Saturday, January 31, 2009

o god!

Hi we are still having our happy family get together, Pamela is still here and she says hi. WE are talking about many odd subjects , like weird names, ebay, love triangle, and squares and circles, and players, umm and cuting up cariboo's. you know the usual. ** wow. Don't you talk about that? YOU BETTER! we are also having major deja vu every time we talk to 'the parents'. We are also discusing the fact that we seem to both be queen of something or other, like me and the nerds. ..... yes I know I promised i wouldn't go into that again, especially after last time, oh wait i haven't posted that, oh well i will later. ummmm.
Also we are making fun of our younger siblings like most other kids. they are being very odd so we are blocking them out with fallout boy. I know sweet. we are also having a very educational convo with my dad, YA RIGHT!
also pamela is asking for a list of all my boyfriends so i thought i might as well post it

alex dukitchinette xxxx
thomas H. xxxx
thomas M ooooo
micheal S. xxxx
Micheal C. oooo
Andrews L. oooo
andrew P. xxxx
andrew t. ooooo
"connor" xxxx
"connors" friend xxxx
Jordan oooo
Justin M. xxxxx
Justin W. xxxx
dean M xxxx
Geordie M xxxx
Sean R oooo
luc M oooo
Riley oooo
Cody oooo
Jake L. oxox
David C. xxxx
Ian W. oooo
Scott V. xxxx
Scott B. oooo

Okay well now i feel really bad! Omg i didn't know there was that many! so now im going to have to keep that list and i promis to add on to it, but for good mesure, just to compare here are pamelas

Kalen B. oooo
Addam R. xxxx
Evan M. xxxx
Matt D. xxxx
jake R xoxo
Ryan P. xxxx
Zach W. oooo
Jacob K oooo
Kurtis A. xxxx
Ben D. ooooo
Andy T. xxxx
Jamie P. oooo
Kyle S. xxxx
Mike F. oooo
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Okay so we figured out that i only reallly dated 15 guys and pamela like 14 so like its not that far just that there were a lot of guys i was close to but not dated.

just a bit of a fill in

hey im back.
So the last time I post I was at schoool,, was I not? so not much has really happened since then , and I still haven't told you about my epiphamy, I'll have to do that soon but until then....
Okay well we did manage to present our french play, it went well though about half way through we had to improvise because none of us could remember our lines, i think it went well. Also after that we were the last possible group because of absences so we did gymnastics on the stage, it was fun, and we got it on tape, cant wait to see what it looks like!!! Addam was shotting so i'm not so sure how well it will turn out but he did get a few good angles.
We never had time to present for history which is saving grace for me! mostly we read a lot and had many free periods because all the teachers had the flu too! they just said stay quiet and do what you please.
I got my course application filled in andi got all my teachers to sign my course choices, though my french teacher was hesitant because I waS taking advanced french , she was all like, but your so good in french!! meanwhile i struggle , the only reason I have good marks is because I stay up late studdying and stuff! So next year french will be a tad easyer, though not by much, and i still get my certificate. she did sign though.
what else?..... Oh Athina's back and you know how I was complaning a bit before about her being well, like my shadow, well it doesn't seem like that any more, i don't know if she read this or Emma told her but I'm happy I get my friend back , we're still close as ever but now there isnt the im always with you all the time feeling. Like we go to class seperatly sometimes, but we still weait for each other politly. We can go diffrent ways and we don't spend every waking minute together, but peoples still know that we're tight! I'm so happy. Hey maybe kim's doing this?!? I mean she promised me she'd make me happy and well now I am. I mean even me and my parents seem to be getting along for the time being.
Right now I'm all dressed up my room is so clean its sick and I'm bored out of my mind waiting for my mom's guest. Pamela and Philip will be coming too, and It's my job to entertain Pamela because we used to be best friends when we were little. Though not so much any more, but we still talk and get along and stuff, but we've just seperated I find. Andrea will have no problem entertaining philip , They'll probably play like pokemon or something. But me and Pamela don't have much in common any more. I mean I'm more artsy and creative, while she's more of the pink froofy type. She is into singing though, I even have her cd but I mean after that , theres nothing else. she likes animals and dogs and stuff, I like books, she like pink i like black, she likes I dunno dolls, I like drawing. See how similar we are? I have no clue what to do! I mean we don't even like the same kind of music. I like rock and she like pop!
So even though I'm having a good day and stuff, I 'm a bit unsure of how this is going to work out.
Until next time,
GothGirl xox

Thursday, January 29, 2009

well what happens happens

I guess everything really does happen for a reason. Kelsey never called back and I got the flu! YAY me! I've been lying in bed since sunday. Lost my voice, broke my nose and tore up my throat. sounds like fun, don't it? Right now I'm finally back at school 5 days later. I'm sitting in the lab with Erin not doing my work. Ain't that super? God I feel like shit, but I couldn't take one more day of being in bed soooo. I did get a chance to read a few books, the vampire diearies, and lullaby, I also got a start on Styks high. i'm probably going on in circles but thats okay because yu know what i couldn't care less because if you have the time to sit down and actually read my blog you have too much time on your hands. lol. So my cats out. He pooped one too many times on my moms carpet and she's had it.
I have no clue what the point of this blog was besides me having nothing better to do..... It's taking up my time nicelly, ummm there was something else but I can't remeber. OH! MUSIC! So you know that site I was talking about earlyer well ya KICK ASS! i put a bunch of phantom of the opera songs and woke up singing masquerade. umm what else. Oh well I guess I should tell how much better I am then what I was before. Okay well my nose is now back to normal thanks to magic zinc cream though it is sill a bit chapped. My throat is, well it could be better. I did get my voice back however. Too bad I still feel awful.
I was very inspired over the 5 days in bed and I had an epiphemy but I won't have enough time to write it all down yet so, once I have enough time, for instance me not being in class, I'll post my meraculous discovery to you all.
Erin has just finished up so It's almost time to go back to class, yuppy!
Until next time my fellow readers,
GothGirl xox

Saturday, January 24, 2009

I'm soo bored! Well kelsey didn't call and once I finially got my dad off the phone long enough to call her myself her parents said that she was gone! So what a bum I just finished writting the ceremony for poo:( Now I have nothing to do and I'm REALLY bored.

Friday, January 23, 2009

okay well today at school i wrote to you a little about things but I have a lot more to tell you so here it goes;
To start with I have to tell you about my class after health, math. See there was a catch .... MR RAYJAK'S BACK!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! Even if it was only to visit it ws awesome..... for any of those who forget who mr rayjak is he is the student teacher that taught us math for three months and I loved. But it was a bit sad because athina wasn't there to share it with me.... :( I mean she would have loved it.
Now that brings up another important fact, I have no clue what wrong with me but latelly I've just noticed something and I know that its way wrong to think but i mean latelly I've just noticed how anoying athina is. I mean she's my friend and all and I love her, but god she can get on your nerves. I mean shes always trailing behind you all the time, i get it but I'm the type of person who likes space. You know? I mean I practically do everything solitary and ever since i met athina and we reallt started to become friends its like I have a seconde shadow... I don't know, just that sometimes I rather not always have her around. Just that once your with someone for too long it get .... UGH! just I really don't miss her all that much right now. Like sometimes something will happen and ill be like oh, athina would love that or whatever, and then she's not there. basically what I'm trying to say is that I have other friends besides her and sometimes I'd like to hang out with them without the odd looks.
Me and kelsey are getting really close now! I mean this weekend we are getting together with her and we're going to do like a funeral for poo. Though we don't plan on burying him till' spring. Then i'm going to meet piglette and we will have a party. us ninja's. Latelly though I've really been missing taffy because even though she was annoying at times and loud, and pooped a lot, and smelled she was great and just ireplacable. I'm now really going to love piglette because she will be part mine too, our new mascot!
I got my dad hooked on apocalyptica, like insanely. This weekend at some point hes going out and buying like all 7 CD's yay me!!
so as I was saying about my sketch pad I'm really getting into art again, I mean i used to doodle but now im going extreme!!! i got it at work, i know I actually went for once in like three weeks. So we had fun and I got material so that I can do my gloves! YUPPY!
If i think of anything else to add I'll be on the computer so fast you won't even be able to say, sjdhfgiuashefbcjkhbs bjhsxcifnrb!
lol, Goth Girl xox

Hello!!

Sybil's here,
I'm sitting in class right now writting this because I'm done!!! YAY! So anyways Kelseys here with me and we are having a blast learning never to eat sweet tarts!...... Ya umm it's health and we're learning about drugs. why anyone would ever use them I have no clue?So anyways we actually had to go outside for recess last break! I know gasp! so Athina still isn't here, and you guys are probably completly lost by now because I keep switching subjects..... I wonder what I'll call this blog because there really isn't a point besides me going on and on.... I only have five minutes left so I'm not really going to get into anything either, though I must say I got a new sketch pad and pencils and I've started up my art again! It's so pretty I drew my display picture without tracing and I must say Mine looks insanely cool! I've also started writting more in my book. I went to work the other day and we had chiness food, we also organised sraps for the doll ladies and I got to keep some! Leah also told me about this really awesome site where I can find my music ! Do you know hoe hard it is to find? UGH. So i gtg soon :( I know your probably going catatonic by now but I'll be back tonight promis.

love,
GothGirl xox

Ps, Me and kels will be getting together this weekend for the unfortunate funeral of poo :( good thing I'll get a chance to meet piglette :) anyways later.

Tuesday, January 20, 2009

day from hell!

god I feel sooo crappy right now. that hole in my chestr has returned ten fold. And even though at school i try to put on a brave face and hold it in buut today I think it seeped out today on the bus. I think I have my friends fooled because seriuosly I tricked myself into thinking it was gone. Guess not. So even though all day I've just been wanting to curl up into a ball and cry, I had to go through the motions, make jokes, smile and laugh. Lately though it has gotten a lot harder to smile and pretend everythings okay. So I guess the'll soon find out because I'm confiding in my blogg again. the thing is sometimes I really need my friends to keep my spirits high but now I just kind of don't. Like I rather be left alone to mope by myself. of course that will never happen with my friends, I mean they're practically family. . . Ugh. Well I guess I should talk about it because if I don't I'll probably have a melt down any day now.

Okay well today was band so of course it was doomed from the start but today was so much worse. I forgot about band, so at seven my mom stormed in my room yelling and screaming. So you can see how much I knew today was going to be the best yet!!! so in two minutes flat I was ready to got crying to whole time. I didn't get a chance to brush my teeth or hair or eat breakfast. So I felt really crappy once Ifinally got there. ah but there's more before then. My mom of course was still on hysterics as we got in the car and even slapped me! That didn't help the issue much. Then of course she just had to bring up the " Sybil only things about herself" road. WE've been on it many times before and I'd just sit and go through the motions of tears to calm back to tears again, but this time was diffrent just because it was morning and my nerves were already strung out as far as they go. So she took them and played guitar and I finally had enough so I fought back andd well that shut her up for a moment. I mean I'm the quiet one. But I'd had enough! Any way I got over the quick snap before she had so I just shut up again and waited for her to start yelling again. And sure enough she did in ten fold. By the time we were at school ( which to my dismay took like an hour because of traffic) I was very near a break down. So when I walked out side and my mom drove away i crumpled to the floor. I mean I was already late what would two more minutes add? So I cryed on the front steps of our school and when I started calm ing down I went inside and no one suspected a thing of course not.
Sorry but I can tell this will be a long one**
As the day went on I was less and less sure of myself and just wanted to go hide in the dark, but 1. I forgot my music 2. My friends wouldn't leave my side and 3. because of the snow there is no DARK!!!!! Athina was also away today so i felt a bit more hidden than usual. I confided in kelsey though and it was fun, we had a blast in outdoor gym..... but that was early in the day......... the day seemed so long because at every turn I was trying to hide my tears. once I got on my bus I had pretty much snapped. I was trying to hold myself together but it was hard especially when every thing anybody said was just anoying. So that was that..... Jordan of course figured he had to sit next to me and blabber on meanwhile the only thing I felt like doing was being alone with my book. so when I didn't smile at his jokes or never answered his questions with more tahn yes or no , he figured it was his fault and insisted on apoligizing, which ,made it that much harder. I so badly knew that I should have broken up with him but it just didn't feel right. Once we finally got to my stop, i stepped outside and felt the cool breeze brush my face. Every body was complaining about the cold but I wasn't, "I barelly felt it at all, but what I could feel I used as a way to clear my mind... When I got home I really badly wanted to go to work and just get my mind off it but that didn't happen.I couldn't go because I had to watch my sister . the thing is she wasn't even there, she was at a friends like she is every day after school, while I can't even go to work. that didn't help the matter. Now I really feel depressed but of course my dad had to push it farther by asking me to help her with her homework.... See I don't have patients for people who are still doing homework three hours after school has ended. If it takes that long and your in grade four it means your not trying and if your not trying I don't want anything to do with you.... I did try buy within minutes I was yelling and my dad came in and gave me shit. The thing is with my dad gettign shit involves lots of feel good friendly moments and I'm seriously not in the mood. It made me feel worse and now I'm writting this. As you can plainly see from begining to end the hole in my chest has done nothing but grow and soon it'll be time to get the darkness where I can hide alone and finally shed those quiet tears.
Story of my life,
GothGirl xox

Monday, January 19, 2009

CAtch up

sybils back!!!
I'm sure just those few words have you jumping up and down in your seats! lol. Well this will basically be a cath up on the past few days.... they've been slow.... but with me I can make anything fun! So the last time I posted was tuesday. I don't know what happened on what days so I'll just randomly list them out.... 1. Me and kelsey started planning poo's funeral.... :( OMG did I even tell you poo died??? Ya so hes dead and I cried and now we are in charge of his funeral whitch will be next weekend :(
2. Me, Athina, and Kelsey have started a new DT project in memory of poo. It'll be split into three parts. Poo, the basket and the bed. It'll be sooo cute once done. Okay well i think thats all about poo... sooo moving on.
3. I was sooo bored I started a runescape game and its surprisingly not as geeky as I thought. :S... well much. If any geeks are out there that read my blog and have a runescape account add me I'm Nix_Of_Moon eww that sounds soo geeky but whatev.
4. I'mm getting back at work whitch is great! YAY MONEY
5. ugh..... I think thats it for the school days.... OH I presented my brain project with Athina and now we are doing reviews.
6. LOL i almost forgot one of the funniest things this week. Our french play. well I'm sure your first thoughts are EWW french and plays....UGH. but no that is not the case because we got to write it and pick the parts. I'm Isabelle the little girl, figures ... I need an eye roll happy face. GEEZE. So anyways we were practicing in the hall and our group is Athina Andrew and I so you see where this is going don't you? It was hilarious but one of the funniest parts is that Alex was practicing next to us with her group and Colin had a long black wig and Alex made really weird sound effects..... But practicing hitting Andrew and running after him was sure fun :) YAY ME!!
and lastly 7. Mme. Le French actualy is starting to like me! I know gasp. but ever sinceI moved desks shes been like really nice towards me. :) like today she even patted my head and was like O sybils sleepy. Cause I was practically falling asleep. lol

Now. The marvelous weekend of fun! Well friday I clwaned my room and learnt cursive, so now "I speek like I'm Irish" not that thats a bad thing..... why'd i quote that?w.e. So that was slow but when saturday rolled around things started to pick up! Starting with the movies.WE wnet to see bride wars and then we went to leahs moms. It was quite funny because first we stopped by walmart to get a few supplies... like face masks 2 bottles of 2 littres of pop.... clothes, candy you see where this is going! But whence we got to her moms house i really how hyper we planned on becomming.
The thing that really wasn't fair though was that Robin (her brother) had a friend over and he was REALLY cute and nice and I automaticly fell head over heals. ;) I had glimpsed an Angel )O(
lol jkjk so then we drank all the pop watched season one of how I met your mother and did our face masks whitch btw you should never do withou profetional help I mean it was disasturous!!!
Then we finnaly fell asleep ands woke up and a reasonable hour taboot. Then we were off to shopping at bashore whitch was the whole point of the trip. WE had a great day and i was reasonable. I got this awesome new sweater, a new purse, 3 new shirts and sweat pants. the shirts were 5 $ btw. I KNOW STEAL. !!! So then it was time to go home and thank god because we were beat. and NOW I came back to school worked a bit on my book and umm chilled.
Until later
GothGirl xox

Tuesday, January 13, 2009

UGH highschool panic!

okay well i'm back a slightly stressed out. we've been having all our high school asemblies today and yesterday. and tomorrow it is continuing.... ugh!! so basically its driving me nuts because i was completly set on the new school but now I'm not sure i mean merivale is like the #1 school for like programs andstuff and because they're older they'll be more organised and have more stuff planned..... now im not really sure. But the thing that is really bugging me is the fact that when i brought it up with mom she like yellled at me and was like NOOO your going to the new school and thats final..... okay new school is a bit long so i'll use my own personnal nick name - window academy...... i don't know its sounds so proessional. any ways it waS the fact that she doesn't care about what I want or what about my futur, just that its close..... I mean today I became like friends with the principle at merivale because I was asking a bunch of questions about science and stuff. and he was like ya you'd deffinatly be put into advance chemistry and stuff, like math!!!! I WAS LIKE YAY. then I got home and was going to bring it up and she freaked out. just because its farther i mean GRRRRR. !!! but i don't know we haven't had our presentation on the new school..... that'll be tomrrow so whatever.. maybe i'll like it better again! hopefully cause seriously......
any ways i'll post later,
GOTH GIRL xox

Saturday, January 10, 2009

okay.... so umm.??

I'm here and I have a few things to say so i didn't know what to name it. well I'll use the numbering thing.
1) I'm not like obsesed with comedy!!! I like can't stop watching it!! UGH!! and I discovered this amazing thing called comedy cetral!! OH MY GOD! so interesting! ..... and funny. soo ugh lets move on i think you get my point...
2) My sleepover with Erin was fun.... we didn't end up going to the movies though... oh well next time. we had a blast anyway.... sadly not our usual fun and hyperness because we couldn't like run around, my dad was like asleep as was twerp. After it was cold so we couldnt run around outside. :( so we had to stay in my room and be quiet. we still had a lot of jokes :p.... then we watched like guinea pig stuff and it made me miss taffy a lot so im gonna have to go to kelsey's next week so i have pet her guinea pig...... and poo!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! I LOVE POO he is sooo cute!
3)i forgot what else i was goint to say but I'm sure it'll come to me.....
4) OH .... I'm a bit confused right now because like before everything was so like easy for me and stuff like I always knew I was going to go into science because.... well I dunno I just always loved it. But now science is REALLY hard and I strugle with it and writing and math comes easy lie super easy and I really don't know what to do....... I mean I'm not sure weither to do what I always wanted to do and just work harder, or if I should just go into english and deal with it... maybe take advanced math and english and like work really hard and make science like more of a challenge for me. Or if I should just go for something else like maybe in writting or something.... :S ..... UGH i just don't know. and you know peoples are always like you don't have to worry about that now u have lots of time to make up your mind. But seriously i don't!! I mean I have to pick my classes for high school so that i can have the right properties for a scholarship because if i don't get one of those I won't be able to go to university and like UGH then i won't have a good future and I refuse to turn out like my parents...... SO JEEEZZEE HELP ME OUT HERE!
well that was a moment into the abiss of my ming, love,
Goth Girl xox

Thursday, January 8, 2009

my camera is being a buma and big NEWS ** you know that one **

Okay well I'm sure from the title you're just itching with antisipation.
BUT TOO BAD YOU'LL HAVE TO WAIT.... ya so about the pictures my camera is having a spazz and won't let me upload the picures once its figured out i'll add them. anyways about the big news well it didn't go as i planned.... see i have this friend name Jordan and well apparently he likes me so he asked me out and I said yes.... then i went up to ansdrew and told him to fuck off.... using different words that is. So yay me !! but I'm still not sure about him. I'll give him a chance though.

Oh tomorrow I won't be able to blogg because I'll be going to the movies and then a sleepover with Erin....That is if my dad get off the phone so she can call back...
I got to go but I'll give you more dets latter
GothGirl xox

Monday, January 5, 2009

finnally adding pictures!!

okay well im uploading my pictures now so soon they'll be on here but before i do that i have to tell you all something. I MISS EVERY ONE!! that wasn't what i was going to say but sure. anyways i was looking at all my gifts and i found this gummy stick thing and its sooo cute.. its my cute candy! and i finished my puzzle so those pics will also be up .
can't wait for my picture .... folio?
goth girl xox

Friday, January 2, 2009

COMENTS!!!

LEAVE COMENTS!!!!! GOD I WANT SOME FEED BACK HERE!!!!lol
GOTH GIRL XOX

Today we went shopping

Dear readers,
I can't even recall all we did! first I got up and ate at this fancy breakfast place called sugar shack in hunington beach....Then we went to like three beaches and peirs..... looking at all the little shops ans stuff. I baught most of my presents but I just couldn't seem to find something for andrew. DO YOU KNOW HOW HARD IT IS TO SHOP FOR HIM??? God. If he asks I'll just be like I already gave you ur gift remember? (secret santa) lol you know those never work, you always find out who had you in the end. but then whatever. THEN we went to themall to shop. I baught much including Leah's birthday/christmas present....I'm not saying so stop asking god! lol. basically then we went to the beach again and these really hot surfer dudes were checking me out hehe!! so then we went to the hot tub and I chugged a milk shake. And now I'm here.
Love ya'll.
Goth Girl xox
Oh and tomorrow I'm just staying home and cleaning up and then going to the beach. Sadly it'll be my last day in cali because then I have to get on a plane and come back to snow :( BOO HOO
But I'll get to see all my peeps again so yay!!!!~ Can't wait to see you!

Thursday, January 1, 2009

it's foggy and cold and......I"M COMPLANING???

ya so today I woke up at 8..... here so 11 at home..... and I couldn't see three feet in front of me. I watch TV and then we went to go to the peir. It was so cold that it was frosty. then we went in to taky little shops and I loved them. !!! lol I'm such a nerd. But I baught most of the souvenirs and x-mas gifts for all my friends I still have a few that were harder to find or i thought that nothing really fit but mostly I'm good.
BLA I'm tired so I'm going to sleep,
TOODLES GothGirl xox

Wednesday....DISNEY LAND AND CALIFORNIA ADVENTURE!!!

well obviously from thhe title you can tell that we went to amusement parks. It started out absolutly amazing but then it started being the same thing as when we went to florida except this time Leah wasn't with me and my family was....Now don't get me wrong it was still 100% fun but I kept wishing some of my friends were there. see thre were lots of teens there because it was a vacation .... groups of friends laughing and playing and I was being imbaresed by Tony and MOM and my dork of a sister......I WISH MY PSYCHO's WERE WITH ME!!!! I MISS YOU, YOU GUYS!!!!! lol.....can you tell i'm PMS ing ?? heehee. and I'm not really all that talketive either....I mean after I'll post the pictures and put little stories with them ... but till' then I guess you might have to say half way in the dark. :P
GothGirl xox
LOVE YA!! CAN'T WAIT TO SEE YOU AGAIN SOON!!

capistrano mision ..... what a bore ;)

Okay so I didn' have as much time as I thought I did, lol.
So the mision...two words. REALLY LAME!!! wll okay not totally I mean It was a really cool building(s) and stuff but SOOOO LOONNNGG!! it took like 2 hours and the whole time i was like justr give me a desk and pencil! just in case your a bit slow... I mean it was a lot like school and because I'm on brake it was kind a anoying. so thats basically all we did on monday.
Goth Girl.