Sybil back
Okay well I haven't really posted a lot because I've been to bored to do so. Well except for the H. H. Holmes one, oh and the deal with thaat is they blocked hotmail so the only way I can send my notes to my self is through this so I just plan on editting that blog every time I have something to add.... Right now my life is kind of hectic with the science fair and festival and other crap. So heres it all on a plate.
Well tuesday I was sick! I mean like a dog, coughing, eyes watering and the whole chebang so didnt really feel like doing much besiddes sleep. then on wednesday I didn't go to school but after around 5 naps I was feeling better so I went to the concert at school, though I had to admit it was fun. then thursday I had practice after school and my mom was late so I didnt get home till 7pm fun eh? so all and all I didnt really get much done on my science fair project which I found out is due the 3rd aka tuesday!!!! So Im kind of going nutts because we havent even started our poster and athena isnt really the easyest person to get together with she is always doing something. So tonight after school I ran all the way to my dads house after school in a hail/ snow/ rain storm only to find out that he wasnt coming home tonight because of a work thing!!! and that hed send me the pictures tommorrow! ya! I know, go all that way to find out I have to go the other whole direction again to my moms in cold wt gross weather... After I got home slipping on ice and falling in puddles the whole way my grama was there. Now usually this is totally kick ass awesome but not really when you have work to do, see she doesnt really get the meaning of shhhhhh! or dont bug me im busy, so i dont really get much work done around her. though tonight im m having a really good typing day, like 150 words a minute though dont quote me on that cause i never mesured and i count i's and a's lol basically though not too good. I pretty much have it planned out though because im doing the questions and stuff and athina's doing the observations cause my dad'll send her the pics too and monday she comes to my house with the board and we have a party! not really. ya
Oh and tmmorrow plans on being just as bad, I wake up at 8 am EWWW saturday mornings, then Emily is moving in ( oh she is my moms new room mate, im seeing a trend in my parents, buy big houses and the rent my room out! though emily is taking the basement so only my second room..... and and then I work on my project for a bit and then I get driven to Emma's we have fun go swimming and so on, and then tommorrow we go to festival.... and yeah thats about it.
Now that weve got most of hectic out of the way Ill tell you more about the emotional stuff :
Yeah, so Giovanna asked Kiranen if he like me and he said no... :( that made me very sad. So I think I might ask him out any way... I mean even if h doesnt like me doesnt mean that he wont say yes. I mean hes sweet but whos he kidding hed be lucky to get me lol. youd get what I mean if you ever met him :P those who do ill give you a minute to laugh that off......... okay are you good?? anyways hes a really great guy and stuff so like yeah , but i dunno.... hes not like normal guys what if he says no or ignores my like the others:( I dont want that .... so im not sure.
Wow besides that Im not really sure what else there is to say... I mean I hate mr shoenemark he doesnt really have my style of english and he doesnt get my sly comedy so he keeps correcting me and stuff and its like geeze!!! and he makes us read short stories and stuff and then we have spelling tests on words in the story with the deffinitions!!!! I mean I get read books and stories and give feedback and make comment, answer questions and make logs stuff like that but this?!? EWW I hate it, Im not good at it because with this I cant state my opinions and stuff and like show him what I think so that he understands me and I doubt Ill ever get the chancce because school ends inj like 4 months!!!
another mental break down.... Leah and sure and jim have invited me to go skiiing with them for four days out of march break and gramaman wants me to go camping with her..... nice lodge in the mountains or stuffy trailer with my sister?!? ummm hard choice but I dont want to make her feel bad and stuff so im not really sure but like I really just want to like relaxe and read and write more of my book during march break like slow down while i can and the mountains seem perfect for that. I mean its like the perfect enviroment. but i barely get to see grama and shes thinking of moving into an old folks home so ill see even less of her :( Go I really REally want to go to both but i cant..... unless she just comes here and stays here cause then ill be back in 4 days just to come back and hang with her, without the stuffy trailer, but its andreas descision and im not sure what shell choose...
Oh another one of my minor dilemas.... minus the minor.... I CANT FIND THE SECOND CHAPTER OF MY BOOK!!! I swear i left it on the kitchen table and then i remembered seeing it in my closet but its nowhere, i mean i cleaned the WHOLE house looking for that thing. though now i kind of think its a good thing beause ill get her dad to come to town so that yo;u can meet hima dn you know really get to know the dad and stuff get into sybils shoes.... but i wish i had finished the conversation between sybil and cloe and then the scene with her and Liz because they were awesome! but now i dont have them and i have a feeling my mom threw them out though she claims she didnt..... Oh well ill just have to re write it better! im having dreams about her again so im really starting to understand the characters better really get into their minds and see what makes them tick... I think thats good because then Ill be able to potraite them better, more like in my dreams. well i gtg write about the solutions as they happen.
from the wonders of my mind,
GothGirl xox
Friday, February 27, 2009
H. H.Holmes
Im at school right now and we haveto write about people we look up to,kind of like a biography.Basically I chose h.h. holmes because he was a genuis of his time and even though he went nutts and turned into the first americain serial killer he hadgood reason....Iguess. I plan on writing a bit about him in this blog so that I can have some of my notes at home, we arent aloud to go on hotmail here :( Anyways here it goes:
- H. H. Holmes; Henry Howard Holmes, Herman Webster Mudgett, devil in the white city, Henry Maqnsfeild Howard,
I will continue after
Tuesday, February 24, 2009
the queen is back!
Sybils back after a day of silence :( I know you missed me right? Im sure you did, I mean by the sounds of flirts blog it fell apart withought me :P you might be wondering HOW COULD YOU HAVE LEFT US??!!!?? well that would be cause Im sick, and feel like shit because my throat is aweful and sore and OW!also my nose wont stop running down my throat its like can you atleast run out my nose, that way I can still breathe!
Okay well Ill tell you about my day today because well I think it has to be said. Well as you know it was tuesday which means band! SUPER! well now I not only have to wake up early but I have a head ache and a sore throat. ya well katya got hit in the face by mr leohr which was really funny. After band we went skating, it was really funny. I mean hilarious, We were skating when Emma screams and we look and shes bleeding like a pig, and i mean EWWW I actually had to leave the room when she was trying to get bandaged up but she kept bleeding through the band-aid. So she asked for my help and I basically went nuts! I mean I put the band - aid on and then rapped it with paper towel, I then rapped elastics around it, put her sweter over all that and elastic rapped it again, THEN i insisted on putting pressure on her ist for like 15 minutes.It was kind of funny but we got really good at it. After I made it the whole time without falling, exept once near the end, but that was kelseys fault!
Then we ate lunch in the cafeteria ( wich by the way we had to borrow 3.50$ from mr guidon, we slit the amount so i owe him 1 $ geo owes him 1$ kelsey owes him 1$ and emma .50$ cause she has no money )
When we got back to school we watched a movie that was very sad and moving. It was about racism. I like died tho because I was already stuffy and then i had to sit in a gym full of kids. SUPER!! But it was still way fun. then after the movie was done we went out for reccess and it was very odd. Well it started out me and emma just talking, and then this girl was like geo is mad at you so i kind of freaked i was like WHY!! but apparently she wasnt and that girl just missunderstood. Then geo askes kiranen if he liked me and he said just as friends which made me sad because i really like him. I might just ask him out anyways, but... im not sure its diffrent with him.it feels diffrent. God i dont get guys!
Well ya i think thats it. oh well we are getting a room mate at my moms, shes nice. and march break i might be going to a ski lodge with sue and jim and leah!!!!! I KNOW YAY!!
but im still tore up about kiranen and stuff so i can really feel happy until its settled and i have a feeling that this isnt the type of crush that goes away fast :S HELPPPPP any comentary help is good,
Queen once again,
GothGirl xox
Ps and THEN on the bus Carter was like ya i hear kiranen talking and i think he likes you, now carter isnt the most reliable source but......
Okay well Ill tell you about my day today because well I think it has to be said. Well as you know it was tuesday which means band! SUPER! well now I not only have to wake up early but I have a head ache and a sore throat. ya well katya got hit in the face by mr leohr which was really funny. After band we went skating, it was really funny. I mean hilarious, We were skating when Emma screams and we look and shes bleeding like a pig, and i mean EWWW I actually had to leave the room when she was trying to get bandaged up but she kept bleeding through the band-aid. So she asked for my help and I basically went nuts! I mean I put the band - aid on and then rapped it with paper towel, I then rapped elastics around it, put her sweter over all that and elastic rapped it again, THEN i insisted on putting pressure on her ist for like 15 minutes.It was kind of funny but we got really good at it. After I made it the whole time without falling, exept once near the end, but that was kelseys fault!
Then we ate lunch in the cafeteria ( wich by the way we had to borrow 3.50$ from mr guidon, we slit the amount so i owe him 1 $ geo owes him 1$ kelsey owes him 1$ and emma .50$ cause she has no money )
When we got back to school we watched a movie that was very sad and moving. It was about racism. I like died tho because I was already stuffy and then i had to sit in a gym full of kids. SUPER!! But it was still way fun. then after the movie was done we went out for reccess and it was very odd. Well it started out me and emma just talking, and then this girl was like geo is mad at you so i kind of freaked i was like WHY!! but apparently she wasnt and that girl just missunderstood. Then geo askes kiranen if he liked me and he said just as friends which made me sad because i really like him. I might just ask him out anyways, but... im not sure its diffrent with him.it feels diffrent. God i dont get guys!
Well ya i think thats it. oh well we are getting a room mate at my moms, shes nice. and march break i might be going to a ski lodge with sue and jim and leah!!!!! I KNOW YAY!!
but im still tore up about kiranen and stuff so i can really feel happy until its settled and i have a feeling that this isnt the type of crush that goes away fast :S HELPPPPP any comentary help is good,
Queen once again,
GothGirl xox
Ps and THEN on the bus Carter was like ya i hear kiranen talking and i think he likes you, now carter isnt the most reliable source but......
Sunday, February 22, 2009
Im me and stop complaining
Sybl here,
my ife is all topsy tervsy and so much is going on, jut when i think things are starting to streighten out everything gets all mashed up again.... this will basically be me just trying to understand whats going on in my own life. You might not be able to understand or follow for that matter but humor me. maybe youll get a few extra brain cells in the process.
Okay well i felt like things were falling into place nicely. I felt happy, complete, confident and loved. But then of course reality had to go and ring a wake up bell! So I felt pretty and smart and unique and for once in my life like I actually belonged somewhere. I liked three guys i tried to talked to one of them and got cowed into silence so i moved on to Justin, i tried asking him out but he just blocked me and then I realized that I liked Kiranen. Now I still haven't donw anything about that though Emma has agreed to play nice. I pln on doing something about that this week, and stuf, but this weekend I went to leah's house and I saw a picture of Justin and I remembered why I like him :S now im all confused cause I feel like email Justin and saying to just forget it and unblock me cause it was a spurr of the moment thing, but I dont want to lie! I agreed to full truthfulness... So now Im lost inside. I might just sit on the justin thing and see how things go with kiranen, who knows he might say no, or just do lik every other guy Ive ever asked out, not answer and just avoid the subject completly or just me. I dont think thatll happen though because Kiranen isnt like those guys, hes not some ass hole guy thatll say no just becaus e youre not popular, now justin shouldnt fit that citeria at all but some how he manages to pull it off. ugh. now there is so much racing through my mind !
Also Emma brought up the subject of not fitting in and having an other sybling that is the favourite and how they always got all the attention, so that brought up lots of old feelings, that would have been better forgotten, Im going to try to keep my upbeat atitude though because all week I felt pretty and secure because I was happy. I felt like If i walked past a guy he better stare cause I was IT. I felt the part of Queen, but now I portray it too. I listened to happy music ( well as happy as i get )and I skipped. I felt like a happy teenage girl like Im supposed to. Without all the responsibility of an adult and stuff. I mean like Ive always been really amature because I had to, but I never got to feel young and happy, I tasted some of that this week And I REFUSE to loose that. Ill do whatever it takes, to keep balence. Ill still go to work, cause I saw what I was missing and nowI feel sad because my jobs fun, and I felt what its like to be happy and a kid so Im trying to find a middle ground, and I can be a kid at work because my job isnt too hard, I mean now Ill just be packing and unpacking clothes because we are starting our tour. Im going to make this work, you know what and Im going to ask Kiranen out because HE cares, and hes sweet and funny and when Im around him I feel happy, and thats what matters. You know I always say thjat when Life getss low, make the best out of it, well I am. My life sucks, but Ive learnt how to balance with one hand and its time to be happy too. Its my time to shine and I wont let some ....... problems stand in my way, I wont stand it. Im going to be a grade 9 next year , at a new high school yet to be named, a new slate, clean and fresh but ill still be able to keep all my friends and so on, but be able to work on my future as well. I am finally makng something of myself. AND this summer I plan to use every given moment to write my book and I plan to finish by the end of the summer so I can get it published by my 15th birthday. that is my goal, happy succesful, upbeat, and organized as well as mature and creative. I want to be ME.
From the wonders of my mind,
GothGirl xox
my ife is all topsy tervsy and so much is going on, jut when i think things are starting to streighten out everything gets all mashed up again.... this will basically be me just trying to understand whats going on in my own life. You might not be able to understand or follow for that matter but humor me. maybe youll get a few extra brain cells in the process.
Okay well i felt like things were falling into place nicely. I felt happy, complete, confident and loved. But then of course reality had to go and ring a wake up bell! So I felt pretty and smart and unique and for once in my life like I actually belonged somewhere. I liked three guys i tried to talked to one of them and got cowed into silence so i moved on to Justin, i tried asking him out but he just blocked me and then I realized that I liked Kiranen. Now I still haven't donw anything about that though Emma has agreed to play nice. I pln on doing something about that this week, and stuf, but this weekend I went to leah's house and I saw a picture of Justin and I remembered why I like him :S now im all confused cause I feel like email Justin and saying to just forget it and unblock me cause it was a spurr of the moment thing, but I dont want to lie! I agreed to full truthfulness... So now Im lost inside. I might just sit on the justin thing and see how things go with kiranen, who knows he might say no, or just do lik every other guy Ive ever asked out, not answer and just avoid the subject completly or just me. I dont think thatll happen though because Kiranen isnt like those guys, hes not some ass hole guy thatll say no just becaus e youre not popular, now justin shouldnt fit that citeria at all but some how he manages to pull it off. ugh. now there is so much racing through my mind !
Also Emma brought up the subject of not fitting in and having an other sybling that is the favourite and how they always got all the attention, so that brought up lots of old feelings, that would have been better forgotten, Im going to try to keep my upbeat atitude though because all week I felt pretty and secure because I was happy. I felt like If i walked past a guy he better stare cause I was IT. I felt the part of Queen, but now I portray it too. I listened to happy music ( well as happy as i get )and I skipped. I felt like a happy teenage girl like Im supposed to. Without all the responsibility of an adult and stuff. I mean like Ive always been really amature because I had to, but I never got to feel young and happy, I tasted some of that this week And I REFUSE to loose that. Ill do whatever it takes, to keep balence. Ill still go to work, cause I saw what I was missing and nowI feel sad because my jobs fun, and I felt what its like to be happy and a kid so Im trying to find a middle ground, and I can be a kid at work because my job isnt too hard, I mean now Ill just be packing and unpacking clothes because we are starting our tour. Im going to make this work, you know what and Im going to ask Kiranen out because HE cares, and hes sweet and funny and when Im around him I feel happy, and thats what matters. You know I always say thjat when Life getss low, make the best out of it, well I am. My life sucks, but Ive learnt how to balance with one hand and its time to be happy too. Its my time to shine and I wont let some ....... problems stand in my way, I wont stand it. Im going to be a grade 9 next year , at a new high school yet to be named, a new slate, clean and fresh but ill still be able to keep all my friends and so on, but be able to work on my future as well. I am finally makng something of myself. AND this summer I plan to use every given moment to write my book and I plan to finish by the end of the summer so I can get it published by my 15th birthday. that is my goal, happy succesful, upbeat, and organized as well as mature and creative. I want to be ME.
From the wonders of my mind,
GothGirl xox
Friday, February 20, 2009
some point in time....
Okay well I realized that I had missed some things, by reading Flirts blog. WEll.
Ill start at tuesday... that was winter activity day, we went swimming which was kind of ironic, but whatever cool with me. So basically really cool morning though I did eat chips for lunch. but the we get back to school and we watch a french movie called les choralistes. It was actually really good, which is besides the point, and then we got a two periode presentation on a guy in a wheel chair. 12o minutes on THAT.
then Ill move on to.... Science some time during the week: Well we have a science fair coming up and I'm not sure if I mentioned this or not but it is manditory that you join... i guess thats the only way to get kids to actually participate lol. Anyway our idea is basically " how the acidic qualities in your spit change the rott patturns in every day food" which is basically a fancy way of saying we spit on things and watch what happems :D motnbnl
recess at some point in time: we came up with a short form for the first stage of sleep. You know the stage of sleep that you are completly aware of everything going on around you but you are still sleeping thing?? well it's AABSS Alwaya Aware But Still Sleeping!!!! what do you think? do we need a life or what??? it was actually really cool, but when I put it point blank like that it sounds completly ubsurd!
umm.... My weird dream: Well basically the dream was so real that when I woke up I thought that it had really happened so imagine this .... Basically ill speak as if it really happened because It was so realistic that I thought it actually had....,:I was sitting in my bed in the right hand corner like usual and I was just staring at my wall trying to fall asleep when I noticed that the shadow on my wall moved. So I turned around to look outside my window and there was this guys, around 15 years old, black shaggy hair, really pointy face, and just georgeous, and the thing was he was flying, he had a pair of big black feathery wings shooting from his back. he was just looking at me, like there was nothing wrong, the thing was I wasn't freaked I was curious, which knowing me would probably happen. So anyway I open my window and ask him in... At first he was kind of surprised I could even see him and then he slowly came in now sitting on the little wooden ledge at the side of my window ( which in realyty is impossible because 1. its much too small 2. would fall off and 3. was covered in crap) so we start talking, and i dont remember 100 % any more, but the main thing was.... I was the reincarnation of Nyx the greek goddess of darkness, I was destined to live in the underworld, rule the planet and bring everything into an amazing, perfect world for me. anyway, when I turned 16 I was going to turn immortal and have to live there. and I was like whats the catch? do i have to marry hades or something, and hes like no, though you can if you want to... and then it continues and then if comes that I start to learn about hima nd how his name was Mithilius or something and he was my dark guradian and tutor of magik. He was like you are way ahead of schedual because I was already developping my powers. like seeing into darkness, seeing spirrits, seeing creatures of the realms, calling the powers of shadow, stuff like that. o and i could read peoples life force. so again talking and Iend up asking him if he can come to school with me, like high school , so that one im not alone, two I get to learn early and three, i get a really hot guy best friend... I mean come on! awesome.... so we end up dating and thats as far as it got..... but i might make that into a book aswell as soon as im done the current two :S
There was more I wanted to add........ let me think...........
OH! We have officially established court!!! most of the inferior minds that might stumble upon this are thinking WTF. so let me say ,..... you know how I talked about me being queen of the group so on so forth well it was proven. we were in a circle outside and I said I was cold and like everyone crowds closer so im not cold i was like COOL.... so anyway it was finally make officia, and all roles in the court given.... Im queen, leah princess, emma duchess ( cause were married) Athina Lay in waiting and the rest maids of honour!!! isnt that awesome!
Ya so im pretty sure Ive cover ALL the bases now.... o.... well I do have a great idea for a science experiment for next year but i cant write it on here for fear that someone might steal it.
you know you love me,
GothGirl xox
Ill start at tuesday... that was winter activity day, we went swimming which was kind of ironic, but whatever cool with me. So basically really cool morning though I did eat chips for lunch. but the we get back to school and we watch a french movie called les choralistes. It was actually really good, which is besides the point, and then we got a two periode presentation on a guy in a wheel chair. 12o minutes on THAT.
then Ill move on to.... Science some time during the week: Well we have a science fair coming up and I'm not sure if I mentioned this or not but it is manditory that you join... i guess thats the only way to get kids to actually participate lol. Anyway our idea is basically " how the acidic qualities in your spit change the rott patturns in every day food" which is basically a fancy way of saying we spit on things and watch what happems :D motnbnl
recess at some point in time: we came up with a short form for the first stage of sleep. You know the stage of sleep that you are completly aware of everything going on around you but you are still sleeping thing?? well it's AABSS Alwaya Aware But Still Sleeping!!!! what do you think? do we need a life or what??? it was actually really cool, but when I put it point blank like that it sounds completly ubsurd!
umm.... My weird dream: Well basically the dream was so real that when I woke up I thought that it had really happened so imagine this .... Basically ill speak as if it really happened because It was so realistic that I thought it actually had....,:I was sitting in my bed in the right hand corner like usual and I was just staring at my wall trying to fall asleep when I noticed that the shadow on my wall moved. So I turned around to look outside my window and there was this guys, around 15 years old, black shaggy hair, really pointy face, and just georgeous, and the thing was he was flying, he had a pair of big black feathery wings shooting from his back. he was just looking at me, like there was nothing wrong, the thing was I wasn't freaked I was curious, which knowing me would probably happen. So anyway I open my window and ask him in... At first he was kind of surprised I could even see him and then he slowly came in now sitting on the little wooden ledge at the side of my window ( which in realyty is impossible because 1. its much too small 2. would fall off and 3. was covered in crap) so we start talking, and i dont remember 100 % any more, but the main thing was.... I was the reincarnation of Nyx the greek goddess of darkness, I was destined to live in the underworld, rule the planet and bring everything into an amazing, perfect world for me. anyway, when I turned 16 I was going to turn immortal and have to live there. and I was like whats the catch? do i have to marry hades or something, and hes like no, though you can if you want to... and then it continues and then if comes that I start to learn about hima nd how his name was Mithilius or something and he was my dark guradian and tutor of magik. He was like you are way ahead of schedual because I was already developping my powers. like seeing into darkness, seeing spirrits, seeing creatures of the realms, calling the powers of shadow, stuff like that. o and i could read peoples life force. so again talking and Iend up asking him if he can come to school with me, like high school , so that one im not alone, two I get to learn early and three, i get a really hot guy best friend... I mean come on! awesome.... so we end up dating and thats as far as it got..... but i might make that into a book aswell as soon as im done the current two :S
There was more I wanted to add........ let me think...........
OH! We have officially established court!!! most of the inferior minds that might stumble upon this are thinking WTF. so let me say ,..... you know how I talked about me being queen of the group so on so forth well it was proven. we were in a circle outside and I said I was cold and like everyone crowds closer so im not cold i was like COOL.... so anyway it was finally make officia, and all roles in the court given.... Im queen, leah princess, emma duchess ( cause were married) Athina Lay in waiting and the rest maids of honour!!! isnt that awesome!
Ya so im pretty sure Ive cover ALL the bases now.... o.... well I do have a great idea for a science experiment for next year but i cant write it on here for fear that someone might steal it.
you know you love me,
GothGirl xox
my weird thoughts : peace treaty's to speed typing
Okay well I don't actually all that I said in the past few blogs, and I'm too lazy to actually read them again so I'm just going to cover the basics. I must have mentioned at some point that I like Kiranen and I think there was a slight misunderstanding, though now it might be true. Okay well I said i liked him but that wasn't all true, see I found he was funny and sweet, but thank to my other 3 tries of trying to word this properly I seemed to have fallen for him, now i talked with Geo and she said that she was going to talk to him to see if he kind of likes me. Any way Emma doesn't really like him, actually that's putting it lightly. She HATES him. So I'm going to do my best as peace keeper, starting with: getting him to appoligize for kicking her because she was already having a bad day, then her to apoligize to him for yelling at him, then I plan on friken making a peace treaty (like with the indians in 1854 EWWW history moment) and write in like all sorts of stuff, and get them both to sign it so it will be a legal document, that holds stand. They may be aloud to bikker but only to a certain point, so on so forth. WOW that was way longer than I planned it to be, then again I am a writter and isn't that what I do. I start talking and then it turns into a story? Well that's what i seem to do any way and not to mention I really know how to type fast and listnen closely parents ** I don't touch type. I know how of course, my dad demanded that I learn for no reason I t really didn't help me. I taught myslef another form of tounch typing that only uses 4 fingers and my thumbs though I only used the thumbs for the space bar. I typed all this, well from the point NOW in 4 and a half minute! ound. I say that is pretty kick ass, and If I wasn't doing so much thinking Like how you do when you are recalling memories I'd probably be a lot faster, for instance when I write my book I can write a page in sometimes around 4 minutes, that is if I'm on a roll and have no interuptions, which for some reason is really hard because it's like as soon as I pick up my computer to actually work on my book, no matter what time it is, suddenly the people around me get all anoying and find it time to destract me in any way possible. like at around midnight last week I was working on this and andreas alarm clock went off, and she didn't wake up to turn it off.!!!
Now moving on, we seemed to have covered 1. Kiranen 2. peace treaty 3. my typing?!? ( that was not in the plan but whatever) So now I guess the deal with justin. Well i basically gave up, I don't usually do that unless it is very pointless and I see that. Basically though I told leah to tell him that he can unblock me now because I don't really care about what he says and that I've moved on anyways. Plus the fact that I rather talk to him as a friend if nothing else.
That is pretty much it.
Also Cori is WAY ut of the picture now, I talked to him on the bus totay and let me say one thing EWW he is such a creeeper! now I must say we were playing truth or dare but still ICK.... I won't go into specifics but let me just state HOLLY CRAP ON A CRACKER!!!! ( isn't that sentence just amazing???!!!! I got it from the big bang theory, when sheldon actually gets a girlfriend. ) Ya... I think that clears up most of what's been going on.
From the wonders of my mind,
GothGirl xox
HOLLY CRAP ON A CRACKER!!! :P
Now moving on, we seemed to have covered 1. Kiranen 2. peace treaty 3. my typing?!? ( that was not in the plan but whatever) So now I guess the deal with justin. Well i basically gave up, I don't usually do that unless it is very pointless and I see that. Basically though I told leah to tell him that he can unblock me now because I don't really care about what he says and that I've moved on anyways. Plus the fact that I rather talk to him as a friend if nothing else.
That is pretty much it.
Also Cori is WAY ut of the picture now, I talked to him on the bus totay and let me say one thing EWW he is such a creeeper! now I must say we were playing truth or dare but still ICK.... I won't go into specifics but let me just state HOLLY CRAP ON A CRACKER!!!! ( isn't that sentence just amazing???!!!! I got it from the big bang theory, when sheldon actually gets a girlfriend. ) Ya... I think that clears up most of what's been going on.
From the wonders of my mind,
GothGirl xox
HOLLY CRAP ON A CRACKER!!! :P
Wednesday, February 18, 2009
endless blabber
Sybil's back,
I was just watching the big Bang theorie and seriously the tall one with the short hair is totally cute and the little creepy one that knows lots of languages (as long as he gets a hair cut) anyway they are both totally guys I'd date. Isn't that sad. I'm attracted to nerds.... But then everyone has their own pick, mine are the sweet geeky guys, atleast they're smart right? and it'll never be boring. Also the guy from numb3rs with the poofy hair, totally a hotty.
I have no clue what the point of this blog was besides me randomly wanting to talk. I still haven't sorted out my mind. Justin is still blocking me, not that I blame him , I did kind of spring it on him. And well I'm getting no luck with Cori, I mean I can barely talk to the guy let alone get to know him. I had another fun recess with Kiranen and the peeps, though I have a feeling that I'm pissing Emma off just a tad, though I really am NOT trying to. :( I dunno, just right now I'm having a really high strung happy attitude all the time, I mean this morning I woke up and started dancing, I wasn't even tired. and when I was walking to the bus stop I was singing and skipping. everyone was looking at me but I really didn't care this time, I wanted them to see me have fun.
So Ya, I don't really have much else to say. I'm going to bed now but I want to say to all those out ther who are reading this.....actully i have no clue what i want to say
from the wonders of my mind,
GothGirl xox
I was just watching the big Bang theorie and seriously the tall one with the short hair is totally cute and the little creepy one that knows lots of languages (as long as he gets a hair cut) anyway they are both totally guys I'd date. Isn't that sad. I'm attracted to nerds.... But then everyone has their own pick, mine are the sweet geeky guys, atleast they're smart right? and it'll never be boring. Also the guy from numb3rs with the poofy hair, totally a hotty.
I have no clue what the point of this blog was besides me randomly wanting to talk. I still haven't sorted out my mind. Justin is still blocking me, not that I blame him , I did kind of spring it on him. And well I'm getting no luck with Cori, I mean I can barely talk to the guy let alone get to know him. I had another fun recess with Kiranen and the peeps, though I have a feeling that I'm pissing Emma off just a tad, though I really am NOT trying to. :( I dunno, just right now I'm having a really high strung happy attitude all the time, I mean this morning I woke up and started dancing, I wasn't even tired. and when I was walking to the bus stop I was singing and skipping. everyone was looking at me but I really didn't care this time, I wanted them to see me have fun.
So Ya, I don't really have much else to say. I'm going to bed now but I want to say to all those out ther who are reading this.....actully i have no clue what i want to say
from the wonders of my mind,
GothGirl xox
Tuesday, February 17, 2009
im an irishmen at heart!!
I hate dancing movies, they're all the same. Someone goes from nothing to the best dance academy, get the lead part. They have to work for it, but really, it takes much more than that. Now not necesarely just dance, anything really. Just use it like a metaphore. Anyway, Today I found one that really showed the truth. A girl went from low, to lower. She was shut down time after time, again and again. She was rejected. Her father didn't care, her mom dead all she had was her hope and aftere working for months, years she finally got somewhere. Not where she wanted but close, some would say better. That is what really happens. You go from low, to lower and if you work hard for long enough, you might be able to climb out again, but never in the way you think.
That's my life story. My life will go no where unless i work mhy ass off. Poeple, my friends, any one really, they say, you don't have to start thinking about college or university yet, you are only in grade 8. But the thing is I do. For me to go anywhere with my life, Ill have to get a scholarship. I want to go to Queens. That is my plan, but to do so I have work, and work, and while others goof off I work harder. I need to be best, and farther. Or Ill be stuck in Ottawa doing 10$ jobs for 5, for the rest of my life. Ill probably end up like my parents, live up to all their expectations of me. They always told me Id never amount to anything, because i didn't have it in me to go all the way. I think thats what motivates me. Proving everyone wrong. I CAN do it. I plan on leaving my parents the minute I have a chance. Me and a bunch of friends want to rent an appartement together near Queens. Because we share a dream, even if it comes in many diffrent shapes and sizes.
So I say Fuck it, to all those you ever put me down, im here and Im the best that I can be and I promis you I will prove all of those son of a bitches that I have what it takes, and more. It's time that I shine, I show them what a true Irishmen is at heart! STUBORN!!!!!! And don't you dare forget it !!!!!!
from the wonders of my mind,
GothGirl xox
ps I want to write books too. Not just for the money and fame, but to get me out there and make my mark, Sybil was here and Not just that but I want people to share the truth of it all, hear my stories. Listen to my voice and Like it. Because somebody has to. Maybe Ill just be an author when I grow up, because in a way that is the perfect job for me. Not Only do I get to stay home everyday by myself, live in NY and Leave my mark in a way, not many others can. With Love, pashion and atitude...
That's my life story. My life will go no where unless i work mhy ass off. Poeple, my friends, any one really, they say, you don't have to start thinking about college or university yet, you are only in grade 8. But the thing is I do. For me to go anywhere with my life, Ill have to get a scholarship. I want to go to Queens. That is my plan, but to do so I have work, and work, and while others goof off I work harder. I need to be best, and farther. Or Ill be stuck in Ottawa doing 10$ jobs for 5, for the rest of my life. Ill probably end up like my parents, live up to all their expectations of me. They always told me Id never amount to anything, because i didn't have it in me to go all the way. I think thats what motivates me. Proving everyone wrong. I CAN do it. I plan on leaving my parents the minute I have a chance. Me and a bunch of friends want to rent an appartement together near Queens. Because we share a dream, even if it comes in many diffrent shapes and sizes.
So I say Fuck it, to all those you ever put me down, im here and Im the best that I can be and I promis you I will prove all of those son of a bitches that I have what it takes, and more. It's time that I shine, I show them what a true Irishmen is at heart! STUBORN!!!!!! And don't you dare forget it !!!!!!
from the wonders of my mind,
GothGirl xox
ps I want to write books too. Not just for the money and fame, but to get me out there and make my mark, Sybil was here and Not just that but I want people to share the truth of it all, hear my stories. Listen to my voice and Like it. Because somebody has to. Maybe Ill just be an author when I grow up, because in a way that is the perfect job for me. Not Only do I get to stay home everyday by myself, live in NY and Leave my mark in a way, not many others can. With Love, pashion and atitude...
my brains and mushed together :S
Okay well now I'm confused.
So many things have changed today and now im so lost. I don't really get what my mind is thinking. well i guess i might as well write it in. seeing how i don't really have much else to do.
Okay well, you know hoe im head over heals for justin wall right? and how i asked him out on valentines day? well now im having second thoughts. I mean i don't even really know him let alone know if we'd really get along. And to complicate things more the Kiranen ** im not sure if thats how you spell it but for now it'll do. So the deal is today at recess I was hanging out with my friends and kiranen passed by, I told him to come here because well he was part of the group. So the thing is we started haging out just us two, because i kept falling and he kept helping me up, at the same time making it harder to keep my balance, and well i hugged him like 3 times. So the main thing is I started to like him a bit too. It was diffrent then how i like Justin no quick deep love but it felt diffrent but still good.
Then after Emma got mad at me because she blamed me because I ditched her, and I totally didn't mean to and really deserve what i got but it was an accident. I felt really bad about it and eventualy it calmed down. Then she was all like "how could you ditch me for Kiranen I mean come on" and i wanted to just say cause i like him but i dont know i just couldnt. :S
So know my brains all mush and I don't know what to do. I think I'm just going to wait and see what Justin says, if no then Ill start hanging with Kiranen but if yes, we'll see how it goes and if it doesnt work out well hell still always be there.... I'm not sure though.
From the wonders on my mind,
GothGirl xox
So many things have changed today and now im so lost. I don't really get what my mind is thinking. well i guess i might as well write it in. seeing how i don't really have much else to do.
Okay well, you know hoe im head over heals for justin wall right? and how i asked him out on valentines day? well now im having second thoughts. I mean i don't even really know him let alone know if we'd really get along. And to complicate things more the Kiranen ** im not sure if thats how you spell it but for now it'll do. So the deal is today at recess I was hanging out with my friends and kiranen passed by, I told him to come here because well he was part of the group. So the thing is we started haging out just us two, because i kept falling and he kept helping me up, at the same time making it harder to keep my balance, and well i hugged him like 3 times. So the main thing is I started to like him a bit too. It was diffrent then how i like Justin no quick deep love but it felt diffrent but still good.
Then after Emma got mad at me because she blamed me because I ditched her, and I totally didn't mean to and really deserve what i got but it was an accident. I felt really bad about it and eventualy it calmed down. Then she was all like "how could you ditch me for Kiranen I mean come on" and i wanted to just say cause i like him but i dont know i just couldnt. :S
So know my brains all mush and I don't know what to do. I think I'm just going to wait and see what Justin says, if no then Ill start hanging with Kiranen but if yes, we'll see how it goes and if it doesnt work out well hell still always be there.... I'm not sure though.
From the wonders on my mind,
GothGirl xox
Sunday, February 15, 2009
getting things streight
well i asked Justin out and he said hed think about it.... seriously though i really think its going to work. i can just feel it. This isnt like what i had with other guys i really feel happy with him ;)
Though i know that though this mask there is still shadow lurking. I dreamed last night that a dark angel name Mitchka or something was comeming for me, watching me like a guardian. Now im a bit calmer for some reason, i feel like even if all these emotions are going on inside me i feel somehow serene. I've been meditating more, trying to open my chakras and i think its helping a bitl. Also i feel like i have a place now. Even my friends now call me queen. Because really in our group thats what i am, i watch them , i protect them i lead them and ever since i came along everythinf has been falling in the proper place ( or so Athina says) Because i have the atitude and i dont let people step on me and they know that so everything works out great. Now i have my spot and even though next year i really will ditch everyonw and just re start my friendships in school. Maybe having only one or two friends at school because im really going to have to consentrate hard on my classes and on my book, if i want to make a name for myself and get a scholarship like i need.
From the wonders of my mind,
GothGirl xox
Though i know that though this mask there is still shadow lurking. I dreamed last night that a dark angel name Mitchka or something was comeming for me, watching me like a guardian. Now im a bit calmer for some reason, i feel like even if all these emotions are going on inside me i feel somehow serene. I've been meditating more, trying to open my chakras and i think its helping a bitl. Also i feel like i have a place now. Even my friends now call me queen. Because really in our group thats what i am, i watch them , i protect them i lead them and ever since i came along everythinf has been falling in the proper place ( or so Athina says) Because i have the atitude and i dont let people step on me and they know that so everything works out great. Now i have my spot and even though next year i really will ditch everyonw and just re start my friendships in school. Maybe having only one or two friends at school because im really going to have to consentrate hard on my classes and on my book, if i want to make a name for myself and get a scholarship like i need.
From the wonders of my mind,
GothGirl xox
Friday, February 13, 2009
From the wonders of my mind; lifes little challenges
I know I've posted a lot today but I thought I should say this, though perhaps it might be a bit confusing, at best anyway.
So the thing is I've been thinking a lot and I realized that no matter how much we complain or hurt or anything, or say how much that it would just all go away. We don't. simple as that. I mean we might say that because it gets hard and we don't know what else to do. But we follow the road, we accomplish the challenge, we win even those small batles and well we follow our destiny. Every thing happens for a reason and even if things get tough, and keep getting hardy we still love. WE still have faith and hope, and no matter how deep it hides it's still there. Our world is a cold hard place, but it's also warm and full of love. When thing go down they pick up eventually, even if at the time that seems impossible. Some say it's evil but its just a path. Some say everything is either good or evil. But that isn't true, there are all sorts of colours in between. I feel that everything is just a challenge that we must complete. the worls throws things at you and if you accomplish and pass, you come out stronger. Even if it takes time, if you are strong enough you'll pass. You just have to keep a steady mind and beleive that it will get better, no matter how hard it gets. That's trully what I beleive, and even you you dont beleive too... you have to agree that everything happens for a reason. The gods dont give you a break up just for fun; you'll break up because after wards you'll know how to handle it. the world has poverty and rape and things like this so that if we're good enough to make it we will. If we can pass life's little challenges we deserve to win and we come out on top. Or we loose and we keep heading lower until we do, or the apocalypse comes which would suck majorly.
From the wonders of my mind,
GothGirl xox
You just have to beleive, it'll pick up eventually. just give it time.
So the thing is I've been thinking a lot and I realized that no matter how much we complain or hurt or anything, or say how much that it would just all go away. We don't. simple as that. I mean we might say that because it gets hard and we don't know what else to do. But we follow the road, we accomplish the challenge, we win even those small batles and well we follow our destiny. Every thing happens for a reason and even if things get tough, and keep getting hardy we still love. WE still have faith and hope, and no matter how deep it hides it's still there. Our world is a cold hard place, but it's also warm and full of love. When thing go down they pick up eventually, even if at the time that seems impossible. Some say it's evil but its just a path. Some say everything is either good or evil. But that isn't true, there are all sorts of colours in between. I feel that everything is just a challenge that we must complete. the worls throws things at you and if you accomplish and pass, you come out stronger. Even if it takes time, if you are strong enough you'll pass. You just have to keep a steady mind and beleive that it will get better, no matter how hard it gets. That's trully what I beleive, and even you you dont beleive too... you have to agree that everything happens for a reason. The gods dont give you a break up just for fun; you'll break up because after wards you'll know how to handle it. the world has poverty and rape and things like this so that if we're good enough to make it we will. If we can pass life's little challenges we deserve to win and we come out on top. Or we loose and we keep heading lower until we do, or the apocalypse comes which would suck majorly.
From the wonders of my mind,
GothGirl xox
You just have to beleive, it'll pick up eventually. just give it time.
Friday the 13th
Today is friday the 13th. Supposedly said to be a day of bad luck and distruction.Today I feel that the point is way off. I feel giddy. Happy, in a way i haven't felt in a long time. I felt happy before but never this happy, lately theres always been a spot missing and today it's being filled even for a little while. My sister is leaving for a party and my mom said she wanted to spend time with me, and just me. And like I feel good at school and well i used to jump crush to crush, dating some but now its not like anything. I feel like i really just want to be held by him and well im seeing hearts for the first time in my life. I even started humming today, usually ill sing of dance but my heart is never in it but now.... I just feel like im on a cloud. I feel loved, and I'm loving and Well life is great. Friday he 13th is now my favourite day ever. If only i could feel like this all the time....
I wonder How long it'll last ?
GothGirl xox
i'm actualy giggling!!
I wonder How long it'll last ?
GothGirl xox
i'm actualy giggling!!
I'm all HEARTS
Sybil's back!
so in the past few days not too much has happened. We got the box together after a few days of hecticity ( yes i love my awesome words) and filled it with all sorts of things for Mrs Lutz. She loved it and said that she'd come to our graduation, and later bring the baby so we can meet him/her. She's picked out all sorts of original names, i like all of them, but i cant seem to remember them.
Friday we had a dance. It was pretty uneventful. Basically matts dating Amy and I realized that i never stand a chance with him because he always goes with the popular pretty one :( just my luck. And Soul and me are now good friends. Danielle past out. I danced with Malcom just because i had to dance with someone. Geovanna is going out with some guy named Chris who has awesome jeans... and we had lots of fun dancing. Again we got lots of looks because we were ACTUALLY dancing. Like with contemporary and Jazz. I found out that I am a insanely good improvisor with Athina. Emma is totally over rheubin, and i say good ridance. i think thats about it.
So Leah was planning a UN valentines day party, and we'd go to the movies. So no one had a date, but they did ..? it would have been Leah Charita Micheal and Richard. So even though it wasn't really like that: Leah would go with Micheal, Charita would go with Richard and I was left a lone. Figures. Any way I was trying to find a date, I asked Colin and he named a bunch of people that didn't sound too fun. And so i asked Justin to come. Justin Wall. He said that he would but he refused to do anything with Leah because she was being a real asshole to him. I could actually see that becasue well lately she'd been making fun of him a lot. I didn't really think it was fair I mean he was awesome. So basically we tallked a lot and I asked him to go with me then. And i said a date. He was like I REALLY want to go with you but..... I just ca nt because of lee. so now leah has ruined one of my dates once again. Whatever. So I kept talking to him about other stuff and soon we reallu had fun. After he left I realized that I TOTALLY like him like him! Leah is going to be mad but you know what I didn't like ANY of her boyfriends so. I like him a lot andI'm going to ask him out.
I've got to go. But just so you know Im not going to that party. It doent seem that i fit.
Goth Girl xox
so in the past few days not too much has happened. We got the box together after a few days of hecticity ( yes i love my awesome words) and filled it with all sorts of things for Mrs Lutz. She loved it and said that she'd come to our graduation, and later bring the baby so we can meet him/her. She's picked out all sorts of original names, i like all of them, but i cant seem to remember them.
Friday we had a dance. It was pretty uneventful. Basically matts dating Amy and I realized that i never stand a chance with him because he always goes with the popular pretty one :( just my luck. And Soul and me are now good friends. Danielle past out. I danced with Malcom just because i had to dance with someone. Geovanna is going out with some guy named Chris who has awesome jeans... and we had lots of fun dancing. Again we got lots of looks because we were ACTUALLY dancing. Like with contemporary and Jazz. I found out that I am a insanely good improvisor with Athina. Emma is totally over rheubin, and i say good ridance. i think thats about it.
So Leah was planning a UN valentines day party, and we'd go to the movies. So no one had a date, but they did ..? it would have been Leah Charita Micheal and Richard. So even though it wasn't really like that: Leah would go with Micheal, Charita would go with Richard and I was left a lone. Figures. Any way I was trying to find a date, I asked Colin and he named a bunch of people that didn't sound too fun. And so i asked Justin to come. Justin Wall. He said that he would but he refused to do anything with Leah because she was being a real asshole to him. I could actually see that becasue well lately she'd been making fun of him a lot. I didn't really think it was fair I mean he was awesome. So basically we tallked a lot and I asked him to go with me then. And i said a date. He was like I REALLY want to go with you but..... I just ca nt because of lee. so now leah has ruined one of my dates once again. Whatever. So I kept talking to him about other stuff and soon we reallu had fun. After he left I realized that I TOTALLY like him like him! Leah is going to be mad but you know what I didn't like ANY of her boyfriends so. I like him a lot andI'm going to ask him out.
I've got to go. But just so you know Im not going to that party. It doent seem that i fit.
Goth Girl xox
Tuesday, February 10, 2009
Hey this is crazy chick !
Goth girl is just giving you an intro to my friend just call her Craze.... any ways she wanted to post something so here she is
Hi its Craze ( isnt that a lovely name i got given?)
I was just looking and i realized omg is Goth girl a slut or am i a prude? lol my list is of guys is 3... but iw ent out wiht some of them twice.. the thing is i never thought of going out with a gagillion guys..... wow this is a little crazy deos anybody read this thing anyways? Well if they do i say hi! and Lifes a bitch.... AND ITS NOT AWSOME( oh u know who u are) well thats it for me ill rant l8ter...
Love ya lotsss biotch,
Crazeeee :) <3
Now just a PS from sybil,
Sorry for her spelling she writes faster than the letters come out. lol
Love ya,
GothGirl xox
Hi its Craze ( isnt that a lovely name i got given?)
I was just looking and i realized omg is Goth girl a slut or am i a prude? lol my list is of guys is 3... but iw ent out wiht some of them twice.. the thing is i never thought of going out with a gagillion guys..... wow this is a little crazy deos anybody read this thing anyways? Well if they do i say hi! and Lifes a bitch.... AND ITS NOT AWSOME( oh u know who u are) well thats it for me ill rant l8ter...
Love ya lotsss biotch,
Crazeeee :) <3
Now just a PS from sybil,
Sorry for her spelling she writes faster than the letters come out. lol
Love ya,
GothGirl xox
Saturday, February 7, 2009
WOW
Okay so right now I'm at Kelseys and I finally got to meet Shelby. Also her parents are every odd. I mean her dad even calls hot chocolate hot cho! I mean thats a whole new level of sad. well we didn't really get much work done on the present for mrs Lutz but we will work harder tommorrow. I mean we kind of have too. but the thing is that we don't really have any thing to decorate with so we'll have to do it on monday or something, we are most working on the things to put in it now. Like I wrote my letter and stuff and were doing sketches and stuff. Athina is comig tommorrow, so thats good. We are also going to sing some hymn-nym-nyms at church, if my parents found out i was actually going to church they'd probably croak over laughing. lol
So Piglette is adorable and also I found out that kelsey has inner magik so my coven idea might not all be bad .... I guess :S anyway I got to go but I'll post again soon as i can.
GothGirl xox
So Piglette is adorable and also I found out that kelsey has inner magik so my coven idea might not all be bad .... I guess :S anyway I got to go but I'll post again soon as i can.
GothGirl xox
Friday, February 6, 2009
the day after
Okay well I guess it wasn't as bad as I thought because when I woke up the next morning the house was clean except for a few broken things. such as my favourite Santa mug :( And I can never replace it because I got that last year for a gift from the best secret santa I've ever had. It was a hilarious day In mme, pellitiers class. We literal went spraling over them to choose then do trades, and most of us cheated, lol ;) I got it from Allison and she got in ina one of a kind special . God and now I'll have to wait all the way 'til next year to get another Santa mug, that will never be the same.... :(
so besides that everything seemed in order, though my dad is really good at covering things up. I was sure he punched a hole in the wall, but there doesn't seem to be any. Any way today was great contrary to my suspitions. As soon as I got to school and with my friends everything was okay. It was a spirit day today so we had to dress up in 80's style. Then we did nothing all day only to leave third and period for lunch and come back 6th. We went to montana's to say Aurevoir! to Mrs Lutz :( There I took lots of pictures and stuff, though I forgot my camera. Ill have to get that monday and print the pictures off that night.
Also another plus we planned out our weekend perfectly and now Athina's coming too! We are going to make a shoe box for her, it will be filled with lot's of stuff that remind of her of us. YUPPY and then sunday Ill get to sing some, hymn-nym-nyms!
Okay eww my dads knuckles are all blooody so he must have punched something.... SO mooving on, Ill be posting our plans later once we get to kelsey's so that way I'll show you how awesome we are, actually I might post before that.
Love,
GothGirl xox
Ps Please you guys don't be judgemental to gifties because they aren't all freaks and losers, I'm a gifty, athina's a gifty,Leahs a girfty, justin, andrew, sharita. Like so many people I know are gifted in one way or another and they are meda fun of and shuned by not only students but adults too. The world is scared of us because we are really smart and you know what, we have enough hate from everyone else, whatever kindness you can show helps. Now don't think oh they're " special " we've got to be nice to them because thats not it, just we dont need the hate, okay? we are people too.
so besides that everything seemed in order, though my dad is really good at covering things up. I was sure he punched a hole in the wall, but there doesn't seem to be any. Any way today was great contrary to my suspitions. As soon as I got to school and with my friends everything was okay. It was a spirit day today so we had to dress up in 80's style. Then we did nothing all day only to leave third and period for lunch and come back 6th. We went to montana's to say Aurevoir! to Mrs Lutz :( There I took lots of pictures and stuff, though I forgot my camera. Ill have to get that monday and print the pictures off that night.
Also another plus we planned out our weekend perfectly and now Athina's coming too! We are going to make a shoe box for her, it will be filled with lot's of stuff that remind of her of us. YUPPY and then sunday Ill get to sing some, hymn-nym-nyms!
Okay eww my dads knuckles are all blooody so he must have punched something.... SO mooving on, Ill be posting our plans later once we get to kelsey's so that way I'll show you how awesome we are, actually I might post before that.
Love,
GothGirl xox
Ps Please you guys don't be judgemental to gifties because they aren't all freaks and losers, I'm a gifty, athina's a gifty,Leahs a girfty, justin, andrew, sharita. Like so many people I know are gifted in one way or another and they are meda fun of and shuned by not only students but adults too. The world is scared of us because we are really smart and you know what, we have enough hate from everyone else, whatever kindness you can show helps. Now don't think oh they're " special " we've got to be nice to them because thats not it, just we dont need the hate, okay? we are people too.
Thursday, February 5, 2009
my dads temper tantrum.
well things have already started to go flying so right now i'm cowering in my closet hoping the storm will pass sooner than later, I'm tired and seriously NOT in the mood. so right now the reason why I'm blogging is because I really need to get it out - there went the lights! super, my dad just ripped the lights off the wall, and now he's moving furniture, god I don't even wan to know how bad the upsatirs is right now. So like I was saying before I writting this to show you how bad this gets, it might get worse but usually after he starts punching holes in the walls and yelling fuck you at it he seems to calm down. Also a plus he has just started, now he's just yelling I'm done I'm done, so it'll probably tone down a tad. And another plus, he has gotten really good at fixing holes in walls.
From the torments of my soul,
GothGirl xox
ps I feel really bad for my sister right now, she's upstairs :(
From the torments of my soul,
GothGirl xox
ps I feel really bad for my sister right now, she's upstairs :(
GOD!!!!
My dad is having an emo day! GOD I HATE WHEN THIS HAPPENS... so basically when he gets depressed he drinks a lot, and when hes drunk he gets really mad and emotional. I told him monday that tonight I was using his office to watch my show. But because hes having "one of those days" he gives me lots of rants and then starts blasting music so loud I won't be able to get to sleep for a few hours. Not Only that but today was MY SHOW! I mean come on I like one show and now I cant watch it because hes having an emo day. Super! not only that but It's only 9:00pm and I've already cried atleast four times. I hate days like these , and then tomorrow will be even worse because he will have a hang over and I'll be an emotional wreck. this is just great.... GOD why did he have to today? I was having a good day up until now! Sometimes I feel like just yelling at him to stopp acting like a baby. Your 52 years old and drink more than a 20 year old! for crying out loud, get your act together!!!! I know life sucks then you die, but get over it. seriously sometimes I feel like I'm the parent and It's not fair because I haven't had my childhood yet and I'm loosing it fast, but he's still living his. , God I better stop I'm getting tears in the keyboard
Hopefully he stops soon,
GothGirl xox
Hopefully he stops soon,
GothGirl xox
Wednesday, February 4, 2009
getting a move on!
i just got the best idea ever! As most of you know I'm an author, and as you guessed my name really isn't sybil. I mean who's parents would name their child after a psycho path? lol. I can't tell you my real name but my cover name, which is real is J.M. Kempster. My book is coming along each day. Today alone I wrote four pages, which in book form is actually more like 20. The reason that I'm talking to you about this is that from now on I'll be posting every wednesday about my book. next wednesday willl be all about the plot because you haven't been told about that yet. but today I have too much to tell you. this blog will be long enough as it is.
To make this easyer for everyone I'll make a table of contents because you migh be taken aback by the length so if there are certain subjects you want to skip you go right ahead. You'll only be deprived. but this was you can take it in sections.
Table
1. the jordan issue
2. finally getting along with teachers
3. lol perfect ending
4. finding a place in madness
5. Mrs Lutz is leaving!!
6. angel to supernatural
7.getting better grades and how?
8. well there just has to be eight so ill blabber
9. my weekend plan
10. my enlightenment down the drain
11. random lesbians!
1. I'm sure all of you were just waiting to hear about this one. In my last attempt at a blog I had made a list of all the boyfriends or guys I considered as one well might as well add him with only O's. today we broke up. Technecally he broke up with me but i've been trying to do it all week. Ask any of my friends they'll say it. they've been bugging me for weeks about it. Well now mission accomplished because to tell you the truth I feel free. No more locked cages. I can do all I want and don't have to have some anoying guy at my side. I mean grr. I want peace and quiet once in a while. So i'm now free to gawk at whom ever i feel.
2. Okay well the teachers are kind of freaking me out. I mean they suddenly seem easy. Maybe I just got used to what each of them wants. Like Mrs lluts wants personnality, conflict. State your feelings no matter what. mrs Noonan. Have fun with it, but get the wrk done and don't cpmplain to me. Mrs Crandall all fatcs no if ands or butts, use scientific speech and don't ever say I thinnk or anything of the like. ( Basically she likes things perfect) but she also like doing experiments, not notes. though I find that a really hard way to learn I thinkIll have more fun. and Mrs van Dusen Wants to hear what you have to say and state your opinion, but she wants it dont in an orderly fashion.
All in all I think I've got them down. But the thing is I don't remember getting used to it just that I came back from school after four days off and everything was easyer. EVERYTHING! Today I even got an A in science. Whatever I'm happy !! Though it did take Six months to figure it out :S hopefully this'll help for next year.
3.Oh this was hilarious! I read the book vampire diaries and at the end it was all dramatic and confusing. basically the evil guy had almost killed everyone and then bonnie was all that was left. she was about to be attacked but righ before she used her psycchic powers to call forth Elena. Elana came with an army of phantoms from the civil war and basically swooped up the bad guy in a big tornado. Then Elena healed then all before returning to human from phantom. basically then they play ring around thne rosy and everything stops. It then cuts to bonnies diary. It says the date and then Dear diary. There's too much to even explain and you wouldn't beleive me even if I told you. I'm going to bed. Then its signed and that's the end. I was like THAT is sooo something I'd do! lol.
4. SO I found a place in madness. I went from feeling completly alone and confused to mellow and happy. Everything balanced out I guess.... I mean I have great friends and I feel better at school and I just feel good. This ones a lot shorter but I just had to get it out there.
5. First Mr Rayjak and now Mrs Lutz. Finally time to take her leave Mrs Lutz is leaving the 12th. we have planned to make a shoe box and fill it with things we think will make her remeber us. Ill also be taking pictures and stuff to add to that. We're going to miss her so much but I'm going to ask for an email of hers so we can stay in touch, me athina kelsey and the rest we will also be leaving our emails in the box so if need be she can always have a way. We are going out friday for a party to say our goodbyes. though I hardly think it a reason to celebrate, but she is having a baby so I say thumbs up. Hopefully she'll email me pictures so I can post them ( OH and the cali pictures might be hard to upload seeing how I dont even have them :( but you probably dont care much anyways.) So I will always remember my favourite teacher and Mme pellitier is up there too but Mrs Lutz was special she really helped me and showed me kindness and found the truth that you can always do better than expected. living proof that there are good popular people ( she was prom queen when she was in high school). MRS LUTZ WE LOVE YOU!!
6. Okay well Angel and supernatural are now my fav shows. supernatural is thrilling and really funny and Angel is full of fun loving stuff like the time angel was grossed out of drinking blood. lol anyways just had to get that out there. ou should watch a few episodes I'm sure you'll get hooked soon enough.
7. SCRATCH THAT! I ALREADY MENTIONED THIS!
8. Well eight is my favourite number for many many reasons so this one had to be just me randomly talking. I don't know why but I just felt that I might actually get somewhere. Oh well I might as well talk about my book seeing how this is supposed to be book day. Umm well without synopsis because that will be next week. Well because I kind of got Athina hooked on writting she is now trying to write one and Emma was already starting a book when I met her soo basically we have started a book club.. but this book club is for writting not reading lol. So we're going to have a blast with that..... Now I think this was a good 8 so I'll be moving on.
9. My weekend plan is not really in order but after school kelsey comes on my bus to my house and we have a sleep over and work on poo ( the DT project) then saturday we got to her house work on the shoe box for miss Lutz and then I sleep over ( plus I get to meet piglette) Then Sunday we go to church and sing hymn-nim-nims!! YAY. I don't know about you but to me that sounds like a blast! Welll that seemed slightly superficial.
10. Right! about that sudden enlightenment well lets just say it was flushed. But I basically got my wish anyhow. Well the plan was to start a wiccan coven with the closest of my friends so we had like a sisterhood. I would have been high priestess and well the rest my clan but it got scratched. It still kind of worked out though because they now call me Queen and they are my loving court. Isn't that awesome????!!!!!
11. O lol you are probably a bit uncertain about this paragraph but you know what don't worry. In the book we are reading theres an emo named ANN and two lesbians one named FELICITY and the other one , who's dead PIPPA. then theres GEMMA wh gets weird visions and stuff. She is kind of the leader anyway we decided that I was Gemma-pippa, Kelsey was Pippa-ann, athina was Ann- Gemma and Emman was Felicity. lol. Gemma is lady hope. ann is song, pippa is beauty and felicity is strength. So me and Emma hold hands and hug a lot, and she has these really coold buttons that I love doing up so basically it looks pretty odd from a diffrent stand point. So like one day I was holding her hand and then as we got to her locker and I undidher buttons and gave her a hug after micheal came up to me and was like" Sybil, are you a lesbian?" I almost laughed but I managed to restreign myself. Then after we were talking about the book and I was like, what would you do if one of your friends randomly told you that they were lesbian.? It was kind of funny, the answers I got but Emma's is the one that made me laugh she said " I'd give them a hug and say right on! as long as they dont try kissing me im cool! and hey whatever floats their boats?!!" I loved that. that was actually our sentence of the day. that and why is your bread covered in oatmeal?
So now I've finished and this is probably very long but you'll get over it and now I'm pretty sure you are 100% caught up!
Later,
GothGirl xox
To make this easyer for everyone I'll make a table of contents because you migh be taken aback by the length so if there are certain subjects you want to skip you go right ahead. You'll only be deprived. but this was you can take it in sections.
Table
1. the jordan issue
2. finally getting along with teachers
3. lol perfect ending
4. finding a place in madness
5. Mrs Lutz is leaving!!
6. angel to supernatural
7.getting better grades and how?
8. well there just has to be eight so ill blabber
9. my weekend plan
10. my enlightenment down the drain
11. random lesbians!
1. I'm sure all of you were just waiting to hear about this one. In my last attempt at a blog I had made a list of all the boyfriends or guys I considered as one well might as well add him with only O's. today we broke up. Technecally he broke up with me but i've been trying to do it all week. Ask any of my friends they'll say it. they've been bugging me for weeks about it. Well now mission accomplished because to tell you the truth I feel free. No more locked cages. I can do all I want and don't have to have some anoying guy at my side. I mean grr. I want peace and quiet once in a while. So i'm now free to gawk at whom ever i feel.
2. Okay well the teachers are kind of freaking me out. I mean they suddenly seem easy. Maybe I just got used to what each of them wants. Like Mrs lluts wants personnality, conflict. State your feelings no matter what. mrs Noonan. Have fun with it, but get the wrk done and don't cpmplain to me. Mrs Crandall all fatcs no if ands or butts, use scientific speech and don't ever say I thinnk or anything of the like. ( Basically she likes things perfect) but she also like doing experiments, not notes. though I find that a really hard way to learn I thinkIll have more fun. and Mrs van Dusen Wants to hear what you have to say and state your opinion, but she wants it dont in an orderly fashion.
All in all I think I've got them down. But the thing is I don't remember getting used to it just that I came back from school after four days off and everything was easyer. EVERYTHING! Today I even got an A in science. Whatever I'm happy !! Though it did take Six months to figure it out :S hopefully this'll help for next year.
3.Oh this was hilarious! I read the book vampire diaries and at the end it was all dramatic and confusing. basically the evil guy had almost killed everyone and then bonnie was all that was left. she was about to be attacked but righ before she used her psycchic powers to call forth Elena. Elana came with an army of phantoms from the civil war and basically swooped up the bad guy in a big tornado. Then Elena healed then all before returning to human from phantom. basically then they play ring around thne rosy and everything stops. It then cuts to bonnies diary. It says the date and then Dear diary. There's too much to even explain and you wouldn't beleive me even if I told you. I'm going to bed. Then its signed and that's the end. I was like THAT is sooo something I'd do! lol.
4. SO I found a place in madness. I went from feeling completly alone and confused to mellow and happy. Everything balanced out I guess.... I mean I have great friends and I feel better at school and I just feel good. This ones a lot shorter but I just had to get it out there.
5. First Mr Rayjak and now Mrs Lutz. Finally time to take her leave Mrs Lutz is leaving the 12th. we have planned to make a shoe box and fill it with things we think will make her remeber us. Ill also be taking pictures and stuff to add to that. We're going to miss her so much but I'm going to ask for an email of hers so we can stay in touch, me athina kelsey and the rest we will also be leaving our emails in the box so if need be she can always have a way. We are going out friday for a party to say our goodbyes. though I hardly think it a reason to celebrate, but she is having a baby so I say thumbs up. Hopefully she'll email me pictures so I can post them ( OH and the cali pictures might be hard to upload seeing how I dont even have them :( but you probably dont care much anyways.) So I will always remember my favourite teacher and Mme pellitier is up there too but Mrs Lutz was special she really helped me and showed me kindness and found the truth that you can always do better than expected. living proof that there are good popular people ( she was prom queen when she was in high school). MRS LUTZ WE LOVE YOU!!
6. Okay well Angel and supernatural are now my fav shows. supernatural is thrilling and really funny and Angel is full of fun loving stuff like the time angel was grossed out of drinking blood. lol anyways just had to get that out there. ou should watch a few episodes I'm sure you'll get hooked soon enough.
7. SCRATCH THAT! I ALREADY MENTIONED THIS!
8. Well eight is my favourite number for many many reasons so this one had to be just me randomly talking. I don't know why but I just felt that I might actually get somewhere. Oh well I might as well talk about my book seeing how this is supposed to be book day. Umm well without synopsis because that will be next week. Well because I kind of got Athina hooked on writting she is now trying to write one and Emma was already starting a book when I met her soo basically we have started a book club.. but this book club is for writting not reading lol. So we're going to have a blast with that..... Now I think this was a good 8 so I'll be moving on.
9. My weekend plan is not really in order but after school kelsey comes on my bus to my house and we have a sleep over and work on poo ( the DT project) then saturday we got to her house work on the shoe box for miss Lutz and then I sleep over ( plus I get to meet piglette) Then Sunday we go to church and sing hymn-nim-nims!! YAY. I don't know about you but to me that sounds like a blast! Welll that seemed slightly superficial.
10. Right! about that sudden enlightenment well lets just say it was flushed. But I basically got my wish anyhow. Well the plan was to start a wiccan coven with the closest of my friends so we had like a sisterhood. I would have been high priestess and well the rest my clan but it got scratched. It still kind of worked out though because they now call me Queen and they are my loving court. Isn't that awesome????!!!!!
11. O lol you are probably a bit uncertain about this paragraph but you know what don't worry. In the book we are reading theres an emo named ANN and two lesbians one named FELICITY and the other one , who's dead PIPPA. then theres GEMMA wh gets weird visions and stuff. She is kind of the leader anyway we decided that I was Gemma-pippa, Kelsey was Pippa-ann, athina was Ann- Gemma and Emman was Felicity. lol. Gemma is lady hope. ann is song, pippa is beauty and felicity is strength. So me and Emma hold hands and hug a lot, and she has these really coold buttons that I love doing up so basically it looks pretty odd from a diffrent stand point. So like one day I was holding her hand and then as we got to her locker and I undidher buttons and gave her a hug after micheal came up to me and was like" Sybil, are you a lesbian?" I almost laughed but I managed to restreign myself. Then after we were talking about the book and I was like, what would you do if one of your friends randomly told you that they were lesbian.? It was kind of funny, the answers I got but Emma's is the one that made me laugh she said " I'd give them a hug and say right on! as long as they dont try kissing me im cool! and hey whatever floats their boats?!!" I loved that. that was actually our sentence of the day. that and why is your bread covered in oatmeal?
So now I've finished and this is probably very long but you'll get over it and now I'm pretty sure you are 100% caught up!
Later,
GothGirl xox
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