw Katie lol she didnt notice us tho. then we hid in this pavement hideout thing for homeless peoples next to the dentistry place. we stayed there a while. there were these 2 guys from EB games racng a motorized car it was kool. oh by the way this is all after transforers 2 :P which is actually kind of ironic because (for tjose of you that knew me in gr 6) my first EVER date was to transformers 1. So now that we've realized that our date was ironic. that i obvious love justin, and that we've been together for4 months. i can tell you bouut what else hapened this week.
So i last blogged about when justin got bak. im not sure if i blogged about kelseys.. the restaurant... so ill just skip that day. besides that i went to moms and we found a bunch of my and her baby pictures. omg my sister is a spittinbg image of my mom at her age its like INSANE!!! like wow.... then yesturday i brought my sister to timmies. and then to the park with leah richard and Cori and it was hilarious to see her expression and i beat leah at basketball one on one. after that we went home and i basically did nothing. though im re watcjhing the underworld series at the moment, cant wait for the fourth one to come out itll be so friken epic!!

love ya
GothGirl xox

The week has past!!!

the week sans justin is now over!! but i've got to tell you it wasn't all bad. it seemed like a REALLY short week! from monday to wednesday I had sleepovers with Leah, a harry potter marathon ( :) ) which includes the new one, and watched i love you beth cooper. Then well i spent pretty much of the rest of the week making lans with soul that never happened... until this morning. lol they will happen eventually. and yesturday i bought the hair dye. oh by the way those plans with soul involve dying the underneath of my hair blue!
But evven in those days where it was raining and not so nice and i didn't really go anywhere it was still busy! i played harry potter 1 the PC game... im at the part where the stairs fall away but you still have to climg them to make the griffin/gargoyle statues glow.cept i messed up.... so now i have to climb down the stairs unlock the cage, climb back up get it and continue, ive got to say it has proven difficult.
Also i read a lot. I read dark angel ( which wasnt supernatural at all ) , beautiful dead ( it so is ) and the forest of claws and teeth ( take a guess ). Aflter this, other news is my sister bought a wii. so, while she or my father wasnt playing, i'd go on and play. We have mario ( im iffy at that) the sports one ( im good at tennis and boxing) and g force( i neer played). Thrilling as this all is now ive got to tell you about the plans with soul, and my other plans that are happening soon after i finish writing this.
Well the plan is around 10 soul is going to call me, im going to go to her house, where we will dye my hair, then straighten it. It'll be amazing! then we're going to the park to hang out with hung. At around 3:15 hung and I will head off to riocan to meet jeremy and justin, and whomever else actually shows up.
LOVE YA,
GothGirl xox

PS: justin doesnt think its going to be awesome to dye my hair. we'll see...... *evil smirk* course im right!

cancellation :(

well this week, while justin is away, i was supposed to go shopping with soul and linda. I was supposed to get much more goth stuff ( cause lately ive been serioulsy lacking) and like dye my hair and get leather boots and convers. and now thats all gone, because my aunt flew out to british colombia for my cousin's birth. lol kind of important. So im stuck.... all my plans for the week are cancelled.
Instad im going to suck it up and be normal for a while longer. ew. normal *shudder* lol, but yea. Im also having a harry potter movie marathon with leah :D gonna be fun.
Ive just beeen sitting at my computer thinking about what i can do for the past like 10 minutes and i think ( if i can get ahold of soul) that im still going to dye my hair because well i really need change, its just that time, and since i cant get new clothes or shoes :(, ill have to settle with hair. Now i just have to pick blue or purple... i think im going with blue. So we'll see.
love you all,
GothGirl xox

PS: justin if you read this before the msn thing than i wanted to say, its okay, i got your message and i really appreciate it, it was sweet and adorable, and i have no clue what leah told you, but yes i was upset and when i woke up and realized my aunt was gone anyways i was really upset but then i read tthe message and smiled because it was just what i needed to hear. Love you.

GREEN DAY!!!

hey everybody! Greenday concert was last night! totally awesome. So here's my green day day :P

Kay well pretty average morning though it was cloudy and cold so i didnt really want to wake up. But sure enough i did eventually. I didnt really feel like eating so i didn;t. I went on my laptop watched pocahontas 2 and talked with justin. then i watched hercules. ( im having a weird disney marothon thing going on ) Then I took a shower and tried memorizing as many songs as possible from their new album, because even if ive had it for a week i never really got the chance to memorize them. I got a few memorized ( actually it just so happened that all the songs i memorized were songs that they played) Because i already knew their other songs i didnt have to worry about that. Then i got dressed and ready and stuff when i was done i looked like a total grunge rockstar ( as erin would put it) my hair was loose and messy ish, and curly and wild, and i was wearing black skinny jeans and a spiked belt. I had dark eyeliner but besides that no makeup. I was wearing a big i <3 GD tshirt over top of a smaller black lace top. and finally la peice de ressistance! I had my emo sleves that had chains on them and skulls except i rolled them down so that they were only gloves instead of my complete arm. It was totally sick. Anyways then mom got home we ate dinner and went to pick up tracy and david.
WE were following one of my moms friends to the concert except at one point we lost them... and then we founf their car so we followed it, and followed it, until we got to stitsville..,yeah... but then we kept following him until he pulled into his drive way and got out of the car. He had this massive 80's hairstyle.... ( my moms friend's bald....) so yea woops not him. so we got on the queensway and surprisingly the next exit was the scotia bank place ( so atleast we weren't that far off.) We then sat outside, and i saw justin and jeremy. which my mom is still bugging me about.... ( she's like he could have atleast came up and said hi! Im like he waved!! ugh) ( did you notice ive been using a lot of brackets today as well??) So we finally went in and to our seats. This band i know from new york was the opening act and... sorry i just can't remember their name.... anyways i sang along with emma. OH emma is lou's daughter i was sitting next to her and david... actually the order was exactly. david, me, emma, lou, tracy, mom. lou is tracy's bf lol. Me and em got along great we danced and sang and laughed and made jokes. like at one point the opening band was like this is another song aboout a bar in brooklyn ( there had been one earlyer) and he said wow this is becoming a theme, so emma laughs and said "must be some bar :P" it was funny. than an intermissiony typed thing.... then GREEN DAY WOOT!!! They played new songs and old songs and REALLY old songs and i knew them all so i was deffinatly happy that i had good taste in memorization. the only song i didnt know the words to all night was 21 guns. and even that i knew the chorus. it was totally kool. the backdrop was used to like the best extent, and the pyrotechniques were amazazing!! and the energy was awesome, i mean you felt like high the entire time, and then billie joe brought peoples on stage to sing and entire song, and on jesus of seburbia he got some guy out of the crowd to play it and he was really awesome! and the confeity and tollette paper... it was just.. wow. for my first concert i'd say thats a good one :D
Rock on,
GothGirl xox

styks high

The styks high symbol / title. that is a picture i took of my binder, it is also on 3 other books that involve styks high. for example character charts and whatnot.

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Love you ,

GothGirl xox

book wednesdays!!! ( on thursday morning [wrote it yesturday] )

okay well the drama with my dad is more or less over. but im still not too sure its going to work out. and at the same time i dont want to move permanently to my moms cause she's already yelled at me twice this week. like thats better. so i talked to my dad monday ( not very well i might add) tuesday i went to justins and we watched me myself and irene which was so funny! and i have to admit i'm gonna miss him while he's gone. But while he's gone im going to go shopping with Linda and soul. and write more. and ALSO! im going to go to shoppers with soul and get hair dye and IM GOING PURPLE!! :P but seriously. so when he gets back im going to have diffrent clothes diffrent, hair, diffrent look ! :D wonder what he's gonna say...
Now because it is WEDNESDAY and i seem to have the time, its time that you get an update on STYKS HIGH!!! lol. okay well yesturday alone i wrote like 5 pages and introduced a new character and wrote down like 3 mojor big ideas. I am now on chapter four, and In the past week i invented the logo! Also i did so re writing at some points where i forgot to mention something. So my new ideas are 1. Claire locks sybil in a dark room called the room of tears. and as the whole school is looking for her Sybil becomes the most popular girl there. and james is of course the one to find her and thats when he realizes he loves her, and so he kisses her in front of everyone. i know queue the AWW. :P Most peoples go crazy in that room if they aren't an oracle or a necromancer ( most necromancers are crazy anyways and they're used to hearing voices all the time) So she writes an article about her time there.
2. Paul ( shadow demon) see's the article so he discusses it with Sybil, because he wants her to know that it isnt evil, or scary even, it can be beautiful and amazing if you look at it the rightway. So he shifts into shadow ( to prove a point) but Sybil was listening for him so she got pulled into the shadow aswell, and soon she learns she can do it on her own, so she and Paul hang out a lot and become friends and watch from the shadows where no one an see them so they can hear what peoples really want to say, when peoples arent around.
3. ( not sure if im going to use this one) James thinks that Sybil is cheating on him with Paul because she's been spending so much time with him and they'd disapear for hours only to come back all smiling. So sybil laughs and explains to him darkness, and then shows him. So he puts all his suspitions together, and with a grim realization figures out that Sybil is a half demon. because no human should be able to do that + the tropical fruit + insane hearing its just too much to be a coincidence, so he tells her. and she flips.

SO THERES MY THREE IDEAS!! again this is ALL copyright to me!!
characters
sybil Bryingwood-main caracter
Liz-best friend (listener)
Cloe Sabath- (shapeshifter)
Claire- bitch of styks high (oracle/immortal)
Mr thompson- principal of styks high
Darcy- assistant
Becky - friend ( vampire)
Sandra - friend (faerie)
Micheal - friend ( fallen angel)
Soul- friend (necromancer)
Tommy - friend (human)
Parus - bitch of st mary's (human)
Gerry - appartement manager (human)
Paul - friend (shadow demon)
Oizya ( misery ) - claire's bitch ( greek goddess -daughter of Nyx)
Lyssa ( madness ) - " ~~ "
James- boyfriend ( half fire demon)

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Love you!
GothGirl xox

:(

I've got to admit... ive been through a lot of crap with my dad but last night i actually moved out.. im not too sure if it was permenently yet or not though..... guess i should tell you the story.

Kay well we had dinner and dad was already having a pissy day so i should have taken the hint but i was being too dumb... so anyways after dinner i put half of the table stuff away and lef \t the other half for my sister and she left the table without picking anything up so when my dad came upstairs he spazzed. ON ME! he took away my computer, my books, the TV, writing was prohibited and i was supposed to sit there and do NOTHING for a week... i dont think so. so i just said i was going to moms for the rest of the week. so he spazzed even more.. now by this point i was scared. So i did call my mom and she came and me, my sister and Kira left. We went to my moms.
Me and my mom talked and we agreed that i would try to make it up to my dad.... but im not so sure its going to work out even if i do. and i found out im the only one keeping my dad from comitting suicide and i dont want him DEAD! so i really dont know what to do.
and i REALLY miss my friends. Kelsey, Schwa, emma..... :( the way each of them would know exactly what to say to make me feel better when something like this happenes. I would just go to school and tell them all about it and everything would be okay. worst thing is that all their phone numbers are on my laptop so i cant even call them. I read my yearbook 5 times yestuday. especially schwa's. it made me feel better but it just accented the fact that i missed them. so ireally want to see them but i dont know when ill be able to. Life sucks. atleast ill get a hug from, justin soon ... i hope.
GothGirl

honesty :P what a joke! PG!!!!

hello. I have no clue if i told you about the whale and swimming.... i think i did.. ill go back late but for now ill start with hanging out! lol... i actually have no clue what Ive updated on already and what i need to say, so here it goes.

Okay well a few days ago we went to see public enemies. and by we i mean, justin jeremy leah and wilsen. I just met wilsen and ive got to say i really dont like him. lol its just a vibe but... nope i dont like him. so anyways. It was fun. i biked there and when i arrived jermy justin hung and wilsen were already there. I KNOW JUSTIN EARLY GASP lol. the movie was good, and then we went to pizza pizza and DQ, me and lee got a banana split and it was awesome! then we went to leblaws and walked around then went to the hill behing leblaws and there was this stalker bee, and it was epic. After that leah had a break down but then there was hugs and all was good. Lee then had to leave and the rest of us went to indigo. I got a new book c alled raven and its awesome. and Yes im already done shut up! So we hung out a while longer at starbucks but then justin jermy and wilsen left. and JEREMY OWES ME 3$ and me and hung headed back to the theater so i could get my bike and i was off.

Now today... my god the greif we got about today.... okay well lets start at the beggining. Leah wanted to go swimming with a bunch of peoples but cause there were 7 peoples supposed to go we had to plan it at walter baker. after like hours of convincing peoples to come i got permission from my dad. Then i met lee at the bus and we went to the pool, once we got there ( after stopping at the "gas station") we waited for the others to get there. Justin showed up next. He got in trouble from his mom for coming... but he got kicked out of the house and driven to the pool as punishment... stupid rich boys. Then leah convinced Dylan to come and he lives near by so he was next. let me just tel you now. WE GOT DITCHED! i was so mad... but hey it was still fun. Once in the pool we met TJ and Rhian who i had not previously met but were both really funny. so we kept switching from the pool to the hot tub to sauna and around again. it was really fun OMG it was soooo funny. okay well we were swimming in the pool well actually we were sitting around the edge of the pool talking and seriously that ALL we were doing and the life guard comes up and tells leah that its not a hotel and to keep it PG... now in my head i was thinking.... have you ever SEEN a PG movie?? so i kind of scoffed and so he points to me and says you too...... NOW i full on laugh.... seriously even if we were kissing THERES KISSING IS G movies!!!! have you ever seen ANY movies? even ICEAGE has kissing and we wereTALKING! lol. after we ate some fries and stuff from the caf and hung out. then time to go.

Here's where it gets interesting Im having a sleepover at lee's moms and we were on the computer. and I sign on................ the thing was we were on leah's account..... So leah starts talking to the"socalled me" now after leah asking who it was and the the "me" answering why do you want to know... and reply: cause you arent Sybil, sybil is sitting right next to me. lol. so after a while we found out it was my dad... so not only was my dad on my computer and account but he was pretending to be me and then spazzing at me for "lying" he thought that we had been lying and that really it was always planned that it was just going to be us and our boyfriends... but dylan was never supposed to come and others ditched. Then he was like well you're still lying because originally i had exagerated and said 20 peoples.. thing is i dont think i even have 20 friends.... so he spazzes and finally i get him to beleive we werent lying thing is we huung out with Rhian and TJ... After all this i realize how rediculous it is! hes yelling about me for honesty and stuff.... meanwhile shouldnt it be both ways? i mean how can i be honest when i cant trust him.. he broke onto my computer and pretended to be me and i guarentee you he called some of my friends to ask if what i said was true. he's such a control freak. THEN when he promised he'd sign off my computer we check and he's STILL on. so he lied about that too.

on the adventures of summer,

GothGirl xox

oh and the poem that i had mention previously is now posted on poems by me!

Happy summer!

HEY! how's every one been? I'm sure you've all just missed me to death! sorry i haven't really posted anything since end of the year Dance, but hey i've been so busy. Justin's end of the yer party was cancelled due to rain. I wrote a lot. I've been carachterizing and also discovered an amazing new show called True blood.... welll new to me, really they are on season 2. ERIC IS MINE!! he's so yummy :P lol. Emma i know you agree. lol. Its really warm right now, just got back from swimming at Justin's actually. I'm wearing a bikini top and jeans, i know great combo! but it's really compfy. So other things that have happened so far this summer.... well i had a triple sleepover with Leah, then apart for a day then her sleepover at my house. There was frog sex five feet from the tent we had in afrIca ( leah's backyard) ummmm OH!! i also celebrated 3 months with Justin, we went to riocan of course :P and he met my dad, ( and today he met Jim) and we hung out at the hill behind Lablaws. We looked at the clouds and sat together and just talked, and well of course we kissed, it was fun. Also when Leah was over aat my house justin and Jeremy ended up having to stay up till 2 o'clock in the morning :P lol video chat rocks. And then justin was grounnded from his laptop ( no more video chat for a week ) And well i did more writing. and watched this show, also i got4 new books. The third book od Deamonica, the third Volume in vampire diaries, Prism and the school to dangerous girls. Oh and i got my copy of Cut back..... All in all I say its been a great summer and only a week gone by :D
Oh! also good news, Leah and Justin have been getting along, or atleast enogh that i can hang out with both of them together now! so thats another plus. The first time we went to riocan and hung out... at first it was only me leah jeremy and justin, but then we met up with Ellise and jung yung, ( i think it spelt like that). WE had so much fun we went to dollarama and dressed leah and jermy up in weird clothes, and i got a blue boa, which we soon fouhnd out dyes your skin blue aswell. :P Then the second time was today, me and leah got a ride to stone bridge, well specifically justins house , and after calling him twice to get very slow and tedious step by step instructions finally arrived ( cause the map we have was so outdated taht riocan wasnt even there, and because justin has this need to repeat instructions). Then Jeremy was already there and Cori came soon after that. We went swimming and invented a new olympic sport called whale straddling, Jeremy won. So those were the two times they hung out together so far, though we are both going to the movies tuesday to that will be three.
On the mention of hung, i forgot that i also saw Hung this summer. Me and my mom and sister were at the canada day fair. While we were listening to really bad disco music we ran into Hung. The fair was actually a lot better than i had feared. It was kinda lame at some points and like i didnt really have any freinds to hang out with. There was dancing and lots of like cultural stuff, anbd choirs and singing and stuff. also highland dancing. Then later on Disco inferno the band came ( ew) and then last but not least fire works. Then the rush to get to our bus. It was pretty interesting of a day if i do say so myself. Also i now know where hung lives :P
Love ya, Happy summer,
GothGirl xox

JENEAH!!! lol

hey!!! SUMMER is finally here! im so happy. Right now im hanging out with leah. this will be the second night we sleepover together. PArty in the tent!! in afrIca. and ya i mean emphasis on the I. Long story that involves elephants and bad internet.... like MR PURPLE AND I AM GREEN!!!! dont ask.... anyways we are making this video called stranded its a spoof on lost. ill give you all the youtube link once its posted. gonna be so funny. we watched several movies... such as: anger management, wedding daze. so funny. been awesome. and there is a chance that tonight we are havinng a quadrouple sleepover. not REALLY but... kay, well justin and jermy are having a sleepover too so we'll all just go on call and video chat and then me and leah will be on my laptop and justin and jermy together on w.e so voila. lol sorry but im really hyper! im gonna have to run to my dads after dinner to get more clothes and my notebook but besides that totally cool.
gonna go,
GothGirl xox

graduation, party's, dances

So sorry i havent posted in a while i totally didnt even notice that much time had gone by, it seems like i posted yesturday, and Emma of all peoples reminded me :P Now last post I put ** on the poem with Holes, but i never got a chance to explain because i forgot. Also i mention my sisters Bday. and a few other things i should tell you about. This will probably be a long post ive got so much to catch you all up on. So brace yourself. though i doubt it'll beat the record.

So first off i'll explain the poem, the best way to do so would be to simply post the poem but i dont have it here. I will ost it on the poem page as soon as i get it. But basically it's a poem about this man walking down a street and how there was a hole, and he fell down, and it took him forever to find a way out. Then again he see's the hole, yet he falls in again, this time it still takes a long time to get out. Later the man is on the same road, he see's the hole to he tries walking around the edge of it, but he slips and falls in anyway. It barely took him any time to get out. Then the next time he see's that road, he takes a diffrent one. So its all about learning about your mistakes.

Now about my sisters birthday. it was surprisingly a lot calmer than i had anticipated. Olivia was absent HALLElUJA! and her other friends are pretty calm. I like Kira, always have, such a calm book type, like me. and Ashley... im not sure about her. She's a whinner and anoying but shes no olivia, and she is tollerable. The rest of that day wasnt too bad. Though my mom insisted that i "be sociable" and hang out with the partty. Oh joy. besides that i went to sues, tried on my dress. and then the following day, went to work. I got the dress and picked up my moms bathing suit for her. and worked, it was fun. that day i wove thread. Oscar didnt put up a fight this time so thats always good. One day that machines going to bite someone, i just hope its not me. though i did have a run in when i was winding the threat at first.... the lever wouldnt stay down long enough for me to tighten the switch. .... i just realized i probably just lost half or ya.... Oscar is the machine we use to whind thread, onto smaller reals... opposed to the berthas ( big ass rolls of thread) so that with the small rolls we can put them onto the sewing machines.But oscar is very tempermental and old. and doesnt always work nicely. lol

I really should get my calenday so that i dont leave anything out.... okaay now we are working on the 23... tuesday. GRADUATION! oh well do i have a long day to tell you about. I dont remember ALL of the details... again LONG DAY! but ill do my best. K, well i woke up and got ready, then Katie picked me up and we went to the ceremony, this was held at the centerpoint theater. We showed up at the amazing glass window filled with students. all 300 of us. After meeting with everyone, hugs, the "you're so pretty's" , the ceremony began. We all got in line acording to class and name. once alphabetically placed ( me in between Adam and blake , joy) we all filled in according to class. ( all very organized) we then got into our seats (in perfect rows of twenty of course) and sat down. Tatyanna came out and sang o'canada, and then it really began. Rheuben being our MC, it was even more proffesional. Seriously that kid reminds me of a teacher himself. HE EVEN SIGNED MY YEAR BOOK ALL TEACHER LIKE!!!! its like you're my friend, not a teacher who wishes me well with my future studies ! ugh. anyways. awards were handed out, then one class at a time, the graduation papers. when they called Racheal Fausette i so expected (cutting up caribou) Hacking Moose to be called up. and the funny part is, i know racheal. i just didnt realize she was THE racheal. lol. too bad erin wasnt next to me it was just soo PERFECT !!! lol its like our official last day of being in middle school and we finally figure out who the famous Racheal Fausette is.. too bad about Hacking Moose. then we filled out and did the hugs. Jim and sue even came, though both my parents were no shows. ( not that i expected) but still i was happy theey came. then after the anoyingly long task of getting to Katie's car and back, i headed off with Kelsey.
WE then went grocery shopping and this was me, kim, and kelsey all in grad dresses, so we got a few really funny looks lol. Then once that was done, we went to kelsey;s house and had a hilarious BBQ. Then we went to the park and hung out on the swings. Oh emma was there too..... was she at the grocery's too.... no... i think she came right before the BBQ.... ya that sounds right. so Em was there too.it was really fun. Then we headed off to tthe dance. which Ive got to tell you was kind of a dissapointment. it wasnt all that great and the dance floor was really small. so we got our own table and had to add like 5 extra chairs ( too many friends lol ) though almost none of us spent anytime at the table ( the pizza was nasty and we were all full ) We met up with Schwa and then picked a corner and started dancing (though most of the music was pretty bad) so when and schwa went to get something to drink we noticed that the other corner was much less crowded so we could have more dancing room so we moved over there telling kelsey and katie and asking them to tell the rest. but apparently that didnt get over to emma so she got mad at us. now we should have told her oursleves but we figured shed be told.
After in the parking lot she kind of spazzed and now i feel bad. But what could we have done? and then my mom never wshowed to pick me up and thank god erins parents were late too they gave me a ride.

Now the 24th. Emma had stopped being mad at us. thank the goddess. But sadly she only stayed till fifth period and then that was her last day and we didnt even see that much of her because at reccess was a casting party for the play. WE had a class party, helped Mr leohr with putting away stands and stuff. and then got all our art back. We also packed up all our stuff in our lockers. I brought half of it home that night. But the whole day i had nothing gold can stay ** stuck in my head.

Finally the last day of school... again the dance was a major dissapointment. worse than the last actually. i was wearing the dress i made and mrs van dusen and mr leohr loved it. mr guidon not so much. In the morning we had the talent show. fun fun. then after a caotic recess of getting all my last minute signatures. finally the dance. but sadly i really wasnt in the mood for dancing. i was way too hot in the gym and the lights were too bright. also mr guidon made me put a tshirt underneath my dress that is made of lycra so doesnt breathe. so i was like dying. also the music absolutly sucked. like no good songs played at all. It was horrible. then we had the slide show which surprisingly we were in TWICE! and it was so beautiful i started crying, not not as much as some poeples. then the good byes. Turkey boy wasnt there so i didnt get a chance to give him a hug goodbye. but everyone else i did.... i also have a feeling that adam might slightly like me, creepy thought. because when i hugged him he HUGED ME AND WOULDNT LET GO!!! and then he said hed really miss me, and i was so shocked i didnt say anything back. there were a lot of tears and hugs and more tears... but i knew id be seeing my freinds over the summer at least once and we'd be staying in touch. I love 'em but im not going to cry for a good bye, ill see them againn no doubt about it. when i find really good freidns distance doesnt change that MUCH.

Finally we come to today. i cleaned my room, went over to Jsutins and we "watched" about 5 minutes of a movie, played rockband. some random killing game, played piano, took walkes back and forth between jermy's, justin's and some other persons house so that jermy could feed their guinea pig. lol. it was fun. oh bubles was there too. yupp................... ...........................
so i think you are now officially caught up.
GothGirl xox
OH and im having a sleepover with leah tomorrow :D YAY!

** Nothing gold can stay poem by robert frost ( on poem page )