Positivity

I hate how people can be so negative all the time. No matter what it is they are always complaining. I'm upset enough as it is with the poor excuse for a march break, and now that my perfectly planned life's a shambles. Not even me, but everyone around the world, everyone has their share of problems, we have so much wrong with our world today, right now. It's hard to look on the bright side, to get out of bed in the morning and smile. But there is no excuse for polluting the negative poisons. And that is exactly what a lot of people do.

There's absolutely nothing that you can do to change all the negativity people bring up, but they bring it up anyway. They not only pollute their mind but the minds of those who'll sit long enough to listen. My family is full of negative people. My dad being the king of them all. If it's not complaining about the governement or his own children, he's complaining about the apocalyse, religion, drivers, armageddon. I'm trying to get through life one day at a time without my dads constant complaints. Nothing is ever good enough for him, and he's made that very clear that i am part of that catagory.

So he talks and talks and talks, and whenever you even ask him to stop for five minutes he just complains that you're bing disrespectful... Whatever excuse he can muster up he will use. I try to look on the bright outlook on life... but sometimes that is very difficult to do, especially when im always surrounded by such... NEGATIVITY! So i made this blog so i could comaplain, so that i wouldn't be polluting my friends' minds, because to tell you the truth they are really the only thing positive i have in my life right now. My brain, and my friends, and that is it!

I try to just ignore my dad, but talking is never good enough for him. He has to argue all the time. Once i was reading a book, fiction of course, about demons, and my dad went on the longest rant ive ever heard about how it was polluting the universe crap liek that was the downall of humanity, and how i should be reading into things that were actually relevant. WELL EXCUSE ME FOR WANTING TO GET AWAY FROM THIS SHIT ASS WORLD FOR FIVE MINUTES!!!! Most of my books, the good ones i read so that i can get away from how messed up the world really is. That is why i hate reality books, non fiction, history, and frankly even mysteries.

Music and reading are my escape from like but my dad had to even take that away. Whenever something suits him, its okay but the moment he's in a funk everyone has to pay for it. Fact is that with my dad, he's always in a funk. For appearances sake he's all fine to everyone else, but he seriously never shuts up unless he's complaining, or yelling, or arguing. It's absurd. and completely irrational. So i don't know what to do half the time. I used to yell back, i used to argue, stand up for myself, but over the years ive been worn down until now... i rarely even feel the emotions. I just stay calm, dont say anything so he just goes on and on, and i can't even stand up for my beliefs. But i know that it's worse if i do. So i stay quite and i ride it out, even if i didn't do anything.

Some times, times like these, i just loose it. I can't stand how negative he is all the time, so i go off and hide in my room and blog.... and well it doens't always work. Sometimes it gets me in more trouble, but you know what i HAVE to get it out of my system. I have to. Is it so wrong that i dont want to talk about the end of the world, and people dying out and becoming cannibals for a fight for survival against the rest of humanity while im sitting at diner?? Is it so wrong that i try to see the good in humanity where ever i can? I try, and some times it's extremely difficult. But my friends are always there a perfect example. Not even only my old ones, but my new ones aswell, even my friends from LDHSS have no idea how much they do for me everyday. I pick my friends because of their unique outlooks on life. and though most of them don't know it, they probably all keep me out of depressions day to day. Whenever im down they are almost always there to cheer me up again and some times they dont even do it on purpose.

Now i admit, i must be a hard friend to have, and some times im just way too beyond reach, so i stay to myself. It's hard in the world we have today to be possitive. I'm trying.
Positivity moves millions
Negativity takes down 2 or 3.
Jen