from the wonders of my mind; my dilema's

Sybil back
Okay well I haven't really posted a lot because I've been to bored to do so. Well except for the H. H. Holmes one, oh and the deal with thaat is they blocked hotmail so the only way I can send my notes to my self is through this so I just plan on editting that blog every time I have something to add.... Right now my life is kind of hectic with the science fair and festival and other crap. So heres it all on a plate.
Well tuesday I was sick! I mean like a dog, coughing, eyes watering and the whole chebang so didnt really feel like doing much besiddes sleep. then on wednesday I didn't go to school but after around 5 naps I was feeling better so I went to the concert at school, though I had to admit it was fun. then thursday I had practice after school and my mom was late so I didnt get home till 7pm fun eh? so all and all I didnt really get much done on my science fair project which I found out is due the 3rd aka tuesday!!!! So Im kind of going nutts because we havent even started our poster and athena isnt really the easyest person to get together with she is always doing something. So tonight after school I ran all the way to my dads house after school in a hail/ snow/ rain storm only to find out that he wasnt coming home tonight because of a work thing!!! and that hed send me the pictures tommorrow! ya! I know, go all that way to find out I have to go the other whole direction again to my moms in cold wt gross weather... After I got home slipping on ice and falling in puddles the whole way my grama was there. Now usually this is totally kick ass awesome but not really when you have work to do, see she doesnt really get the meaning of shhhhhh! or dont bug me im busy, so i dont really get much work done around her. though tonight im m having a really good typing day, like 150 words a minute though dont quote me on that cause i never mesured and i count i's and a's lol basically though not too good. I pretty much have it planned out though because im doing the questions and stuff and athina's doing the observations cause my dad'll send her the pics too and monday she comes to my house with the board and we have a party! not really. ya
Oh and tmmorrow plans on being just as bad, I wake up at 8 am EWWW saturday mornings, then Emily is moving in ( oh she is my moms new room mate, im seeing a trend in my parents, buy big houses and the rent my room out! though emily is taking the basement so only my second room..... and and then I work on my project for a bit and then I get driven to Emma's we have fun go swimming and so on, and then tommorrow we go to festival.... and yeah thats about it.
Now that weve got most of hectic out of the way Ill tell you more about the emotional stuff :
Yeah, so Giovanna asked Kiranen if he like me and he said no... :( that made me very sad. So I think I might ask him out any way... I mean even if h doesnt like me doesnt mean that he wont say yes. I mean hes sweet but whos he kidding hed be lucky to get me lol. youd get what I mean if you ever met him :P those who do ill give you a minute to laugh that off......... okay are you good?? anyways hes a really great guy and stuff so like yeah , but i dunno.... hes not like normal guys what if he says no or ignores my like the others:( I dont want that .... so im not sure.
Wow besides that Im not really sure what else there is to say... I mean I hate mr shoenemark he doesnt really have my style of english and he doesnt get my sly comedy so he keeps correcting me and stuff and its like geeze!!! and he makes us read short stories and stuff and then we have spelling tests on words in the story with the deffinitions!!!! I mean I get read books and stories and give feedback and make comment, answer questions and make logs stuff like that but this?!? EWW I hate it, Im not good at it because with this I cant state my opinions and stuff and like show him what I think so that he understands me and I doubt Ill ever get the chancce because school ends inj like 4 months!!!
another mental break down.... Leah and sure and jim have invited me to go skiiing with them for four days out of march break and gramaman wants me to go camping with her..... nice lodge in the mountains or stuffy trailer with my sister?!? ummm hard choice but I dont want to make her feel bad and stuff so im not really sure but like I really just want to like relaxe and read and write more of my book during march break like slow down while i can and the mountains seem perfect for that. I mean its like the perfect enviroment. but i barely get to see grama and shes thinking of moving into an old folks home so ill see even less of her :( Go I really REally want to go to both but i cant..... unless she just comes here and stays here cause then ill be back in 4 days just to come back and hang with her, without the stuffy trailer, but its andreas descision and im not sure what shell choose...
Oh another one of my minor dilemas.... minus the minor.... I CANT FIND THE SECOND CHAPTER OF MY BOOK!!! I swear i left it on the kitchen table and then i remembered seeing it in my closet but its nowhere, i mean i cleaned the WHOLE house looking for that thing. though now i kind of think its a good thing beause ill get her dad to come to town so that yo;u can meet hima dn you know really get to know the dad and stuff get into sybils shoes.... but i wish i had finished the conversation between sybil and cloe and then the scene with her and Liz because they were awesome! but now i dont have them and i have a feeling my mom threw them out though she claims she didnt..... Oh well ill just have to re write it better! im having dreams about her again so im really starting to understand the characters better really get into their minds and see what makes them tick... I think thats good because then Ill be able to potraite them better, more like in my dreams. well i gtg write about the solutions as they happen.
from the wonders of my mind,
GothGirl xox