untiled, and undone (untitled)

when life hands you lemons, you make orange juice, sit back and watch as the rest of the world tries to figure out how the hell you did it.

My motto of the week. Yes bad things have happened theis week, but that's life. And so i take it in strides because everything happens for a reason. Weither we understand the effect of that emidiatly or later on doesnt matter. All you know is that the experience has given you something. For example i can give myself one silver lining with justin. I now understand why we cannot try to change for someone else; If we arent ourselves from get go, then once things settling and you begin to act normal around that person they think that its weird and odd, and thats what happened with justin. I morphed, and morphed back and things changed, now i know that the person's skin on which i tried on wasnt a fit for me, now I'm back as myself and though a tad glum, happy that i get to act normal again.
Through life I will encounter many set backs but i cannot let them effect me or I'll loose everything. I won't win if i let events control me. I need to be my own person so that i can get through everything and that is another thing i learned. Yes im sad, but i wont let that effect me, im not going to let it get me down. I only have one life to live and im not going to waste it being depressed. So besides the biggest recent event, i have more to tell.
Last night was my big concert. I was head of crew, and advisory. Basically my job was to set up the stage, make sure everything was in order, organize the people, and get everything moved around when needed.... and boy was my job difficult. By the end of the concert we had 117 chairs and 67 stands. We had three bands, LDHSS grade 8 and 9, plus the ottawa wind orchistra. It was by the way, an enormousopportunity to play with proffessionals. Thank you to all those who came. Anyways, during the break, i had to add like 50 chairs on stage and it turned out that i had to change the entire seating plan because apparently our stage wasnt set up with enough space for the morph, and would have taken way too long to move all the precussion. Therefore i had to take it in strides and move with the flow. It ended up that we had flutes and clarinets behind the precussion nearly offstage, but it worked out. Our concert was a hit, with 45 minutes from the orchestra, Barnum and baileys, and nathan hale trilogy by us, some songs by the grade eights, then donkey riding with the orchestra and us, andfinally the finale with all three bands, around the world in eighty measures. Another plus of the night was that i had a bunch of my friends come and cheer me on while i set up... though i was ditched by my crew halfway through set up and i had to move nearly all the chairs alone, it turned out great. I took awesome pictures of the orchestra from the catwalks above stage (which were the coolest thing ive ever done... i felt like such a ninja, cause i was walking above people without the noticing me, wearing all black and taking stalker-ish photographs. I also got very high reviews on both my playing and the pictures by the members of the orchestra.
I have much more to add to the events of that night... but i was getting out of order and must now head back in time to before setting up actually started... lets say at 3 30 once school was out. First i had to head to vocal practice for the musical, it was pretty normal and there isnt much to say. Following this, i headed to the art room to hang out with pickles and sarah who were, also, staying before the concert. We sewed leaves for Audrey II (for the school musical of little shop of horror) and hung out with Mme, Cheung. who is my homeroom teacher, and surprisingly i learnt a lot. Usually i detest Mme.Cheung, she is an insane perfectionist and horrible art teacher because if everything is not done in the style she does, it isnt right, which is way not the case in art because there is not right or wring as long as there is emotion. But after school she seemed like an entire diffrent person. For one she was speaking english, dancing around and singing along to disnreey songs. Basically we all had a party while working. After we finished the three leaves we ate dinner and that cleaned up, while mme was gone... Still having an hour left we added boogers to the cleaning troll in our classroom, and talked with mme. I was so shocked, she was exacly like Natalie from the Community Channel on youtube.... i mean asian and everything. But the exact same sense of humor. We laughed for hours. or hour.
One of the topics of discussion was how teachers lie very often. and how they say things to make the student feel better even though it is completly wrong like "You'll enjoy highschool" "classes are fun" "I dont believe in lots of homework" etc etc AND "They're only mean to you because they like you." No i am sorry but if a guy is mean to you, its cause he's mean. or comptly socially awkward. Which then lead to how Mr Gumaste is very socially awkward ( but mme didnt say that ;P wink wink) and how adults are actually just larger versions of teenagers... which actually makes a lot of sense. So now ever adult i see i try to see which social stutus they would have been included in at school. Some i still cant see, but others are so obvious i couldnt believe i didnt see it before. Mrs Adams, was a jock. Mr Mo is a pickles, mr godfrey was a loner music geek (much like ryan) Mrs Jenson was a popular nice girl, as was mme herfst, Mrs wilkinson was a math and science geek, Mr czudner was a total nerd, that was still likable, Mrs Craske is a mean popular girl, etc etc
Besides discovering the social stats between adults and their pasts, i started writing a lot. And was actually asked by my english teacher to do a book report for her so she can decide weither it will be a good literature book or not. Its very diffrent so far. Ill have to tell you all how it is. ( i was chosen for this not only by my literary talent, but also because she read my review about the sixth sense and actually thought that it was engenious, and i aught to be a critic.)
Goddess Bless,
GothGirl

PS I've been getting the "they like you" thing soooo much lately. It seems taht almost every lunch break we have i have another guy being all like "i like you" or having soemone else say "its cause they like you" or " I can just see it in their eyes." Like FRIG i am not over justin yet. Its been three days can you calm your harmones for 5 minutes please. Just because im suddenly single does not mean im ready to date anyone anytime soon. 'sides i doubt half the guys they say do like me. Hell if i believed them that would mean....
(1. Sammy, 2. Jacob, 3. ariel, 4.antony, 5. sarmaad 6. jordan) 6! guys liked me, and that is rediculous.