I failed my french summative.... failed. oh my god. this cannot be happening to me! ive never failed ANYTHING before! i worked sooo hard on this too!!! i worked and worked and omg.... i was soo confident this was going to get an A. my presentation was spotless, my writing wasnt my best but it wasnt bad either. the ideas were supurb and it was an amazing finished product... AND I FAILED!!!how the HELL does that work!! the only reason i got marks off was because mine was one of the last ones to be handed in cause mrs friken cheung gave me the second last slot time. she even admitted that she easyer marks those handed in first. so i mean its prejudice really. i was given that time slot and now im getting punished for it... i cannot believe this. its going to bring my mark down insanely. !!! i know its JUST grade 9 whatever the hell that means but i care about school and my marks and it feels like i just got punched in the face by my french teacher. im sorry but if french FRANCE is your third language you should not be teaching french QUEBECOIS!!! UGH
so now im upset and stressed out even more. i cant even use my anger with something useful. all i have left to do now is study... and i cant study harshly it just doesnt work! so now im putting all my anger and scorn into this post! GRRRR i worked sooo hard on this project on these projects and now i got my first one back and i failed... is that fair?! now im worried about my geo one and my science one. i was confident about those two aswell but now... im not sure. JEESH i have exam time!
Wednesday, January 27, 2010
Saturday, January 23, 2010
:S
i just realized how much i missed justin. We've seen each other only on the bus for the past 3 weeks. i havent really hung out with him since dec 17 when we went out for his birthday.and even that was with a group of people. i cant remember the last time we just did something us two. i miss the way he holds me, and our odd conversations. i miss not having to worry about anything else because he was there. I miss knowing he was always there for me. I suppose it wouldnt be so bad as long as we talked. we havent video chatted since he left. he's barely ever online and when he is online its for like 20 minutes. we barely talk any more and it seems like we never have time for each other anymore. This coming friday is our 10 month anniversary and how much do you want to bet we won't end up seeing each other. its a horrible feeling. like a part of me is missing. i don't like feeling like this.
i wonder if justin misses me at all. probably not cause hes not even trying. hes always busy and its just like he doesnt care. you know? i just cant wait until we can see each other again. i miss him so much.
GG
it is probably a good thing though because we are both stressed out and pulled to our limits with exams and summatives. we'd probably only fight anyway. thats why i hope we can see each other on the 29th cause everything will be done so we can just relaxe.
i wonder if justin misses me at all. probably not cause hes not even trying. hes always busy and its just like he doesnt care. you know? i just cant wait until we can see each other again. i miss him so much.
GG
it is probably a good thing though because we are both stressed out and pulled to our limits with exams and summatives. we'd probably only fight anyway. thats why i hope we can see each other on the 29th cause everything will be done so we can just relaxe.
Thursday, January 21, 2010
new respect
I came to a new respect with my aunt today. for a while, i honestly thought she was stuck up and cold and cared for few people. today i realized that was not the case and that she in fact delt with the same thing i had to. the only diffrences being, she never knew her father loved her, and shes been dealing with it for a long time. also i dont think shes an old soul so she doesnt have the calm tendensies that i do. Anyway. After 60 years of dealing with that im not sure she really is cold, just steeled from the world so she wont get hurt. i understand that and sympathize with it. actually i dont really need to. i know. So now when i look at her, i see myself, years from now. its a very real possibility. and im happy i now understand fully the situation. i like getting both sides of an argument before forming an opinion.
Tuesday, January 19, 2010
GODDESS!!!!! grrr.....
okay its fourth period and i think i finally have enough time to make a little post. not one of my famously long ranting ones but enough to catch you up on my current affairs. I'd love to tell youthat everythings amazin and that im super happy and great and writing a million friken pages a day and that my book was coming along nicely... sadly that is sooo beyond not the case.
so basically ill start from the main and go into the deep heady world of the extremly complicated. Well as you know in january every single teenager in high school has to take exams and do summativve projects. What my school didn't plan for was timing. Usually the summatives were a feew weeks before exams so that way we wouldnt be as stressed out. so instead now i have my exams and my summatives on the same day... basically i can say its pretty crazy. I just finished my french summative and did my music exam. My science summative is due thursday and my geography, tomorrow. For french i had to create a movie about a ffrench play. science i have to create a board game (which isnt that bad) and in geo, i have to literally make, and withstand my village. Thrilling isnt it. so anyways here i am extremely stressed out. also on top of that my exams, music today tomorrow, and tuesday. my science exam tuesday, my geo thursday and my french wednesday.
btw my friend pickles says hi. she is sitting beside me reading over my shoulder.... lol she just commented on the fact that she cant be reading oveer my shoulder if shes beside me... sadly she may be right.
back on track: Im stressed im slightly crazy im totally freaking out and fighting with my dad and mom 24/ 7 is sooo not helping anything. worst of all, every single one of my teachers are like you shouldn't get stressed, just take it in steps.... yea well they dont have 3 summatives to do and 4 exams to study for!!! grr.
Actually pardon my faute. the worst thing is. justin is in the same mental state im in... none. so basically summing up my worst problem i havent really had a conversation that wasnt about school with justin since....... december 17 which was the last time i saw him before he left for arizona. shit that sucks. plus... that was the last day i was with him too... and that was wiiith people. i cant even remember when we saw each other alone. gr. so i miss him a lot and well we cant do anything this coming weekend cause im devoting my entire brain power to studying because i dont have much time this week. then finally on the 29th we're going to see each other... sadly that means i have to wait for the 29th ( which is btw our 10 month aniversary yays)
after all this im not much of a person and has absolutely no excess brain matter. When im not studying or working, im thinking about studying and working. and when im not thinking about studying or working im dreaming about it... which is just as bad. plainly saying i havent had any time to write or have a alife for the oast 2 weeks. this is soo beyond insane. im behind in my book by like 5 chapters and i cant even seem to care because im too worried about everything else going on. only 116 more days and still 17 more chapters. good thing being next semester will be a breeze so i dont even have to worry about catching up. i can jsut do 2 or 3 chapters a week for the first little while and be back on in no time. i mean seriously art english gym math what a snap! goddess i just said snap... there must be something wring with me...
until another time
GothGirl
PS im supposed to be writing the descriptions of my village right now... but its in french and im not in the mood. DAMNIT!
so basically ill start from the main and go into the deep heady world of the extremly complicated. Well as you know in january every single teenager in high school has to take exams and do summativve projects. What my school didn't plan for was timing. Usually the summatives were a feew weeks before exams so that way we wouldnt be as stressed out. so instead now i have my exams and my summatives on the same day... basically i can say its pretty crazy. I just finished my french summative and did my music exam. My science summative is due thursday and my geography, tomorrow. For french i had to create a movie about a ffrench play. science i have to create a board game (which isnt that bad) and in geo, i have to literally make, and withstand my village. Thrilling isnt it. so anyways here i am extremely stressed out. also on top of that my exams, music today tomorrow, and tuesday. my science exam tuesday, my geo thursday and my french wednesday.
btw my friend pickles says hi. she is sitting beside me reading over my shoulder.... lol she just commented on the fact that she cant be reading oveer my shoulder if shes beside me... sadly she may be right.
back on track: Im stressed im slightly crazy im totally freaking out and fighting with my dad and mom 24/ 7 is sooo not helping anything. worst of all, every single one of my teachers are like you shouldn't get stressed, just take it in steps.... yea well they dont have 3 summatives to do and 4 exams to study for!!! grr.
Actually pardon my faute. the worst thing is. justin is in the same mental state im in... none. so basically summing up my worst problem i havent really had a conversation that wasnt about school with justin since....... december 17 which was the last time i saw him before he left for arizona. shit that sucks. plus... that was the last day i was with him too... and that was wiiith people. i cant even remember when we saw each other alone. gr. so i miss him a lot and well we cant do anything this coming weekend cause im devoting my entire brain power to studying because i dont have much time this week. then finally on the 29th we're going to see each other... sadly that means i have to wait for the 29th ( which is btw our 10 month aniversary yays)
after all this im not much of a person and has absolutely no excess brain matter. When im not studying or working, im thinking about studying and working. and when im not thinking about studying or working im dreaming about it... which is just as bad. plainly saying i havent had any time to write or have a alife for the oast 2 weeks. this is soo beyond insane. im behind in my book by like 5 chapters and i cant even seem to care because im too worried about everything else going on. only 116 more days and still 17 more chapters. good thing being next semester will be a breeze so i dont even have to worry about catching up. i can jsut do 2 or 3 chapters a week for the first little while and be back on in no time. i mean seriously art english gym math what a snap! goddess i just said snap... there must be something wring with me...
until another time
GothGirl
PS im supposed to be writing the descriptions of my village right now... but its in french and im not in the mood. DAMNIT!
Monday, January 18, 2010
Sunday, January 3, 2010
Friday, January 1, 2010
Happy New Year
It is 2010 my friends.
New years resolutions:
1. to finish my book
2. to not lie
3. find a third resolution
News, and no news.
there is so much i have to say and yet i don't really have anything to say.
I send my regrets to my friend Erin whos great grandmother just passed away on her birthday.
Also i say hooray for new clothes. AND im getting a new haircut soon. Hopefully justin won't hate it even if it is short.
I am now on chapter 12 and continuesly writing.
Hm... what else. Oh, even though there is only 3 more day of vacation until summatives and exams, i have a lot to do.
Jan 1:
drawing my new haircut to see the fit on me
homework
writing
Jan 2:
Writing
Family dinner ( which justin can't come to, im still mad about that)
programming my new ipod touch
Jan 3:
Getting my new haircut
Homework
Studying
Writing.
By the way, like 3 minutes before new years do you notice that all the anouncers are like "you better have the person you love close by because like you know, its a tradition to kiss them at midnight. :D" Like fuck you, make every friken person on the planet that can't be wil that person or don't have that person feel bad. Like all those girls at home with their husbands in the war. Like they don't want to be with them at midnight, but they can't. Or me and justin cause we're on;y 14, our parents don't really let us stay out till midnight. Like god.... bugs me. Poor single people, not only do they have valentines day stab them in the back but they have the new years anouncers too...
GothGirl xox
PS i should write comedy i mean lately everything i say sounds like stnad up and its funny too.
:D blue berry vitamins, orange art, psyciatrists, new years anouncers, emotional reading. ( you know when you cry or laugh about something you're reading and the people around you are like... what?), and Leah and her phone.... hmm maybe ill have to post them on here along with my theories.
New years resolutions:
1. to finish my book
2. to not lie
3. find a third resolution
News, and no news.
there is so much i have to say and yet i don't really have anything to say.
I send my regrets to my friend Erin whos great grandmother just passed away on her birthday.
Also i say hooray for new clothes. AND im getting a new haircut soon. Hopefully justin won't hate it even if it is short.
I am now on chapter 12 and continuesly writing.
Hm... what else. Oh, even though there is only 3 more day of vacation until summatives and exams, i have a lot to do.
Jan 1:
drawing my new haircut to see the fit on me
homework
writing
Jan 2:
Writing
Family dinner ( which justin can't come to, im still mad about that)
programming my new ipod touch
Jan 3:
Getting my new haircut
Homework
Studying
Writing.
By the way, like 3 minutes before new years do you notice that all the anouncers are like "you better have the person you love close by because like you know, its a tradition to kiss them at midnight. :D" Like fuck you, make every friken person on the planet that can't be wil that person or don't have that person feel bad. Like all those girls at home with their husbands in the war. Like they don't want to be with them at midnight, but they can't. Or me and justin cause we're on;y 14, our parents don't really let us stay out till midnight. Like god.... bugs me. Poor single people, not only do they have valentines day stab them in the back but they have the new years anouncers too...
GothGirl xox
PS i should write comedy i mean lately everything i say sounds like stnad up and its funny too.
:D blue berry vitamins, orange art, psyciatrists, new years anouncers, emotional reading. ( you know when you cry or laugh about something you're reading and the people around you are like... what?), and Leah and her phone.... hmm maybe ill have to post them on here along with my theories.
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